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if it's you, I'll give you everything

”If I tell you the truth now, it doesn’t count as lying to you. Right?”

This photo is from Connichi '22 :') I still love it so much 🥰

Wen Kexing : Mayo (mayocosplay IG/twt)

Zhou Zishu : Sina (xAigueMarinex/IG twt)

Photo : myself (Ansay IG/twt)

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Some wenzhou neck intimacy

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THE SANDMAN (2022-) “The Sound of Her Wings” (1.06)

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𝐹𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑊𝑒𝑛 𝐾𝑒𝑥𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠 𝑍ℎ𝑜𝑢 𝑍𝑖𝑠ℎ𝑢, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑍ℎ𝑜𝑢 𝑍𝑖𝑠ℎ𝑢 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠 𝑊𝑒𝑛 𝐾𝑒𝑥𝑖𝑛𝑔

#山河令 #WordOfHonor #ShanHeLing

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Word of Honor 山河令 | Episode 8

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Wen Kexing holding Zhou Zishu through the pain in Puppet Manor.

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TYK chapter 38 face reveal, how I see it now (above) versus how I saw it 7 months ago (below text) Funny how I now perceive wkx as... knowing, and having a lot of thoughts re:that face. It's exactly how it should have been, as the text says, and given the state of his feelings towards zzs at that point, I feel a much deeper connection towards this more wistful way of looking at him than the surprise I first drew. I think I used to take his "Did I ever tell you I liked men" joke kind of at face value before, and did perceive the scene as a 'incredible beauty revealed' moment (as shown by zzs' mysterious/almost sad aura in the previous version). Dare I say my initial interpretation of the scene now feels a bit cliché and obvious : 'oh wow the true beauty shows his face and wkx is so impressed/wowed by it'. In the newer version, there is more mutual understanding and complicity, which I am very happy with. I also like that zzs doesn't have this doll-like vibe anymore, too. He has agency over his image rather than being an aloof beauty to gawk at.

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Zishu finds Jiuxiao's body on the battlefield This isn't in canon, and the will to draw this was born from initially wanting to draw the last image of Zishu in Qi Ye when he learns... about "it". Only it wasn't matching the aesthetic i was interested in. I like the idea of Zishu going to look for Jiuxiao's body, as he's just so used to knowing, seeing, controlling everything. Him just being just 'content' with learning about Jiuxiao's death from someone else leaves a taste of too little in my mouth.

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"That day at the Prince's estate, I dreamt of that mountain of peach blossoms, of shixiong telling me how we would roam the jianghu together. I thought if I died, I would be content, even if it was just a dream... Now, if I die here, I would have done right by Sir Jiang--no longer afraid of not having the face to meet Xiao Xue by the Yellow Springs."

The text above is a retranslation, by me and @bluemorningsoup, of Jiuxiao's last words in Qi Ye.

Original quote :

我那日在王爷那梦见满山的桃花，还有师兄说带我一起浪迹江湖，觉得死了也满足了，虽然只是个梦……而我若死在这里，也算对得起蒋大人了，不怕下了黄泉没脸见小雪。

Now allow me a few words about this. I had the opportunity to discuss at length both with my 姐 and with Bichen about whether or not Jiuxiao had reached closure by the end of Qi Ye, and what were his feelings towards Zishu at that moment. I think that, taking these final words as a reference, he did, within the context of the battle, feel that high, that enlightening galvanisation that made him feel at peace. I would say that him referring to the peach blossoms dream isn't so much about clinging to a past, dream-like version of Zishu, rather than an acceptance of something still worth cherishing within him (Zishu) that he will not let go of. Jiuxiao remained himself, or became himself again -this heroic, lofty self- despite how crushing his last interactions with Zishu and Beiyuan were.

I think that, beyond the reality of Zishu's actions, it is Zishu showing signs of panic and anxiety that really marked and stuck with Jiuxiao. It is the moment Zishu steps down from being his shixiong to being a vulnerable human being; and if anything should have made it hard for Jiuxiao to reach closure, I would argue that it's precisely this. Something happened within Zishu, but what exactly? I think Jiuxiao is lucid enough to realise that it's neither guilt nor remorse-- and thus, I can picture him thinking about this and wanting more, wanting to know and understand, figure out what Zishu is thinking, his actual perspective rather than what he let show. I think that this glimpse of humanity is part of what allowed Jiuxiao to cling onto that dream, though. Once it became obvious that the chances of communicating about this again were running low, Jiuxiao would have eventually let go, at peace with this dream of his, because he felt deep down that it wasn't... fake. It was a dream worthy of bringing along in death.