novelistparty

not a novelist - not a party

[popclture]

Willem Dafoe photographed by Marcelo Krasilcic (2003)

[novelistparty]

the seattle people most likely to fastidiously avoid making any conversation in public spaces are the wealthy, the types that don't ride the train or bus even if it run by their house

and they will be the "nicest" too

[novelistparty]

saw a kid on their bike and they had tassels at the ends of the handlebar. besides being fun i bet it helps some kids as a visual cue of their sense of motion as they try to balance when starting out

[novelistparty]

lrb: if you doubt the relative mundanity of hallucinations: go ask anyone raised in an intense religion and i guarantee they can rattle off at least a handful of stories from their immediate family, friends, and neighbors

[novelistparty]

lrb: yesterday i heard a rather recent example of my cousin's neighbor seeing the hat man. it was severe postpartum psychosis. they were so in the pit of things that it didn't even really bother them, he was just a part of the scenery for a time. their best friend made sure they got some help and the hat man went away. turns out that friend had also seen the hat man for a time after their first child and knew it was a sign they were in a bad way

[auramgold]

a lot of people assume psychosis hallucinations are super intense all-consuming horror movie shit like the memes about the hat man or always horrible debilitating things that make you dangerous to be around

but in my experience 95% of my hallucinations are getting spooked by very clearly hearing someone knocking on my door or calling my name from another room or hearing footsteps walking behind me which are "just" my brain recreating the horror of an abusive childhood

i *have* gotten the "bugs crawling all over me" hallucination once or twice though and yeah that one is exactly as terrible horrible as it sounds AUGH

[auramgold]

(not trying to put you on blast specifically, you're just a good example to jump off of)

media and pop culture hypes up psychosis a lot as The Worst That Can Happen out of sanism, so even when you try and filter that cultural bias out you still assume it's based on something

when, no, psychosis is actually very simple: it's just hyperactive pattern matching. it's your brain's signal-to-noise ratio being off balance, it's seeing images in random static. it's not always this special uniquely big thing, it's in fact quite mundane a lot of the time.

no one is immune to psychosis, it's not purely the realm of the insane. anyone is one bad night of sleep or one bad case of food poisoning or one bad fever away from being just like me on my worst days.

and this, indeed, is why solidarity with the insane is so important: you, yes you too, are just one bad day from joining us, and no perceptions of being a "temporarily embarrassed sane person" will save you from the oppression of the psychiatric institution.

[funstyle]

teenage girls in fiction: hes so cute i wanna slow dance with him at prom :3 hehe

real teenage girls: imagine if he got injured and i had to tend to his wounds and i could watch him seize up a bit as i disinfect them and in the haze of fever he sees me as an angel

[fatmagic]

[mytholegy]

this is where i blog from

[thisobscuredesireforbeauty]

Alva Bernadine. Forniphilia (Human Furniture). Source

[nuclearbummer]

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[makingimages]

[madeleineengland]

Arwen's dress in LOTR: Return of the King

[capacity2]

Meanwhile in the Elden ring film Queen marika is over here in a party city wig. They literally cannot make good looking movies anymore

[novelistparty]

fighting for purchase in the conversation

[risingoflights]

they're having that tedious 'bsky is dying' convo over there again and honestly, in personal experience, the web as a whole is dying - in the sense that seeing the internet as an extension of actual humans is now discouraged, and we're supposed to see a magic box that just spits out content and distraction with no thinking, feeling source - and bsky is prob more attuned to that death it bc it's full of 38yr olds who remember what the web once was.

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vegetation height in 1650

this is what the "greatness" of america has destroyed

[marxism-transgenderism]

Indiana, like its adjoining neighbors, consumed 20 million acres of forestland before 1870 with only axes, grubbing hoes, horses, and oxen. Men carried the fallen trees on handspikes or rolled them into heaps in ravines, where they were set ablaze. In the first decades of the nineteenth century, thousands of fires burned night and day for months on end, turning the skies sallow. Before the conflagration, these forests had provided an unsurpassed hunting area that had drawn the Iroquois south and eastern villagers like the Delaware and Abenaki west to the Ohio River valley. The original 20 million acres of primeval forest that once covered Indiana was nearly enough to encircle the globe one and a quarter times in a mile-wide band. Today, scarcely enough old-growth forest remains to cover the Indianapolis Motor Speedway at the same one- mile width. Early Anglo-Americans did to this region what is presently occurring in the tropical forests of Brazil, Borneo, Sumatra, New Guinea, and the Democratic Republic of the Congo.

— Susan Sleeper-Smith, Indigenous Prosperity and American Conquest: Indian Women of the Ohio River Valley, 1690–1792