you are what you take

living with narcissism, borderline, and autism. adult. will mostly be my thoughts on these disorders and also aesthetic.

[violetsinmyveins]

It's so frustrating when people say "just be yourself!" "Let yourself be who you are!" "Let the real you out!" Because THERE IS NO REAL ME. I don't exist under the personality that I fake. There is NOTHING.

[npdbpdasd]

i hope every person with npd or bpd finds that idealized person they've created in their mind <3

[npdbpdasd]

narcissism and autism might be the worst combination of all time. why the fuck do i go from feeling cold and disconnected from the entire world to experiencing the most severe, painful empathy possible?

[npdbpdasd]

being a narc is so stupid and confusing. what do you mean i don't actually like this person, but i like the specific kind of attention they give me? what do you mean i'm building a false fantasy of this person in my head and will eventually get bored of them???

[npdbpdasd]

you are not evil for putting yourself first. you are not evil for desiring validation. you are not evil for wanting to feel good. it's okay to have selfish desires.

[notdelusionalatall-deactivated2]

[spill-the-wine]

[lavender-lady-lilac]

[5555ilenthill]

[thewitchbeckons]

[sorrowsofasoul]

[npdbpdasd]

the endless cycle of needing others to give you attention while also desiring to be with yourself all the time is so draining. how the fuck do i reconcile requiring fuel for my ego when i don't even like being around people most of the time?

[npdbpdasd]

that narc feeling when you have to make a blog about your experiences with narcissism so other people can validate you