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If it was up to me all my BunGirls would be subcultural goth queens. Until SquareEnix let’s me I’ll have to continue my weird little endeavor to cut and paste and use procreate to make a mishmash collage interpretation of what my goth buns would be

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WIGGLE NATION : NYE 2023 ( technically NYD 2024 @ 1:15am PST ) World Of Warcraft

As a relatively new gamer I spent NYE at an Auction House Dance party and met some really kind people. There was gathering outside the dance party of what i call 'Wiggle Dragon Mounts' and thus i dubbed it the WIGGLE NATION and joined with my own little magenta wiggle dragon I got from the traders post. I'm so glad i was able to get some pictures.

I guess now I sort of have to get one of those beautiful magnificent thundering cloud serpents. 😍🤩

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✨🖤 This is gorgeous and if I wasn’t already in love with the Skyrim music I listen to when crafting , this really put the cherry on top ✨🖤

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Sharing some past photos of my mains from FFXIV. My Duskwight Elezen Pirate Queen. She is everything ✨☺️

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Well, due to some unforeseen circumstances I’ve had to tighten up the purse strings and have a stricter budget. Don’t worry , I’m ok and everything is ok. Just adulting and bills *bleh*

But it does mean I had to unsub from all my monthly gaming costs for a while. So I’ll still be playing games but ones I own already that I haven’t even started. Lol 😄

I’ll be back to subscription gaming in the future. It’s just on pause for now.

You’ll probably see me posting about other games for a bit.

But Eorzea will always have a special place in my newbie gamer heart. This is not goodbye ,my viera main, this is simply see you later. 🐰

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Just a gentle reminder that I will block and report any empty accounts that follow me. Please, change your profile pic and put SOMETHING on your blog to avoid being mistaken as a bot. :)

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🖤 Character Card 🖤

Race: Viera

Tribe: Rava

Training: Thaumaturgy / Black Mage

City-State: Ul’dah

Grand Company: The Maelstrom

Ranking: Second Storm Lieutenant

Guardian: Rhalgr

Occupation: Elementalist

“Working with the elements is a noble and beautiful trade. Healing with the aid of nature is magnificent and I highly respect my Conjurer / White Mage / Shaman counterparts. However , nature also knows how to defend itself. It can be harsh, it can be unforgiving and it can level lands and clear paths with its fury and might…. Thats where I come in.”

History: Like most Rava she has heritage and family connection in the jungles of Golmarr , however her desire to see the world and use of her connection with the elements offensively made her a bit of an outcast in her small tribe. In her desire to see the world beyond the trees she learned of the need for adventurers to help out a distant land. She could never stand for injustice and her fierce and passionate heart will stand toe to toe with even some of the most daunting of scenarios or foes. Her cool, collected and unmoving stare is unsettling to some. Her general reserve is seen as unapproachable. However, should she count you as a dear friend or more — she would burn down the world for you.

Likes: Rainstorms, Cold weather, Dark Academia Aesthetic by candle light , deep conversations about esoterica and the occult , baby animals & lemonade.

Dislikes: Hot weather, sand in her shoes, mean people , injustice and the subjection /oppression of others by said mean people.

Favorite Color: All Black Everything…. Obviously.

Personality type: Intense. Steely and aloof outside demeanor/face. Passionate and soft-hearted inside.

Admires: people with a defined sense of self who are confident , self assured , kind and open minded. Also admires people who are not afraid to be vulnerable in whatever way they are comfortable.

General motto: “ Do no harm, but take no shit”

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🖤 I just wanted to say thank you to all those who read through my huge newbie lore speculation of ARR 😅.

Everyone was so supportive and positive. I don’t get to play FFXIV often due to IRL obligations, but when I do I love every minute. I’m trying to work in some more time . Maybe even actually stream it if I can figure out a set up. Who knows?!

At any rate BIG THANKS to everyone. I really appreciate all the good juju ✨☺️✨

And I’m SUPER excited to continue to newbie guess or speculate on the story I’ve experienced this far and what MAY happen as I continue.

Until the next time I get to sit down and actually play again for any duration of time , I’ll make some fun characters cards of my WOLs. 😁

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Time for a bit of FFXIV speculation :

I realize that a bulk of FFXIV players have already completed the whole of the story arc ( probably more than one time ) so please don't hold it against this 🌱 while I think-out-loud about my feelings towards the story so far even if I'm still experiencing ARR.

( also pls no spoilers, but I appreciate encouragement and assurance my questions will get answered. Lol )

Somethings have been picking at my brain since I encountered them. One of which is when the Amal'Jaa are surprised we do not fall to tempering stating our "soul must belong to another" and then Ifrit himself says that while he can see we do not already serve a primal that the paragons warned the Primals about the godless-blessed one's aborrent existence. Does that mean that while we may or may not be tempered by a primal we are controlled/ guided by some 'other' thing outside the paragons or the 12. If we are being Guided/controlled by what we don't quite understand but is big enough or strong enough for the paragons & primals to worry about —- should we be worried about its overall motive & can it truly be benevolent and omniscient with that much power? Does it seek to follow through with its own agenda regardless of the plight of others.

The reason I say this is because of another encounter that seems to stick in my mind. A point in which Y'stola chastises Merlwyb for breaking the treaty with the Kolbolds. She basically says and has a solid point (that I had already thought of before this scene) when she tells Merlwyb that this constant war with the Kobolds was of her own doing in letting Lominsans break the treaty. The kolbolds are just defending themselves. Or course there is an a back and forth that ensues but the point being both Merlwyb and the Kobolds are doing what they believe to be right for justice sake and for the sake & safety of their people.

I extrapolated this further. What makes us, the scions, so sure that what WE are doing is right? Because a giant crystal says so? We kill gods/primals and move against another society that perhaps (outside of their military) could possibly be wanting freedom and peace like those of Eorzea do. What of the Garlemald society? They can't be all military. Its not hard to believe that there are some suffering at our hands because of what their military decided to do, not them. I guess essentially what I'm saying is, how are we so certain we are not falsely lead to believe what we do is just and right when what we do is kill gods/primals, murder tribes on sight because of who they are and pushing our agenda on them. There is point where there is a kobold says that those of their community at war with us do not represent the whole of their society. … and I hear that the crafting questline with the different tribes show us that not all of the their race want to fight. So is it hard to reason that perhaps not all Ishgardians hate dragons? That not all dragons hate the elezen. That not all Garleans follow their military and that perhaps what we perceive as right may only be a perspective of one cosmologic being with enough power to have us believe in what they want?

on top of the fact that the Ascians say ' if we knew more, that we wouldn't be fighting with them.... that we would basically understand’ ... leaves me feeling 🤯

What the hell is going on? I know mother crystal is our main guide... but tbh I'm feeling pretty sus about things and honestly the motives of Hydaelyn. I realize they are presenting her as a mothering ‘goddess’ but I’ve always been the type of kid to ask “why”

The answer of ‘just because’ … ‘because I said so’….. ‘because this is how it’s always been done’ ….. ‘because I’m the boss’…..

Has NEVER sat well with me. As a kid or now. With my parents, with teachers, with management or upper level bosses. I need to know the why, the motives, the implications or consequences, the benefits. I need this information because the end does not always justify the means. Especially if on a core level I disagree with it and feel there is an alternate route.

That probably says more about me then I intended but yeah… lol

... anyhow.... thank you for letting me just babble on about the beginning of this ( I'm sure to be ) wild ride we all know and love called FFXIV.

:::: Newbie rant over ::::

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🖤 The FFXIV Squad 🖤

The Black Magick Rabbit

The Serpent From the Sea

The Drow Captain & Queen

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A queen is a queen

whether at sea or land .

Some don crowns.

Others, axe in hand.

Tis fool’s folly

What tests her right

To swing ‘er blade

Or sail at night

For a queen is a queen

Till her ire does stir

For she’s never afraid

To cuff a cur.

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* Training *

Form & Fuction:

Striving to perfect posture, technique & intent.

Patience & Skill:

Keep your breathing even, fix your gaze, steady your hand. Do not act hastily but be swift in your resolve. Take a breath and loose your arrow.

Call To Action:

I swore an oath to Gridania to help protect and keep safe her people. I will not fail them. I will always be quickly at side of the Woodwailers, The Gods Bow and the Twin Adders.

Action in Encounter:

For I will always endeavor to show my gratitude to Gridania for sheltering & recovering me. I will put my life on the line for those who did the same for me.

So every day I train. For one day I may be called to front lines in defense of my new home ,The Black Shroud , and perhaps more.

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I forgot to share but this was my FFXIV weekend. Also, wtf ?!

Lol it’s getting wild. Spooky AND silly ?! I’m so here for it !

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🖤 My FemRoe Short Story : A First Encounter 🖤

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After spending a little time in the gold saucer …..

🦇🖤 Who is she? 🖤🦇

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I love these fireworks at the lavender beds! I was told there is an event going on so NOW I have to go and check it out. :)

Looks like I can get some Power Ranger type gear?! Lol. What?! How fun !