unbecome

to write is to shed a part of yourself and set it alight.

[nouvelis]

— a study of love in its many guises, and the metamorphosis born of pain.

a selective & independent multimuse account, penned by c.

sporadic activity & dash-only.

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semi hiatus til mid june since im on vacation 🥳🥳

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🎟️ for a moodboard — damien & seojung ( @nouvelis )

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[talesofnorth]

Sweetie, you know I support you, whatever you want to do, but you’re not gonna find what you’re looking for in these awful made-up places.

[miamlsunshine]

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inyeop's character in dear x got me so good that scrolling through the gif hunt makes me re-experience that pain all over again...

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continued / @blcssom

“it’s also too well made for you to wait for it to go cold.” joonho remarks. a hopeful smile plays on his lips as he wonders when her resistance will wear off and she’ll finally tell him what’s plaguing her mind. it’s what they do. despite their reserved natures, theirs is a friendship they both hold dear enough to let their masks slip and speak their true thoughts aloud. joonho is a private person who keeps most people at arm’s length, but with her, he is his more honest, straightforward self. “oh.” he falters when she reveals the failed audition. “i’m sorry to hear that.” but as far as he knows, there are plenty of possible reasons behind a rejection, and perhaps it has nothing to do with her talent at all. “then that means there’s more room for better opportunities to come along.” he isn’t an optimistic person by nature, but for her sake, he tries to be. he genuinely believes in her and supports her chasing her dream. “i would, but i don’t think you’ll need it,” he reassures with a smile. “besides, i think you’d be too bored after just one day.”

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continued / @autumnsnowcone

judging from the heaviness on sam’s shoulders and the deep frown between his brows, joonho has a feeling sam might be lying. he's a rather observant person most of the time, or perhaps he has grown to read the other too well during the months they have worked together. but he keeps his thoughts to himself, never one to probe too much into people’s privacy. if sam is ready to tell him what’s on his mind, he will. if he isn’t, forcing him won’t be helpful either. “if you say so.” joonho nods, taking a sip of his coffee. his gaze lingers on sam's untouched plate for another second before settling on the man again. if sam’s words are true, however, then perhaps it’s something to be grateful for that they had a quieter day in the cafe-restaurant than usual, giving sam more space to breathe between dealing with customers. “you can go back early if you want — i’ll take care of the rest.” he offers with a faint, warm smile, opting as usual for action over words when the people he cares for are having a hard time.

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@nouvelis ⸻ continued from here

"Don't worry about it, plenty of people take a few days away just to clear their head." Aryan said nonchalantly as he picked up his beer and took a sip. The frustration and hopelessness was evident on her face; Aryan almost felt bad that he was putting her through this. But that's the price one must pay for love. "Well, have you ever thought tha he might be ghosting you?"

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despite his best attempts, his words fail to comfort her — if that’s even what they are intended to do. instead, her worry remains heavy over her chest, a weight she cannot shake. “no…” she retorts immediately, her arms crossing over her chest before she reluctantly adds, “we did have a fight before, but this is not how he typically acts after one.” or maybe the man just decided he’s had enough of her. it would be a bummer, but it wouldn’t be the first time rayna suffered in her relationships.

[fvrmeden]

jaehwa does not really entertain thoughts like these often. but he supposes, today he can let it just be. that he can let himself wishfully think and hope for things that are out of his power. create scenarios that will probably never really happen. but it is fun to think about them. he takes leah's hand into his own, playing with her fingers as he speaks. "well, it's actually very simple. I will demand that they cannot heal me until i will get you as my doctor. i will channel my mother or something. 'i won't move until i speak to doctor willems.'" he even tries to say the last bit in the tone of voice that his mother would use — something incredibly entitled and demanding. "see, i already got it," he laughs, interlacing their fingers a little bit tighter. "and then they will have no choice but to call you. of course, you will probably be mad to come there on your day off. but well, some sacrifices must be made," he tries to joke. this version of their future doesn't sound that bad.

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“that would be very dramatic of you.” leah chuckles, warmth seeping into her heart at his ability to make her smile even in difficult times. if they are being completely honest, they met each other at the darkest time possible — and would it be a lie to say they have made the most of it despite the circumstances? “i would pay to see the show.” despite the jest, she hopes from the bottom of her heart that they will meet again when the drama in their respective lives has died off completely — when they may finally have a chance to call each other theirs. “oh, i would be so pissed. how dare you interrupt me on the only break i get the entire year?” assuming she takes one at all. it’s not like she’s never traded her leave days for money before, though that was more because the ward was too understaffed for her to allow herself a break and be at peace with it, and less about an inherent workaholism or a need for an even more lucrative salary. her free hand cups his cheek, her thumb brushing over his skin gently. “you’ll have to try very hard to make it up to me.”

[gctfuked]

though he was advised not to fall for the beauty of mortals, michael eventually did, breaking one of the rules. all he could think about was his father's disappointment ever since. tentatively he observed her, trying his best to push her away with his words and his nonchalant demeanor. she is better off building a life with another human, even thinking that caused some level of hurt within him -- not wanting to become like his brothers, selfish and stubborn he had to sacrifice this real and perfect love; the hardest part was this, letting her go. michael didn't regret each and every moment he's spent with her. ❝ yeah, i know it's hard to believe.❞ he stood there trying his best to sound convincing, but deep down he just knew it might back fire. ❝ i've felt this way for awhile, can't give you an appropriate timeline. ❞ voice still gentle despite the words that came out of his mouth. ❝ that's simple. i stayed because i loved you. once the love isn't there you have to let go, right ? ❞ a lie, speaking in past tense was the only way to hopefully convince her a little more. his features expressed nothing adding to the pretense. she mattered more than she thought, loves her still but his time wasn't meant to be here forever. ❝ do you not believe me? -- that i feel nothing towards you. ❞

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leah isn’t the type to stay in unworthy relationships, bending and breaking for someone who doesn’t deserve her, yet she cannot shake the feeling that he doesn’t mean a single thing he says. or maybe she is just being delusional, stubborn in her conviction of a love that might have been one-sided all along. “you’re lying.” she spits, but she hates how weak her voice sounds. should she just accept his words at face value and leave with what little is left of her dignity? slowly, she lets his rejection sink in, yet she is unable to make sense of it despite knowing every syllable. his words sound like a language she cannot comprehend, a script she lacks the program to decode. “when did you stop?” she asks, reluctantly grappling with the idea that he might mean a fraction of what he says. but if that’s true, what does it say about love? how can something that once felt so safe and sure be gone overnight? how can it vanish like quicksand? “when did you — when did you decide it’s not worth it anymore?”

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been busy as hell this past week, but now i finally have some spare time and i’m the perfect amount of tipsy, so i will attempt some drafts 🥰

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🎟️ for a moodboard — sungwoo & jules ( @nouvelis )

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🎟️ for a moodboard — jaejin & hajoon ( @nouvelis )