We travel because we need to, because distance and difference are the secret tonic of creativity. When we get home, home is still the same. But something in our mind has been changed, and that changes everything.
I feel guilty typing this because it’s been so long. I won’t even blame it on lack of time because you make time for what’s important, but I just haven’t been in the mood. More like I haven’t had much to write about and not because nothing has been happening because LISTEN I’ve been having a whirlwind of a year. The devil tried it.
I just haven’t had time to process what I’ve been feeling or going through. I haven’t wanted to think or talk about it much because where do I start? Child...
So I’ve just been going through the phases and taking the punches like a G. Occasionally, I’ve gotten up and kept going as per no shaking and other times, I’ve curled into fetal position and wept like I had no hope. Maybe I’m just dramatic or a very emotional person, but I love that I don’t hold back tears when I need to let them out. it’s liberating to cry, you know?
But that’s not why we are here. I don’t even know why I started this on a sappy note seeing as I’m in such a good mood today. 1 because church was glorious as in water for my drenched soul glorious and 2 because I’m re-inspired to take all that is mine in 2016.
Now, I know at the start of every year if you’re a person of faith, there’s usually this prophetic word/theme for the year. It varies from church to church and at mine, Elevation Church, the year was declared one of Immeasurably More. For some reason (it has never happened before) this year, I had the conviction that this will be very true for my life.
So imagine me going into the year with so much fire and anticipation and the first thing I get hit with is a punch and several punches to follow. My little brother gets diagnosed with lymphoma about 6 yrs after he beat the first one. I experience one wahala after another living in this chaotic city called Lagos. I get out of a relationship that wasn’t going anywhere much to my disappointment & well, life just plain sucks.
Being awake meant that I had to deal with the chaos of life, so bedtime was what I looked forward to as I didn’t need to think or deal with anything for a few hours. So I became very quiet because if I began to explain where I’ve been, fam...
To be honest, I’m good. I know bad things happen and we go in and out of seasons and that’s all that it is. I know the sun will still shine and mercies are new every morning. My brother’s chemo treatment is going well, thankfully this time around, it’s not as drastic as the last so he’s still able to do normal people stuff.
My life is still somewhat upside down but God’s got me so I’m good. For some reason I’ve been asking myself what my aspiration in life is. It’s changes over the years but this is it:
To be like a tree planted by the rivers of water that brings forth fruit in its season.
And this is all I want out of my life: To stay close to the vine & to bring forth fruit in whatsoever I do.
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