Whoever you think I am it's not me

she/they, closer to 30 than I want to be, unfortunately obsessed with realm of the elderlings

[11no1ideas11]

[chatlot-charles]

i go like three or four days without letting rote make me cry and then i see an edit on tiktok to silver springs by fleetwood mac and all of a sudden i’m going to be sobbing all night. this series is a PRISON

[notme9083]

Three or four days is deserving of respect. I pass by the bookshelf that turned into rote shrine several times a day and none of them are without losing my mind.

[eden-falls]

does it bother you? she asked me.

i did not ask her what she meant. strange to say, no. you are you. fool, lord golden, amber, and beloved. you are you, and we know each other as well as any two people can.

beloved, she said, and smiled sadly.

[goldown]

Whose childhood was more traumatic: Fitz's, or Nighteyes's?

Fitz

Nighteyes

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Voting ended onNov 1, 2025

[swagspren]

My favorite part of tumblr Realm of the Elderlings posts is that if the content is about Fitz at all someone will be in the tags going “lest we forget!!! He is bad in bed. Can’t fuck to save his life” Perhaps because it’s ooc to see him winning

[tragediegh]

Straightest thing Fitz ever did

see Kettricken while drugged, think she resembled the Fool &call her Pale Beauty

Daydream about the Fool wearing his dad's gay earring for uhhhhhhh 15 years

Make him promise to keep it and wear it always when the Fool tried to return it

"That faithful heart will return soon" palm reading

All the times he described the Fool's physique in way more detail that necessary

"I dreamed of you while I was gone" (also said to his GF💀)

His catastrophic internal meltdown when told his dick wasn't worth waiting for

AmBeR aS i HaD nEvEr ImAgInEd HeR (liar voice)

My (singular) dream was dead in my arms

All those But In A Straight Way caveats to holding and kissing crying Beloved

And if I said I would follow you, then? Leave my other life behind and go with y

Beloved Fool! No!!!

Voting ended onOct 26, 2025

​I'm gonna be doing at least a part two there's simply no way to fit all these in one poll lmfaooooooooo

[notme9083]

Wip Wednesday

Jumping in off of everyone who tagged whoever wants to join: a little snippet from the Fitz follows Beloved after Fool's Fate AU that is not letting me work on anything else.

One time, during our early morning Mercen lessons I managed to ask a question that seemed to please him. He was explaining the surprisingly complex system of gendered and ungendered pronouns when the thought struck me.  "I write in the Duchies tongue." My statement was met with a confused blink from where he sat across from me on the floor of our cabin. "Yes? We can get started on written word if you wish, but I don't believe it is essential for you to get by for a short while." "No, I only meant, when I write I simply use 'he' when referring to you. Would you prefer otherwise?" A ghost of a smile touched his lips for the first time since our Reunion, one I might even call endeared if I dared, and he fidgeted with his sleeves as he responded. "Ah, well I have no preference as such, though at times I may feel more specifically inclined. In writing you may use any which is more convenient." And so I shall. I found that any discomfort I had previously experienced towards my Beloved's lack of specificity in the matter had vanished into the nether without any notice. Was it the time I spent in their body allowing me a measure of understanding? Was it the incalculable time she was gone from this world fostering some disregard for such inconsequential differences? Or was it my witnessing of Civil Bresinga's juvenile tantrum putting my own behavior in perspective? Perhaps the answer lay in all of those possibilities at once or none of them at all. Perhaps I was simply ready to admit to myself that I loved him as he was.

[starling-illu]

Family Gathering

Here's the piece I made for this year's RotE Winterfest Gift Exchange, a cosy scene bringing together Fitz, Beloved, Bee, Nettle, Riddle, Hope and Hap <3

[coldlikethestars]

forever thinking about these two little moments from fool's errand

[chronokepts-deactivated20260510]

Care to dance

[provincara]

Me while reading Assassin’s Apprentice and Royal Assassin: hmm not really sure why people ship Fitz and the Fool so much but whatever! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Me halfway through Assassin’s Quest: OHHHHHHH YEAH I GET IT

[notme9083]

Starting to think my experience was universal

[notme9083]

Made an attempt to count all the times FitzChivalry Farseer very platonically thinks about the Fool's clever/graceful/elegant hands but had to give up halfway through Tawny Man. There is not enough hours in the day for that.

[neatbay]

and like. am i totally misremembering or did the pale woman call him out on this? something like 'oh you loved his hands so much, guess what i did!' which is evil. but also kinda funny because it implies that fitz was staring at the fool's hands (?) in the icy torture dungeon (??)

[notme9083]

Not wrong at all. In fact most of the Pale Woman's lines are a dead giveaway at what impression Fitz gives to everyone around him when he is in the Fool's company.

[leafykat]

some scenes from Fool's Errand :''''')

[notme9083]

Poor Beloved getting hella mixed signals for the entire book

[2129888]

how i imagine them in their stone wolf cabin aka eternal honeymoon suite<3 yay<3

THIS IS PACK

[notme9083]

Today I made Fitz's last word more devastating for myself by confirming that this was the only instance of either of them calling the other "Beloved" in the entirety of Assassin's Fate. The only other "Beloved" that did not come from other characters was when Fitz killed Capra.

[notme9083]

Me: I am being completely normal about rote

Also me:

[notme9083]

There is something to be said about one of Fitz's most traumatic moments being Verity taking over his body without his knowledge and then Fitz making the choice to willingly give up his body for Beloved to live in if it came to that but idk what it is. Someone else take over please.