[nowallflower]

😑

Brooooooo,

Ugh I’m sitting here with a 1:1 patient.

This is boring.

Where is the blood? The gore?

Instead I get stuck with a patient that has dementia.

I’m glad the pt. is sleeping right now. Let’s hope this morning will go by fast.

1:1 is the worst when you’re a nurse. You sit here just lookin at your patient hoping they don’t wake up from their sleep and try to walk out of bed and fall cause they can’t remember that they can’t walk no more.

This shift can’t go by any faster.

[nowallflower]

What up!

Hai,

It’s been a while.

Welp I’m working now as a nurse. Not gonna say where but I do love my coworkers.

The population that I care for though?

Well... not so much.

You either get the nicest, kindest patients. Then sometimes you get those that are from the pits of hell.

My coworkers make everything better.

If there is something that I’ve learned in the short months of being a nurse, it’s that you don’t know nothing!!

Everytime I come to work is always soemthi new. Some new operation or disease I’ve never heard of. Everyday you’re learning something new.

You can’t beat yourself up, just know that you won’t know everything. And that you aren’t alone.

I might look for a different job sometime in the future. But the pay right is is pretty darn good.

Hmmm, money? Or happiness?

It’s so hard.

Please leave messages if you’re going through the same thing! Even if it isn’t nursing!

[nowallflower]

Officially a Nurse!

Well,

ya girl did it!!!!!!

So my last post was about how nervous I was for the results. Let me tell you that when they did arrive, I was so excited and worried at the same time. I remember I kept praying to God that I passes. I was so scared to look that I legit covered my eyes as I pressed the results button. 

But to say the least I am so incredibly happy and relieved that I don’t have to do that test ever again!!!!

Now that the test is over I have new things to worry about now. Like say for example FINDING A DAMNN JOB.

I never in my life thought that I would need to make cover letters. But apparently if you want to be noticed that’s what you have to do. Because I guess it lets the HR people or the hiring manager know that 

“oh hey, she wrote a cover letter! I should totally see what kind of person she is, because no one ever does cover letters anymore”

UGH

So now my Goggle Drive is infested with multiple cover letters, all relatively saying the same thing:

“please hire me, I’m a great worker, and also I’m running out of money for basic necessities, like food, thank you!”

Wish me luck on job hunting!! 

[nowallflower]

Anticipation

I just took a really big test! 

I have worked on being able to take this test for the past four years, I think, and now everything that I have done will be revealed in about 4 hours. 

I am religious woman, and I want to believe that God will have my back, and that He won’t let me down. I really do, and a part of me really does believe this, but then again there is also the nervous me that says that I shouldn't get my hopes up. 

Right after the test I called my mother and told he what had happened. I told her: 

“Mom, I took the whole test, the whole 265 test!” 

As I was sobbing. Then she, the Godly woman that she is, said:

“So? That’s good! They really wanted to make sure that you got it, and they were probably saying, hey this girl seems like she knows a lot, let’s keep testing her” 

Then she preceded to say:

“Proclaim it to God and thank Him for letting you pass your test. God loves you and He knows that you will help so many people in your life.”

So I went home, told my BF about my test, we went out for dinner, watched Incredibles 2, drove home, and watched some Voyager. 

And now here I am on the couch, waiting for my test results. I am so nervous, and at the same time I keep juggling on not getting my hopes up to “No, God’s got this, He won’t let me fail” 

As I think about this I have a lump in my throat that won’t go away. It’s that kind of lump that you get right before you start busting out crying. 

Well, we will see by the end of today what my results will be. God willing I have passed. 

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. Philippians 4:13 KJV

[naturaekos]

God’s plan for your life is not a straight line. There are curves, detours, U-turns and shortcuts. God knows what He’s doing. He’s strategically directing your steps.

(via naturaekos)

This is so true. Just trust Him, and He will not disappoint. 

[nowallflower]

Funny little things

Taking my environment right now, and there are little things that I have noticed. 

One of them would be the group that is next to my table, FYI I’m at the library trying to desperately stay awake so that I can study for the dreadful exam that I am to take in only a scarce amount of time. 

Back to the group, they are, what seems to me, a group of perhaps middle or high school boys. Now you would think that these little boys would not be able to keep quiet and will take any opportunity to point out the flaws of almost everyone in their vicinity. Let me surprise, and says that they are quiet refined young men. It seems that they are working on homework, and the majority of them are very focused and concentrated in their work.

It surprises me that they are quiet and focused. Every since middle school and or even maybe high school, I have been afraid of young pre-puberty-teens. Due to that fact that I feel that they always pick on those who are not of societies standards, with regards to appearance. 

A little back gourd on me: I am not in any way slim, fit, or Hollywood Angelina Jolie. I am very average and very modest. Now I am also not at all that “fat”, though I would say that I am on the chubby side, and lets just say that my skin isn’t all that dewy and porcelain like. I do have scars and acne. 

Now that you have somewhat of an idea of what I might look like, you can see how I would be conscious of little things like this, funny little things. : D

[nowallflower]

Conflicted

I’m so conflicted with my self right now.

What do I do, well, I know the right things that I should do, but to be honest I’m scared.

I’m scared of what will happen and what could happen.

It’s so hard to do the right thing! I never knew until now, when I was a child I always thought that doing the right thing was so easy.

I mean why wouldn’t you want to do the right thing? It will keep you from doing something wrong that can hurt you.

Why would even want to consider hurting yourself by not doing what is right?

I wish I had strength to do things right and on my own. But alas, I am a human and I am weak. I can’t do it by myself, and I don’t know how much of it I can take anymore.

My mind is no fortress, it is sand that crashed as the rain falls down. (Lol see what I did there? That’s a children’s song FYI)

What do I do, even when I know what I SHOULD do.

[nowallflower]

Does money buy...

There’s this saying that “money doesn’t buy happiness”. But let’s be real here.

If you’re so poor that you can’t buy food wouldn’t having money and buying food make you happy?

[nowallflower]

For all of you out there,

How do you know if you stil love each other?

Is it okay when they say something that offends you?

And when you confront them about it and have resolved the conflict, is that enough to still be with them?

Is it always okay to just forgive and forget?

And how do you know if what they have said is something that you should forgive?

How do you know when you should go?

Who tells you these things?

Do you just have to figure it out yourself?

And if so that is BS, why would anyone have to go through pain just to find out that in the end it won’t work out.

That all of those seconds, minutes, and hours together was ultimately worth nothing in the end.

What even is this?

[srsfunny]

You Sang It, Didn’t You?

[memehumor]

Google tells me it’s our boy’s 308th birthday.

[gomitablood-blog]

[medschool-motivation]

“Have some fire. Be unstoppable. Be a force of nature. Be better than anyone here, and don’t give a damn what anyone thinks.” - Cristina Yang

[nowallflower]

Oh Christina, why oh why did they end your character???

[chuwenjie]

It’s been an emotional week. I wanted to share this encounter I had with a very hateful man on the Pittsburgh bus because it reminds me that there are brave people in this world. Let’s all do everything we can to stand up for each other.

[nowallflower]

I hope that there will be people like this who stand up for those who can't or are afraid. 

[best-of-memes]

[kakao-chan-deactivated20160919]

NaruHina Month - Day 3: College AU

Bonus:

First off, I’m really, really sorry for how long this post is (if I didn’t do this, i would’ve been impossible to read the comic) Second, Hinata takes her studies seriously. Annnd, Naruto wearing a beanie! Why the hell not? (I saw a fanart with him wearing one so I was tempted to draw something similar)

College AU where Naruto acts more like the stalker than Hinata lol

Funny fact: Jirayia aka Perv saw Naruto taking notes on his class, got on his knees the exact moment, thanked God, actually took him to a bar after that and paid his whole diner. Miracle.

[stephstuph-blog]

"What anime should I watch, Steph?!" Here's your start!

Hey all!

I get approached about what to watch in the big, vast, weeb-filled scene known as anime. With so much anime and manga out there it’s hard to weed out what has substance and what is just a cash cow trying to sell figurines (all though these two can often bisect.) so I’ve selected a few anime and manga series I feel deserving of being watched for long time anime fans or newcomers/non-believers alike. Hopefully these will change some minds.

(Mind you with only ten choices to fill in, I have left a LOT of wonderful series out. If I am missing something you feel deserves to be on this list, I am not snubbing it. I’ve chosen to leave out some really obvious titles from Ghibli, Cowboy Bebop, FLCL, and so on to get some less-popular work in.)

1. Kare Kano: His and Her Circumstances (Gainax, 26 episodes, 1998)

This is a precious little-known gem from studio Gainax. While the studio is widely coveted for mech series like “Gunbuster” and “Neon Genesis Evangelion”, they dabbled in the shoujo genre with Kare Kano. It’s a simple plot: a boy and girl fall in love in highschool and it follows the relationship as they grow up and try to become adults. But the interesting mixed media approach in this series is what always kept me watching. They intertwined photography and live action scenery into the animation making it a poetic and visceral romantic experience that will make you want to relive your first love.

2. Read or Die: The OVA (studio Deen, 3 episodes, 2001)

Read or Die, more commonly known as R.O.D, is considered an anime classic by many, but can often get buried under the megaton crap of new anime coming out every year. This three episode mini-series is animation porn at its finest. The story revolves around a young woman named Yomiko Readman who has a special skill of warping paper to create objects, with which she uses to fight crime and solve mysteries. The way the paper molds and floats is worth a watch in itself. Also, Yomiko and Nancy are two of the sexiest ladies in anime history, who also have brains and personalities to boot. Watching their relationship flourish is rewarding and adorable! You can’t lose!

* Also, if you enjoy this their is a tv series spinoff called “R.O.D: The TV” that is worth checking out! 

3. Toradora! (J.C staff, 25 episodes,  2008)

What I expected to be another mindless shoolgirl shoujo series turned out to be one of my all time favorite animated series. Toradora is bright, fun, and surprisingly complex. Yet again, it follows a love triangle…or more like love square involving a bunch of highschool students, but the personalities that the main characters possess are both realistic and refreshing. The relationships between the characters carry a lot of weight and actually make you care for them in the long run, making some of the later episodes truly heart-stopping. I also nominate this anime as having one of the best kiss scenes in any shoujo.

4. Paranoia Agent (satoshi Kon/ Madhouse,13 episodes, 2004)

Besides Evangelion, I would probably say that Paranoia Agent is my all time favorite anime. It’s dark, its seedy, twisted, sexual, creepy, hilarious, and all out bizarre and I love every minute of it. satoshi Kon was a master of story-telling and bringing the bizarre into the everyday, and with this short anime series he perfected that formula. The story follows a delinquent named “Li’l slugger” who hits people with his crooked baseball bat on rollerblades and changes their lives in amazing and twisted ways. Each episode is a vignette of one his victims and the life they have led up to the event, A LA “Amoros Peros” and “Crash” for you live action film buffs.

5. Saikano: The Last Love song on this Little Planet. (Gonzo, 13 episodes, 2002)

What can I say about Saikano in a short paragraph? Not enough to really do it justice. I read the manga back in middle school and it was the only comic I read that made me burst into tears reading it. The art may be simple, ungodly simple, but the story is fierce and relentless and will not let you sleep soundly. The anime is a pretty faithful adaptation of this powerful work, all though I do reccomend reading the manga first since it is a comic experienced not to be missed. The plot? A highschool girls body gets taken over by the Japanese government and turned into a war machine to fight in what is basically world war 3. As her body slowly turns from that of a blossoming young woman to that of a mechanized murderer, she faces the emotional challenges of keeping in contact with her first love and boyfriend who is fighting the war at home on the front. Are you crying yet? 

6. Eureka Seven (Bones, 50 episodes, 2006)

Often regarded as an Evangelion tribute, Eureka Seven is the coherent, satisfying and oh-so grand mech adventure we all wanted from Gainax but never quite got. The story follows a young boy named Renton who travels with a group of outlaws on the Gekkostate as they discover the mysterious origin of an alien girl named Eureka. Their are flying skateboards, giant robot battles, epic romances, and a totally rad girl named Anemone who has a taste for jam and being tsundere. This series had a few runs on Adult swim a few years back, probably because of it’s close relation to Evangelion, but it’s definitely worth checking out if you skipped over this gem. 

7. Puella Magi Madoka Magica (shaft,12 episodes, 2011)

It feels silly putting such a popular anime on this list, but its popular for a reason. We all enjoyed watching sailor Moon romp around in her mini skirt and gogo boots in the 90’s, but growing up we want something more than just glitter and flowing locks. (well…sometimes. I can still dig it.) Madoka Magica, all though dealing with children, is an all out magical girl series for adults. This anime created waves in the iconic third episode, which I will not spoil, but it basically takes everything you knew about the magical girl genre and throws it to the dogs…the pink, doll-like dogs. The art is simple, much like saikano, but it is gorgeous and innovative with the use of animated paper-cut outs and collages. I also really respect the fact that their is no fan service in this series, so the typical flashing of panties or cleavage shots are completely gone; leaving substance with style and grace. (And leaving us feeling a lot better and not like pedophiles *cough* strike witches *cough*)

8. Angel Beats (P.A Works/Aniplex, 13 episodes, 2010)

If you couldn’t tell all ready, I really like highschool-centric anime dealing with mentally disturbed teenagers. Welp, I’ll give you that I’ve been following that theme but this one is different! … In that these highschoolers are all dead. Angel Beats follows recently deceased highschool Otonashi as he fights God, yes God, alongside a club known as the “Afterlife Battlefront”. Think Persona 3 meets Toradora! It is dark, action-packed, and filled with quirky characters who you all want to hug forever and ever and ever. It’s a short and sweet series, (my favorite kind) that is a perfect little story to marathon and take in all at once with friends or by your lonesome. Either way, its a rewarding and interesting watch.

9. Eden of the East (Higashi No Eden) (Production I.G, 11 episodes,  2009)

I remember when the first episode of this came out and the anime community was up in arms over how bizarre this series was. We’re talking anime, people. The anime community thought this was crazy, and yep, it is, but in all the best ways. This series is captivating, mysterious, and keeps you watching on the edge of your seat. I won’t say much other than it starts with the White House, a naked man, a cell phone, a timid redhead, and the police. 

10. Deadman Wonderland (Manglobe, 12 episodes so far, 2011)

My final pick for this short list is another manga series turned anime that left me wanting more. Deadman Wonderland is violent, disturbing, and ever so addicting. It revolves around a society in which criminals get put into a special kind of jail where they must compete in vicious and deadly fights against each other or else they die via poision injection from a collar around their necks. Battle Royale, much? It does hold a lot of similarities to Battle Royale but it also throws in some twisted concepts into the mix involving blood diseases and personality disorders. Those who want a bloody, crazy, romp of a time? This is your series. 

What a nice way to end a post, right?

Much love and happy watching! 

[best-of-memes]