lost&found

[nxcxlxx]

I saw something in you. Something that gave me the strength to keep going. I never gave up through you and finally achieved my goal. I will never forget that.

[nxcxlxx]

There's this one person. Which I will never forget. My first love. We were still children, but it felt real. The person didn't even belong to me, but it hurt the person to lose. But you always see each other twice, don't you?

[nxcxlxx]

I felt alone. All day long I was sitting in my room and thought about the city i was a few days ago. The city which broke my heart. It showed me how life could be. It was such a hilarious place. I loved to be there. Be there with all the people i don't know. Outside. Strangers who felt like familiar. I'd love to go back to the city. I'd love to see them all again.

Cities like these should never be forgotten.

[nxcxlxx]

Everyone keeps a secret, even if it's a small one. But not everyone can cope with the secret. Some secrets are not there to remain secret. You have to tell them to a person you trust.

But what happens to secrets that you don't tell? Or with those who are passed on?

Can you keep a secret?

[nxcxlxx]

How much I would like to sit outside again when the sun goes down,

you right next to me,

the feelings between us still present.

I would do anything for it.

[nxcxlxx]

Is there anyone who couldn't care less?

I'm getting used to it.

It happens all the time.

I don't know what y'all expect someone to be.

It doesn't matter.

We won't be how society wants us to be.

There are rules we have to follow.

There are roles we have to take on.

There are jobs we have to do.

We all have the same exercises to do.

We all have to live.

We all should be a team.

We can do this.

Together.

[nxcxlxx]

I'm getting used to it.

Just another bad day being a bad day.

But that doesn't make it any less terrible.

I need a break.

From everything and everyone.

I want to hide for a certain time.

Hide anywhere away from the rest of the world.

[nxcxlxx]

I found a home in the middle of nowhere.

There was nothing but this person.

The person who is now my home.

[nxcxlxx]

Recently, I was sitting at the dining table thinking of a place where I was last.

It was a place with great lights, old and modern houses and quiet streets - it was dark, it was at night.

It was a great place.

I long for him.

I want to go back.

[nxcxlxx]

I was sitting on the couch and was thinking about something.

"What if I lost everything from one day to the next and a month later I was the richest person on earth?

How would my character change?

And who would I have around me?"

[nxcxlxx]

I was thinking about something.

About what I want to experience.

About who I want to experience it with.

I want to do it with my friends.

Spend my future with them.

Take holidays with them,

And go with them through all times.

Through the bad as well as through the good.

I want to remember all the good things.

And when I can't do anything anymore,

And i'm close to death,

I want to be happy with what I've experienced,

And achieved.

🥂

[nxcxlxx]

Something strange is happening right now with me.

I don't know what it is.

I don't know how to feel.

I don't know what to think.

I don't know anything.

I want to do something, but nothing works.

I will try again.

As often as possible.

So many times until I made it.

Even if it's the last thing I'm going to do.

I'll finally have a new goal.

💌

[nxcxlxx]

I had a dream.

I dreamed that you were with me.

That there was still a chance for us.

That we took advantage of this opportunity.

That we were happy.

Together.

Then I woke up and realised it was a dream.

I was sad. I still am.

Even if this is an eternity between us, I miss you.

I miss us. Myself.

I miss that feeling of being with you.

The feeling you gave me every day.

The feeling of being loved.

The feeling of being enough.

The feeling of being alive.

Please don't forget me. Don't forget us.

If you think of me too, text me.

I love you.

🌙

[nxcxlxx]

I know that you can feel it.

This distance is not good for both of us.

But it is necessary to finally release me from you.

You try everything to reduce the distance between us, but it will never work.

I know my worth.

You should know yours too.

🥀

[nxcxlxx]

I see it.

I've been waiting for this moment for an eternity.

I see it.

This beautiful sight.

I will never forget this sight.

I will stay here forever.

Here at this sight.

❦

[nxcxlxx]

𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚊 𝚌𝚒𝚝𝚢 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚘𝚗𝚌𝚎.

𝚂𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚞𝚍 𝚢𝚎𝚝 𝚜𝚘 𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚎𝚝.

𝚂𝚘 𝚋𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚢𝚎𝚝 𝚜𝚘 𝚍𝚊𝚛𝚔.

𝚂𝚘 𝚙𝚘𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚢𝚎𝚝 𝚜𝚘 𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚎𝚏𝚞𝚕.

𝙸𝚝'𝚜 𝚊 𝚌𝚒𝚝𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖.

𝚂𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖𝚜.

[nxcxlxx]

𝙷𝚘𝚠 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚑.

𝙸 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚛𝚎𝚕𝚊𝚡 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚟𝚎𝚜.

𝙵𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚖𝚝𝚑 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗.

𝚆𝚊𝚛𝚖𝚝𝚑 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚞𝚗.

𝚆𝚊𝚛𝚖𝚝𝚑 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚑𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚊𝚟𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚗𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚋𝚢.

𝙵𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚋𝚎 𝚏𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗.

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