S U F F E R I N G

i honestly am not sure what to do with my life but i'm bullshitting it and so far i'm still alive.

[obama-chan]

Research

Hello, everyone! I’m reviving this account out of absolute desperation to look for respondents for our research. Ideally, you’d have to be a filipino college student ages 18-25 and are experiencing dissociative symptoms.

If you’re interested to participate, feel free to comment or RT this post! Thank you!

[obama-chan]

Hey,

So Idk if you remember or know me, Idk when you wrote your post and Idk if this will be triggering in any type of way (if so I am deeply sorry), but I kind of just felt the need to write, I guess, bcs I haven't checked in on your blog in a really long time and I just read your post about your (mental) health and what you've been dealing with and I just wanted to say that I am happy that you're here today and that you got help and I hope you will continue to feel better😊

OMG HI I literally just returned to this account so I don't know how long this ask was sitting in my inbox so I'm so sorry if this is late SADKJFLAJFAFJ.

Thanks for cheering me on!! I still have a long way to go, but I've made so much progress!! By the way! Are you perhaps Dani? 😊

[obama-chan]

hi i just returned to say that okuda could have been a medtech and so that's my headcanon

[obama-chan]

my fan apprentice

hi! so, i’ve recently got really into the arcana and i made a fan apprentice. i don’t usually share my ocs since i’m sort of scared of assholes being mean but i’m super proud of my fan apprentice so i want to show her off a bit.

under the cut so i don’t bother anyone on the feed. 

(apologies for the not-so-good drawing. drawing isn’t my forte hehe.) 

this is Hiraya Dimayuga. 

Favourite Food: Dried Fish    

Favourite Drink: Hot Chocolate

Favourite Flower: Amaranthus 

Height: 5′3″

her familiar is a bat and her name is Nanolay.

this is what the full outfit looks like. can you guess which ethnicity she was inspired from?

i’m really happy with her! ;w; anyway, to anyway who has read this far, thankies!

[obama-chan]

before i start typing, i would like to say that this post will mention about mental health, suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety, and medication. read at your own discretion.

so, yeah. hi. i’m back.

perhaps, no one is going to care to read this post and i don’t mind that. however, i would still like to share my thoughts. this is, after all, my blog (though unmaintained). to anyone who will read, however, please forgive my incoherence and, uh, my messy way of explaining things.

i’ve been going through a lot these past few years, dealing with anxiety and depression. suicidal thoughts were absolutely hard to silence. there were times where i almost went over the edge; on the verge of no return. there were time i didn’t think i would make it. but i’m here now. actually, i’m still quite surprised i even made it to college.

but, yeah, i’m here.

i, after so long, finally got the help i needed last august. i found myself a psychiatrist and was finally given a diagnosis and prescription. and now i’m feeling so much better than i did so many years when i didn’t get the help i so desperately needed.

apparently, my depression and anxiety were more biological and my trauma amplified it, i guess.

so, yeah. i just wanted to let you know i’ve been feeling better now. way better. and i’m happy. genuinely happy. for the first time in so long.

[obama-chan]

uh hi

hi there.

i'm not sure if any of you noticed me lurking but yeah hi. i know i haven't been active and i'm so sorey about that. i just didn't see the need to keep a blog nor did i think i needed one to begin with. i only ever just go on here to read and look at wonderful art. also, i've just been busy with college and shit so...

yeah, anyway. hi i'm back. i'll follow you all back soon i promise.

i also just wanted to let you know i may not have the same interests as i did before so forgive me if you followed me for an interest a no longer have huhu. you can unfollow if you want.

ps. i have a post coming up regarding my mental health and how i've been coping. stay tuned i guess.

[angelwarm]

i hope that one day i will finally be ok….i’ll make a cherry pie when it is all over

[angelwarm]

today is the day

[joshpeck]

reblog the cherry pie to be ok

[obama-chan]

serious inquiry i need help asap.

read under the cut because it has something about suicide and depression

ok so

a few of my friends have oppened up to me about their depression (or extreme sadness- i don't know of they're clinically diagnosed or not) and i'm not exactly sure how i can console them (speaking as someone who has and is still going through some deep shit, too. i can't say it's depression because i don't want to use that term lightly).

i am at a loss because one of them is quite stubborn and suicidal as well. obviously, i can't convince him not to feel like he is worthless because a depressed mind is clouded. who am i to invalidate his feelings, right? the other just doesn't know how to deal with it but has opened up to her family and to me and we are giving her support. the rest i??? i'm at a loss.

as someone who's been through touch bullshit, you'd think i'd know what to say or how to deal with this but i don't know what to do. i know nothing will probably convince them but i want to at least try to help them through the pain??? but i don't know what to do.

need some advice. would appreciate.

[obama-chan]

aight.

i’ve already come to terms that this is a crush 

i hope this passes i really hope it does bc fuck this guy tbh 

[ladyknightwing]

Anon or not, make me choose between:

Show: _______ or ________ ?

Character: ________ or _________ ?

Pairing: _________ or _________ ?

Anything: ________ or _________ ?

[obama-chan]

i’m anxious and sleepy but i can’t go home because the school won’t allow me out

[obama-chan]

i hope i wake up tomorrow morning and have this feeling for you disappear because hahaha fuck this 

[obama-chan]

guys how do u get over a crush please help i’m not supposed to like this person because they’re an asshole 

[obama-chan]

i think i have a crush on someone i’m not supposed to have a crush on and i— 

i dislike you but also dream of cuddling with you?? the fucking hell i want to die 

[peelingmandarins]

with the rise of social media, young artists think its necessary to have polished, professional looking art accounts with a singular style rather than explore different mediums and painting styles. its become more about curating a cyber account than actually broadening your horizon which leads to young artists burning out from follower counts and online persona image making before they’ve even found the element of joy in art.

[quarryknightcosplayandcustoms]

I made another comic

[obama-chan]

You're one of my favorite blogs to receive a notification from 😂

oh shit, for real? thanks! ;w; i don’t even post that much anymore ahahahhaa