cripplinq

the pitt/robinavitch pilled. no shade because i love my suicidal man

[secondhandsunbeam]

i see why people enjoy young john carter so much - naive, eager to please, clumsy, wide eyed colt of a man, not to mention the early days benton/carter relationship is a goldmine, and the early seasons are low commitment and easy access - but i have a really soft spot for season 15 carter. i just love how he's still trying, even after life has beat him down for a decade, chronically disabled and clinically depressed and on the road to divorce. And then Peter Benton walks into his hospital room and they're peers now, friends still, and John's got a shadow of that spark back that he had at 25 and suddenly life isn't so bad anymore, even through the miles of trauma and loss

[notinterextinq]

Rabbot ~ Boxes full of personalities Robby created for every person he dated and one person who unearthed the own thing he was keeping close to himself but far away from his heart.

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The idea of Robby picking up little things from the people he dated as he created a new version of himself for them

For instance, he still owns a vintage camera he barely knows how to use but he still keeps it bc he liked the version of robby who loved life enough to remember it

He now knows how to make handmade pasta, ran a 10k only once and never again, had gotten a letterboxd account and he’s surprisingly still committed to it… He even got into birdwatching during a hiking date and he stuck with that even after he ended things with his date

His house is the testament of all the identities he created of himself to make others content with robby being in their lives…

This is mainly why he leaves the relationship before they can see the real robby and abandon him…

That’s why his house has like so many different things— climbing gears, pilates equipments, one mug he made in pottery class… all the lives Robby could’ve lived but decided not to because he doesn’t feel deserving.

Robinavitch, a man of many hobbies he originally picked up just to spend time with other people… only to eventually end up doing all of them alone or abandon them in the attic.

Until one day his husband wants to clear the attic, ending up opening up the box Robby was keeping full of stuff that belonged to a Robby he didn’t know and one beautifully carved wooden box, inside with the only book in his house Robby hadn’t read… his mother’s journal.

[notinterextinq]

The Pitt season two, episode 15 (9 P.M.)

Jack Abbot (Shawn Hatosy) x Michael ‘Robby’ Robinavitch (Noah Wyle)

[fandiagnosis]

the reason why jack abbot is so competent, hot, charming, thoughtful, determined, resourceful, dependable and flirty in the pitt is because we see everything from robby's perspective.

[notinterextinq]

Rabbot goes to watch the new Nolan movie on IMAX and drive 2 hours to the closest IMAX theater with the only seats available.

Robby’s answer to Jack: whatever.

*Robby wrote a three paragraphs review on his secret letterboxd account*

[pittangel]

i'm sorry the demonization of robby (esp on pittok) is actually starting to get both decently concerning and annoying. it's literally all i'm seeing with discussions in regards to his character. saw someone refer to him on here as "the devil himself" in a post that had 20k notes. commentary like this was funny at first, when it felt silly and unserious, but a lot of you are not joking. and that is weird. because why is this how you guys treat the mentally ill representation all of tumblr is constantly complaining they want? you finally have it. too real? too unsavory? that's literally the whole point of his character. to give a nuanced and unflinching portrayal of depression, suicidal ideation, unresolved trauma, and work related burnout that many healthcare workers experience. robby might not be real, but these vitriolic and insensitive things you say about him will impact real people who see themselves in him. not to be too extra but maybe this is why male suicide rates are so high. because this is how you guys treat and speak about men who are actively struggling.

some people are purposely witholding empathy for his character and being so critical of his actions specifically because he's a man, and that shit is really weird. and can i say it? he's not a misogynist. i'm not gonna talk too much about that even though i could write a whole thinkpiece if sufficiently prompted. just know arguing with a woman and being a little mean to them does not at all translate to misogynoir. that's just him being off-kilter and in a shitty mood (you know, because he's actively suicidal? but yeah let's just all ignore that part). in fact, if i can participate in the woke olympics for a second i think people who are labeling robby as as misognyist fit that bill much more themselves. so many people i see making this argument boil down characters like al-hashimi and mohan to the fact that they are just women instead of grown ass adults who are strong and capable of bumping heads with robby (and this is coming from someone who strongly disliked his treatment of mohan in s2).

robby is not the big bad wolf. you give him too much credit. these women are not weak-willed flowers who will crumble at the slightest bit of conflict. funnily enough, that trend of thought is super contrarian because it makes gender their sole defining trait in the discussion of their character. it also paints them as weak victims. did we watch the same show? because i saw 2 adults. who had an argument. there's no need to cry hatecrime. and i say this as someone who is so avidly feminist. we gotta stop throwing that term around. the way you guys talk about him makes him sound so cartoonishly evil you'd think he was running around the ER shaking kids down for candy or something. it'd be funny if it wasn't so disapointing.

you don't have to like him personally to watch the show (though i do think it's a bit odd not to, given he's the main character) but refusing to acknowledge the percieved complexities of his character in the "everybody is complex" show is weird. my opinion? robby is not a bad person. hell, he's not even morally complex. i see someone who has made mistakes, just like everyone else on planet earth. he's a good, genuine guy who has been ravaged by mental illness. he is just very, very lost. that's the point. that is what mental illness can do to you. he is not a perfect person, in fact, at many points during my viewing of s2 i sort of hated him. but i will always defend him, because he is not this malicious figure the narrative online is painting him as. the pitt fandom only has this attitude for him and quite literally nobody else.

also, i heard noah wyle is getting hate for the FICTIONAL CHARACTER he plays on a FICTIONAL SHOW and all i have to say is, you guys are so fucking weird and parasocial. please touch some grass. micheal robinavitch is not a real person. he cannot hurt you.

[backonmybullsht]

Thank you @pittangel and @club-medical for addressing how the Pitt fandom uses WOC as pawns in their little woke Olympics for clicks. As a WOC myself, it's fucking infuriating to watch mostly white girls act like these characters and real life actresses have zero agency and everything that happens is only happening TO them, and happening solely because of their gender and race. I certainly don't look at the events of my own life that way, good or bad.

It's so refreshing to watch a show populated with complex WOC who feel like real people, and to see more than one token asian woman as a series regular, to have a WOC executive producer, WOC writers, female DP, female directors, female casting team, female camera operator, female production designer, female medical consultant, etc. It's really fucking disappointing to then go online and see all the fandom discourse reduce the characters to nothing but their most superficial identities, and completely ignore all the contributions and the very existence of the female creatives working their asses off to make this show happen.

In conclusion, this fandom thinks it's holier than thou but it's actually really fucking racist and sexist.

[notinterextinq]

rabbot / trans robby

TW: deadnaming, the name itself and the event isn’t described, just mentioned.

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Jack and Robby both start growing out their beards while working the same shift. Robby’s quietly proud—it’s the first time since starting t that his beard actually started to look like a “real” beard.

However, after admins make a whole deal out of being professional and looking presentable. Adamson tells them one of them has to shave—“Not running a biker gang on day shift. Patients and upstairs prefer clean-shaven doctors, gentlemen.”

and somehow Robby’s and Jack’s already fragile dynamic grows a little more tense as neither of them wants to shave.

They bet on it, the person who works on the most patient in a month won’t have to shave his beard. As time passes, their stupid bet over who has to shave their beard continues—both of them putting in longer hours sometimes to catch up with the other one.

Jack is just doing this to piss robby off and show him that he’s better than him, blissfully unaware of the fact that the beard represents something more important to robby

After a confrontation with a patient, out of nowhere Robby spirals, staggers back into the hub and finds Jack. Stoic Mr. Robinavitch seems to be lost, his face pale as he asks Jack to take over his patient for him.

Jack could do nothing but nod due to the man’s demeanor all shaken up. When Jack got over to check the patient, she seemed like a regular old patient, nothing out of the ordinary. So he had no idea why Robby passed the patient to him and looked like he was about to puke his guts out.

Later on, as the hours pass by, he tries to ask Robby what actually went down with the patient.

“What, did she flirt with you or something? What got your panties all tied up?” Jack says as he tries to lighten the mood and figure out what actually happened.

He somehow finds himself worried about Robby.

However, Robby isn't having any of it. He snaps at Jack, clearly overwhelmed, tears and frustration brimming in his eyes and his face ashy like the chalk they use on blackboards—his pale face a stark contrast to his brown beard.

Jack thinks, screw this, we aren’t really friends anyway, so why should he care, anyway? But Jack can’t still forget the look in Robby’s eyes.

Robby takes rest of the day off.

The next day, Robby shows up clean-shaven, eyes puffy, his face sunken.

Jack doesn’t fully understand why the man shaved and admitted defeat this early.

Also, why did a beard matter so much in the first place anyway?

Then one day, he overhears Robby whispering to Dana about being deadnamed in his medical records and how he feels like he doesn’t ‘look’ masculine anymore, and yeah, Jack feels like the biggest asshole.

While Jack never clocked that Robby was trans, but he was still able to understand why Robby might feel like he wasn’t ‘enough’.

To jack he was more than enough. He was Robinavitch fo g-d’s sake. A man who could do everything, an unwavering force.

Even though Jack had no idea what went down with that patient months ago, he was now somewhat sure that it must have been something related to Robby being trans, Especially since the poor guy shaved his beard the day right after that encounter.

Next shift, Jack shows up clean-shaven.

He doesn’t make a big deal out of it—just hands Robby a small bottle of beard oil and shrugs — “You should grow it back, brother. Looks better on you anyway.”

Robby’s beard grows faster this time around and jack never stops buying him that brand of expensive beard oil.

[fandiagnosis]

Robby & Abbot + silent communication in THE PITT 2.15

[notinterextinq]

Born as the first omega in his family in over a decade, Robby was treated as a disgrace by his alpha parents, discarded and left to be raised by his grandparents. growing up under the shadow of rejection, he internalized one absolute truth: he was unlovable.

In order to protect himself, Robby built a quiet, safe life, exclusively dating betas where expectations were grounded and his dynamic didn't matter. He never disclosed his second gender, wore scent patches constantly, and only ever had to tell Dr. Adamson due to a sudden heat. No one else knew about him being an omega.

He was content living in the margins until he met the alpha of his dreams at 43, an alpha he could never be with, who was married to an intelligent, beautiful, and a lovable alpha named Claire.

she was everything Robby couldn’t be.

Surprisingly, Claire and Robby became friends, growing even closer than Robby could’ve ever gotten with Jack due to his wolf claiming Jack even before he, himself realized. Robby had gotten to know Claire, she was one of the only people to truly know that the great Dr. Michael Robinavitch was an omega.

when Claire passed away, Jack lost his wife and Robby lost his friend.

you see, even though they loved each other, Jack and Robby never opened up to each other, never got together. Not in the way you find in romance novels. they fell in love in the sense that they kept each other alive through everything.

Through bad shifts, rooftop visits, and traumas that reopened.

However, they never bonded, never bit each other, never left marks on one another. They simply existed together, both of them too scared to talk.

Jack died without ever knowing Robby was an omega, and robby died believing he was undeserving of love.