didn’t want to have to do it
you sat in your bed with a strange feeling twisting in your stomach. each breath you took in and out through your mouth was an attempt to calm your nerves, but it wasn’t working. your anxiety gnawed at you.
you and jake, your boyfriend of one year, had recently ended your relationship. despite the breakup, you both wanted to remain friends because the thought of losing him completely was unbearable. jake was your everything, and you loved him deeply. he felt the same way about you.
but however, as individuals, you both started to feel unhappy, and being in a relationship was only pushing it. jake felt he couldn’t tell you anything without you getting upset, and you felt you couldn’t share your thoughts without him becoming defensive and angry.
despite those challenges, the love between you two never wavered. a connection that sealed your hearts and souls together.
you stayed in contact, texting often. whether it would be checking up on each other or sending reels, you maintained communication. but the love never faded, even though you both knew it wasn’t healthy to stay in touch. yet, the fear of losing him completely kept you horrified.
as you lay in bed, you grabbed your phone and started texting.
You: it just really hit me.
My love: it’s okay, i understand.
My love: it’s hitting for me too.
You: do you ever think we could just work things out?
My love: yn, you know we can’t.
My love: maybe it’s best if we stop talking.
You: jake please don’t do this
in a panic you called him, your heart pounding as you waited for him to answer. when you finally heard his voice, your heart dropped
“hello?” you asked, struggling to hold back your tears.
“yn…” jake’s voice trembled, filled with emotion.
“jake, please don’t do this. i’m sorry.” you broke down, the tears flowing uncontrollably.
“yn, you know we can’t be on and off like this. we can’t keep going on like this,” jake said, his voice cracking as he cried.
“i don’t want to lose you. i feel like i can’t go on without you,” you sobbed.
“im sorry yn, but if we keep going like this, we’ll never move on and still have feelings for each other.” jake replied, his own tears evident.
both of you were crying, your hearts breaking more with each passing second.
“please don’t leave me. i care about you so much,” you stuttered, your voice quivering. “i know we said we could be friends, but im going to miss you as my boyfriend. i wish things hadn’t turned out this way.”
“i’m sorry for not giving you the happiness you deserved.” you said as your eyes were burning from the tears.
“yn, don’t say that. it’s not your fault,” he reassured you.
“but i ruined everything jake. i’m sorry for everything,” you cried, your head aching from the tears.
“you didn’t ruin anything. we both were unhappy with each other but i care about you so much, but we know what we have to do,” jake said, trying to keep his voice steady so his mom wouldn’t hear him crying in the next room. he never wanted to hurt you because he loved you.
“let’s not talk for a month. we need to give each other time, i don’t want to do this either, but it’s for the best, and i know you know that,” he said, his voice filled with sadness.
“i don’t want to lose you.” you whispered.
“i don’t want to lose you either, but we know what we have to do.” jake replied, his voice breaking.
“I love you, jake.” you finally said, your heart pouring out through your tears.
“i love you too yn. i’m so fucking sorry,” jake said, finally letting out a loud cry.
“this is goodbye for now. i’m so sorry,” he said.
the phone hangs up and you both are left in tears and broken hearts.
sorry for the angst and sudden comeback, this is based on what’s currently going on in my life as i’m going through a breakup, i missed you all 🤍
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