So, this is a long time coming.
Right now, I’m going to have to say goodbye. Tumblr isn’t fun for me anymore. It’s stress and anxiety. I used to love this community and my friends in it. Now I’m just so beyond stressed in my real life that I can’t handle this place anymore. I feel like more often than not, I’m a dumping ground for people’s problems. I can’t even handle my own. My own roommate is probably getting sick of me being so down and out all the time.
That’s the thing though. I can’t stay, no matter how bad I want to. It keeps taking me away from my goals, taking me away from the mountain. I have a lot to accomplish in life, and a long way still to go. I have the odds against me as always, and any distractions could stop me. I can’t let that happen anymore.
I don’t want to lost contact with any of you. If you want to talk to me, please add me on skype if you haven’t already. It’s eveethedestroyer. I may take awhile to respond, but I will.
It’s been a fun ride, guys. I’ve been in this community a long time, and I’m actually not sad to say goodbye. It feels like a natural parting. But I am sad to lose all of you who I’ve come to cherish. I never meant to get attached to you guys as tightly as I did, but you all have been such good friends to me. It’s been such a growing experience getting to know all of you and I’m forever grateful for the time we’ve shared together. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. You all are the reason I am who I am today. When I had no friends and was totally isolated in real life, you were there. There’s so much a lot of you have done and don’t realize mattered the most to me, and I’m grateful today for it. And I want to keep you guys no matter what. You can message me if you want other ways to keep in contact with me. I love you dearly and will keep you in my heart forever.
It’s funny, but I’ve been on this website off and on since 2007. It’s been a huge part of my life. I don’t know what I’ll do next, but it’ll be an adventure.I just know that I have to focus on a career and a path. I bawled my eyes out typing this message, and I didn’t think it’d upset me as much as it did. But it’s time for me to just do what needs to be done.
This has been incredibly hard for me to write. I know it’s simple, but I’m saying goodbye to a huge part of my life. I know I’m going to miss it terribly, and I may pop back in from time to time to check in on how things are going. But I know for certain that I’ll never be a part of this community as I used to be. I’ve grown up, and it’s not where I belong anymore.
Thank you all for being here. You guys have so much farther to go, and I’m so proud of how far all of you have come. I wish I could go with you, but life is taking me in another direction. But no matter what, I’ll never forget you guys. I’ll leave you with two gifs that really mean goodbye to me, even if it does make me cry to post them.
