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@novemberhound
this is one of my sideblog where i post or reblog personal stuff or just something that doesnt fit anywhere else. or just anything i want, idk anymore. and selfies.
he/it pronouns. not a human.
mistakes in emglish - bc fukk you
listening mylene farmer (i swear, sometimes even france can have something neat), an artist i was a big fan when i was 9-10yo, back then i loved her so much that i even looked for translation to every song... and o ma fucking god. no wonder that im so gloomy, dramatic and decadent. heres a song about a young boy who hanged himself in vienne garden, about a drowned girl, about being worthless, "i love melancholy", "no doubts that im a boy", "we are the generation of disenchantment", lots of songs about rather scandalous love (optimistique-moi had almost midori vibe when i rewatched it not that long ago... well thats just a feeling. but lots of her music videos were banned from tv for nudity and blasphemy) and all that in this romantique dreamy atmosphere. it explains a lot i guess. and i still can sing along to some of those french songs.
SUICIDE IN SLOVENIA
SUICIDE IN SLOVENIA!!!
yesterday mom was watching tv and there was a fucking american flag in the corner of the screen. fucking american flag. on a ukrainian tv channel. WTF WTFFFFFFF
m so well so WeeEEEeeL???? i drunk that thing so what now??? did it even has a value?? did it even work any way??? what it even worth? what should i do now, whats the point even? i want to kiss my brother realyh much, i want to drink to semi consckoous and drooling state and i also want to hug and kiss my brother really really much. and i also wantto smoke so bad that i hold maself with all the power left to not go and smoke bc ittll end bad, so what? and i want tp intoxicate maself. so what? as if i dont want to do it allthe time. m also im lonely someone talk to me. if not then ill probably watch some disgusting japanese movie. sad that cat sick blues is not japanese, ive heard that its a really disgusting movie but its not japanese so ill pass. ehhhh.
feeling dizzy and sleepy all day despite waking up at 18 and cafei and pepsi and hokkaido oniisans blurred video i started the day with didnt help as well as 4 cigs in 3 hours and chocolate on an empty stomach didnt help and now im also nauseous and thinking about drinking a hmmm what did i buy ah its brandy cola, idk if i drank such thing before but well i guess ill drink it, fits surprizingly well in ma daily calorie intake limit. today was nice cool weather so i could walk around in a cool sparkly rockstar jacket and listening sexy (in ma definition) music and hmmm what should i do now? i wish i could get soju but theres no soju. and no sake and no hokkaido beer, i wish i could move to japan and drink hokkaido beer all the time...
once again overthinking everything i said after hours of forgetting what i said, regretting being too honest, regretting not saying something better, regretting being insane, feeling stupid, hoping that hes ok, hoping that he will be nice...
and i just really want to be able to just come over and hug him. especially if hes sad. i would come over and i guess i would buy him a kinder egg with a toy animal or car inside... i mean it would work for me and it worked for one girl so i guess its not a bad idea... what am i even thinking. a clear sign that i need to sleep. but how can i sleep? im a fucking menace, i really didnt have to be like that, i really had to think better. what does that even mean, why would i say that e?
fuck. i want to kiss him. and to kms. oh no.
hokkaido oniisan taught me to make pasta. now who can taught me on how much soy sauce or teriyaki to add to it? every time i pour it on and its always not enough until suddenly in a moment it becomes too much. not like its a real problem, its still rather tasty just really salty and i dont think that natrium overconsumption can be good...
was trying to find a photo album with photos from thailand and found lots of cd-r from before 2012 i guess, mostly with vacation photos... but among them theres one, theres"непонятні мультіки (злобний мальчік)" ("unintelligible cartoons (malicious boi)") written on it. written clearly by me but i have no idea what does it means and whats there and its definitely not something mine (i didnt know how to record on cdr back then) but i definitely wrote this... such a mysterious cdr...
having a lolipop thats somewhat cracked and ma lip piercing keeps on getting stuck in the cracks, thats rather weird problem to have but here we are
dranking energy alco drink while watcjing a korean gangsta film, its so distracting that i can finally feel the joy! was drawing a tattooed guy and suddenly heard a word "shabi" from a chinese migrant gangsta, i know this word!!! it means stupid cunt!! yay!!! how happy am i, learning chinese swearings wasnt a waste of time!!!
i still cant get over of how it was enough for me to see a single very beautiful photography of a pretty naked thin chinese guy with long hair and mustache in my teens to become forever drawn toward pretty thin asian males with long hair and mustache...
but also just now i understood that the whole photoset with that guy influenced on how i draw backgrounds, i often add flowers, toys, curtains and chess floor, an all these things are present in those photos.
yeah i often save pics i like on ma laptop and recently made a folder with copies of images of people i find very beautiful and/or attractive (i tried to base it purely on features, without thinking about style and things that can be easily changed) and - what a surprise! - all of men in it are at least 2/3 (usually all 3): long haired, unshaved, east asian. well and all of them are skinny but most asians are skinny i guess.
above are some men from that folder. clearly some tendencies. _
also below are women from the same folder, idk if theres some type bc i dont see it
absolutely unbearable, hopeless day. and night. some webs werent working and some did but nothing can soothe the loneliness and self-loathe because nobody cares, nobody answers, i can be living in a forgotten castle in jungle as well. i can be dead as well. and when i searched for matches to burn ma skin i found a box of cigs i put there and forgot about, there are still 2 or 3 left. at least this, it doesnt makes anything better, its just a drop of sweet in an ocean of misery but at least something. but i really want to kms.
HEY HUMAN, GUESS WHAT THIS IS!? ANIMAN - CHIMERA DOG Facebook: Milk DoNg Comics Instagram: milkdongcomics
why girls love to ghost so much? like idk maybe im annoying but then tell but no, theres no fuckoffs, and its probably not bc of me being annoying, they just ghosting just because they do. like girl, i know everythings hard and life is shit and all but how many monts its been? im literally going crazy and i dont even know if you hate me
Bstaofy - LED blue dog glow plush
post that i liked in 2020 apparently. and forgot. and about a year ago i bought hao ran, who looks very similar, got him partly bc he reminded me a plush dog from a dream (which could or couldnt be inspired by that picture if it somehow creeped into ma subconscious), his led lights even changed colors but they got broken pretty quickly, maybe i hugged him way too much
