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 –– remember how we used to play ; dreaming of our own galaxies.  ––  CHARLIE KIM . 23 . GRAPHIC DESIGNER

[ofcharlie]

( HA SOOYOUNG + CIS WOMAN ) —  Have you seen CHARLIE KIM ? This TWENTY-THREE year old is a GRAPHIC DESIGNER who resides in BROOKLYN. SHE has been living in NYC for TWENTY-THREE YEARS, and is known to be INDEPENDENT and DILIGENT, but can also be JUDGMENTAL and ASSERTIVE, if you cross them. People tend to associate them with SMOKING CIGARETTES OUT IN THE DARK and MESSY HANDWRITING IN A NOT VERY WELL KEPT SKETCHBOOK — ( tally, 25, she/her, gore/sexual assault/abuse, gmt+4 ) ​

tw // parents death, car accident, bullying

charlotte kim, born chaeyoung kim –– ha sooyoung / yves fc

nicknames: nothing. just charlie. no one ever gets to call her by her full name or any other nickname, unless you were her best friend. even then, you can’t call her charlotte.

birthday: april 18, 1997 - 23 yrs old ; aries

cis woman, she/her, bisexual

born and raised in brooklyn, new york

for as long as charlie knew, her immediate family were her aunt, uncle, and her cousin. no mother, no father, and a sibling who’s vague memory felt too unreal to be true. the more she grew up, the more she found out about them from little stories she heard here and there, and whenever she persisted on knowing.

her parents passed away in a car accident when she was about a year old. the girl was left with a nanny while her parents went out to run errands, and they never came back. after that, little charlie was adopted and taken in by her godmother, her aunt. 

charlie grew up a little older, and found out more. there was a brother. of course she vaguely remembered him. he was about seven or eight years older than herself, and he was adopted by another relative who lived in another far-away state. charlie never understood why the two were split up. she couldn’t understand why her aunt couldn’t just take in the both of them. but alas, charlie grew up never knowing him enough. she met him a few times in person, and it was strange. it always seemed like he didn’t know how to act around his own sister, and would always be awkward or cut the day short. charlie grew to not really care about him anymore. he didn’t feel like family to her. she even found out that once he hit eighteen, he left his home and was never seen again. 

charlie was just thankful to have grow up in a loving home where her aunt and uncle felt like her own parents, and her cousin felt like her sister. although there was always that boundary she felt between her and the three of them. which is why she kept to herself more and more as she got older. 

the only person charlie had opened up to the most was her best friend nico ( @nicocampbell​ ). the two knew each other since they were about eleven years old. the girl was trying so hard to fit in, dressing up like the other little girls in her class and not being herself. it was until the day she had fought a bully in her group of her so-called friends who called her ugly, and came back to school the next day with her hair freshly chopped off that morning to shoulder length. that was the day she lost the people she thought were her friends, and instead had a fascinated looking boy coming up to her and calling her ‘cool’ for fighting a bully. ever since that day, she stuck by nico’s side and hadn’t regretted it ever since. 

the two had started to date during their senior year, and by the time they graduated high school and were deciding on what to do next, nico had decided to leave for california to chase his dreams. while charlie stayed where she was in new york, and attended NYU for graphic design. unfortunately, the two couldn’t keep a long distance relationship with how busy they both got, and decided to end it. now what happens when two awkward people break up and decide to stay friends? of course they lose all contact. charlie kept up with nico’s life online, but she never dared to send a text for whatever irrational fear she had. 

now she’s graduated from NYU, and works as a graphic designer for a popular online makeup company. (think something like: glossier bc my god, their graphic designers are insane....). she finally managed to get enough money to move into her own apartment, after years of living with her family and then moving into dorms and shared houses with university friends. 

WC

someone charlie briefly dated in uni, but broke it off because it didn’t feel right for her to be with anyone during that time

friends charlie made in nyu, please she needs some friends. especially some female friends bc all this girl is able to do is befriend stupid boys <3 

someone she knew in high school?? it could be fun to plot something like that. maybe someone who wanted to be her friend back then but always found her intimidating

charlie’s co-workers? self explanatory 

drinking buddies ?? charlie doesn’t really find it easy to make friends a lot of the time, so maybe this could be an interesting dynamic where they only hit each other up whenever they wanna go out to have fun

i’m literally up for anything, lets gooo

[ofcharlie]

nicocampbell​:

it sounded so obvious coming from charlie. of course you’re still my friend. no doubt in her voice. nico felt a heavy weight lift off his chest. he’d gotten so used to the thought of not being friends with charlie anymore that he had stopped noticing how much it still hurt. it was just something he had carried around all this time. something he could finally put down now. he could tell she was getting emotional by the way she looked away, blinking fast. but he could also tell there was more she wanted to say, so he waited for her to do so. “nothing’s ruined yet.” he said softly, squeezing her hands when she grabbed his. “if you’re saying we never stopped being friends then we never stopped being friends. we’ll just pretend the last four years didn’t happen.” nico laughed softly, trying to lighten the mood a little. “where has this sappy charlie come from? since when do you have feelings? what have you done to my best friend?” he continued, but he knew all too well that charlie saying these things out loud meant a whole lot. “anyway, i already said it but.. yeah i missed you a whole lot.” he said in a more serious tone again. 

just then their order got called out and charlie got up to get it, giving nico time to take a few deep breaths. “you’re not my mom, you can’t tell me how much coffee i can drink.” he protested, though he wasn’t really planning on drinking any more. only a few nights ago he’d texted dae at 3am asking if there was such a thing as a coffee overdose. he didn’t want to repeat that. “no instagram models with kale juice on the beach. there were a few without kale juice though, i don’t think kale juice is an appropriate beach drink.” he deadpanned. “la was fun though. i think i like it better than new york.” he knew charlie, a true new yorker, would probably think him a traitor, but the less fast pace of life just fit him more. “you just gotta stay away from the people thinking they’re gonna be the next big thing. also, turns out surfing is pretty cool. not saying i’m good at it, but it’s fun.”

“i wish i could pretend those years didn’t happen, but they’re right... there. it’s a little hard to ignore.” she sighed, looking down at their hands. “i just wanna make up for lost time.” she continued. a little smile appeared on charlie’s lips, and she playfully rolled her eyes at him. “oh, shut up. i’m still me, just... not nineteen anymore.” she shrugged. charlie knew her younger self was a lot more intimidating and mean. she eventually grew out of that phase. she was still the same old charlie, just more chill. and now that nico is back, apparently she’s cheesy. she didn’t realize she could be like that. “i’m happy you’re back.” 

“no, but i am your friend, therefore you need to listen to me more than your mom.” she joked, grinning at him. charlie was the type to leave her coffee to cool down for longer than it needs to, so she reached with a fork for a bite of the cake instead. “i don’t know what instagram models drink! kale sounds like something they’d like... or la croix.” she laughed. when nic said la was better than new york, her smile dropped and she gave him an offended look. she was definitely that new yorker who found anyone from california annoying. it did make sense, though. the slower pace there fits him. charlie was so used to the fast pace of new york, so she can’t imagine herself living there. at least until she tried it. “oh, god. i bet you see youtubers everywhere too.” she joked. “oh, come on. you’re good at everything you try! i bet you were really good out there. it sounds fun too.” 

[ofcharlie]

nicocampbell​:

nico swallowed hard. yes, he tried. he tried his best. and it still wasn’t enough. so he’d try again. he had to, because there simply wasn’t anything else to do. charlie’s next words pulled him away from staring out of the window, avoiding her eyes. instead he shot her a surprised look and then buried his face in his hands. “well i’m glad you liked it.” he commented, voice sounding muffled. a lot of their songs, especially their earlier stuff, were based on their break up. there were also just a couple that were reworked songs nico wrote about charlie when they were still in high school. if charlie knew, she didn’t really show it and nico wasn’t sure if he wanted to ask. finally, he looked up again, meeting charlie’s eyes. “well it wasn’t the music that broke us up, you know. just… it wasn’t meant to be.” he let out a bitter laugh. “we all wanted different things.”

nico raised his hands defensively “i wouldn’t call it stalking.” nico couldn’t help but laugh. “i just never unfollowed you.” it was of course a very obvious lie. or, not a lie exactly, but the fact that he had never unfollowed her after their break up said enough. “what do you mean? i was their best friend.” nico laughed. he’d love to come by sometime soon. charlie’s home had always been like a second home to him. there was just one thing. “i was your best friend too, of course.” his gaze had drifted away from charlie again, he was tracing the tattoos on his hand instead. another california souvenir. “i’d still like to be. if that’s okay- i mean-” he sighed, frowning slightly while trying to find the right words. “are we still friends? ‘cause i think i still want to be friends. like i missed this. i missed you.” his voice had gotten quieter the more he spoke. “i know i have a lot to make up for… the whole breakup and just not even sending a single text message this entire time-” he ran a hand through his hair. “i messed up. but i want to make it right. because i don’t think i want to not talk to you again.”

charlie would be a liar if she said she didn’t like the music nico wrote. after their breakup, there would be random nights where all she wanted was to hear him sing again. so she would be awake in the middle of the night doing nothing but listening to his band’s songs. she wasn’t an idiot, she knew a lot of them nico wrote about real life events, and that would include her in the mix. but right now he didn’t need to know any of this. maybe in another conversation. “hey, shit happens. doesn’t mean you lose the ability to still write and sing.” she shrugged. “i believe in you... always have.” 

“well, me neither. i never unfollowed.” she laughed too. oh, she definitely kept a close eye on him. charlie’s smile turned into a smaller one, and then it was replaced with a frown. well, that hurt. she never thought he would even have to ask that. she thought they could easily just slip back into being friends while ignoring the obvious wall that got created between them. but that obviously can’t just happen. “nico... what the fuck you talking about? of course you’re still my friend.” she shook her head. “you’ll always be my best friend.” she’s been sad about the break up enough, she didn’t need to tear up again. charlie looked away from him and blinked the burning in her eyes, hoping he didn’t notice. “fuck... this is what i was worried about. even back before we were together... i wondered if a relationship could ruin our friendship like this, and it actually happened, and i-...” she sighed and looked at him. “i don’t want it to be like that anymore.” charlie stopped hesitating and took one of his hands in her own; something she’s been wanting to do for four years now. “i messed up too... i should’ve texted as well. but whatever, it happened. we’re here now.” she smiled gently. “what i’m saying is, i missed you too. and no one could ever replace you in my life... cheesy, i know.” she said the last part as a way to try to lighten up. “you’re lucky you even get to hear me say shit like that.” 

a barista could be heard calling out their order, so charlie found this as the perfect moment to end the sadness that settled between them. she let go of nico’s hand and got up to go get the tray of coffee and cake. “your coffee, sir. you better not be drinking more after this one.” she warned as she put the tray down on the table. “so, tell me, is la any good? do you actually find instagram models on the beach with their kale juice, or is that a myth?” she joked. 

[yvesha]

happy birthday to our charming cutie ♡ #happyyvesday

[ofcharlie]

nicocampbell​:

nico couldn’t help the giddy smile that crept up on his face when charlie called his hair iconic. they were joking around, of course, but her opinion still meant a lot to him. once they were inside, nico was glad charlie took the lead like she used to do whenever they would go to a new place before. rubbing his hands together to warm them up, he followed her to a secluded window seat. he couldn’t have picked a better spot himself. he’d hate to be seated in the middle of a busy cafe while trying to catch up on the last three years of their life. “oh, coffee. duh.” he grinned up at charlie as he sat down at the table. “let’s do a latte. and that chocolate cake you just mentioned.” nico knew charlie was always warning him about drinking too much caffeine, and she was kind of right. this situation was anxiety inducing enough without espresso shots triggering his anxiety as well. 

he was right about his anxiety levels rising, he felt restless pretty much as soon as he’d sat down and it only got worse while waiting for charlie to come back, and then even worse when she sat down and silence fell between them. there really was only one question he really wanted to ask, but he didn’t know if he should lead with that one. just as he was about to open his mouth to comment something dumb about the weather, charlie started talking. nico cleared his throat, looking away from charlie and staring at his hands in front of him on the table. “yeah.. we just fell out. i guess i should’ve seen it coming, things hadn’t been great for a while but-” he cut himself off before he started rambing too much. charlie always was able to pull the real stuff out of him so easily, looking past the funny and cheery person he was to most people. “i’m fine, i guess. it’s just been weird adjusting to new york life again.” the plan originally had been to move to los angeles permanently. he hadn’t planned on being back this soon. but maybe it didn’t have to be all bad. “but it’s fine, whatever. you’ve been doing pretty well right? saw you got that job at… what are they called again?” he’d been teasing charlie about stalking his instagram on the subway, but that was a bit hypocritical of him. he’d been checking her social media to see what charlie was up to this whole time as well. “and how are your aunt and uncle.” the awkward, almost pained smile on his face turned into a more genuine one. “honestly, i missed your aunts cooking so much in cali.”

“you still drink coffee when it’s getting dark? you never learn, huh?” charlie rolled her eyes playfully before leaving to order. she knew nico well enough to know that too much coffee can make him all shaky and anxious, so she hoped he didn’t have much earlier so she won’t be contributing a lot to anything he might feel later. maybe she’ll have to go back to warning him again soon if he was still the same as he used to be. 

charlie felt bad. she knew how much music and the band meant to him, so to see him back at where he started made her sad and worried for him. “but you did your best. you always do your best.” she spoke, an unintentional small pout appearing on her lips. “i... i mean, i did check out the stuff you were releasing. if anything, i’m surprised the whole thing didn’t get to where you wanted it.” she sighed. charlie nodded, showing a tiny smile, and raised an eyebrow at him. “so you’ve been stalking me, i see.” she pointed out. “how bold of you to judge me for looking at your instagram when you’ve been doing the same.” she chuckled. 

“they’re great. they still ask about you sometimes.” charlie answered, her smile was still there, even though it had a bit of sadness. all she could remember is how her aunt would keep asking her about how nico was doing in california, and charlie would keep giving short answers or trying to change the subject because she didn’t want to talk about him. eventually her family caught on and found out the two had broken up. now it’s just a simple ‘did you see what he’s up to?’ questions that were carefully asked every once in a while. “maybe you should come visit them. i’m sure they’d be happy to see you, and i know my aunt will want to cook you a nice dinner. it’s as if you were their best friend, not mine.” she joked about the last part with a small laugh. 

[mal-berthas]

was he teasing her about her height?

[ofcharlie]

@nicocampbell

[loona-tv]

Every LOOΠΔ TV:

Episode #233; ⛄

[ofcharlie]

nicocampbell​:

“yeah the choppy hair. you made it look cool and edgy.” nico said, althought his chuckling betrayed he wasn’t completely serious. “maybe it’s just that it’s attached to many great memories.” he pretended to tear up, only to start laughing again. “can’t wait for that comeback to happen. although this current situation isn’t bad either, obviously.” he felt his cheeks warm a little. was he laying on the compliments a little too heavy? he was trying to keep it casual and friendly. if he ever wanted to get back to where they’d left off, he first had to repair the friendship part, and that was going to be hard enough already.

nico chuckled softly, his voice becoming a little more serious. “well, i don’t know about those girls but yeah i actually like it like this.” he’d never thought he’d like the longer hair on him but here he was. “if only teen nico could see me now.” nico joked, despite the heavy feeling settling in his stomach at the words he just spoke. he wasn’t actually sure if he wanted teenaged him to see him like this. bandless, working at a restaurant, him and charlie broken up. the café charlie pointed out looked like the warm cozy place he could use in this weather. he was pretty sure he couldn’t really feel his fingertips at this point. and chocolate cake sounded very good right about now. he pushed the door open, holding it for charlie before walking through it himself. as soon as he had to switch from their easy flowing banter, that awkwardness from earlier crept back into his voice, and he was following charlie like a lost puppy. “where do you want to sit?”

charlie playfully rolled her eyes and shook her head. “it was great, you’re right. it somehow got this nerdy kid to think i’m cool, you know?” she joked, smiling knowingly up at him. the compliments kept coming and charlie didn’t know what to do with them. all she could do was smile and look ahead, all while hoping that her cheeks didn’t turn red. 

“it’s great. iconic, if you ask me.” she responded with a little smile. she would’ve reached up and ruffled his hair if she wasn’t still feeling a little stiff as she walked beside him. yeah, they were acting normal... kind of. but it still felt a little weird. charlie thanked him, and walked inside the cafe. she glanced over at him, and felt endeared at how awkward he suddenly got. it reminded her of all the times where they would go somewhere new and he’d suddenly look like a lost puppy, and wait for her to do all the talking and picking seats. she led him towards a table with two seats in a corner by the windows, a little secluded from everyone else. charlie put her bag down on the ground next to one of the seats. “you can sit here, and i’ll go order. what do you wanna drink?” she asked.

once she was back from ordering, charlie took a seat and leaned back. it was silent for a short moment and she glanced at him, suddenly meeting nico’s eyes and smiling a little at him. charlie sighed. “so... i heard it didn’t go well with your band.” she started. she’s been curious about this for a while. and she knew how much it meant to him, so she tried to be careful. “are... are you okay?” 

[ofcharlie]

@charlieee posted on instagram stories (2 hours ago)


stories from @nicocampbell and charlie’s reunion

[ofcharlie]

Sun & scorpio

sun: describe yourself in 3 words.

“tired, bored, and depressed.”

scorpio: do you trust easily?

“hahaha, funny. no.” 

[ofcharlie]

aquarius, juno & 12th house

aquarius: do you believe in aliens?

“sure, dude.”

the others have been answered here.

[pparkchaewon]

[kaykyro]

shocked n upset that the yves walking through an airport with a ripped open box of kelloggs cereal images have not hit tumblr yet so here i am to offer them to u

[ofcharlie]

4, 14, 18!

4. Somebody you aspire to be like?

“i have no fucking clue, my dude. it’s hard enough being myself.”

14. Biggest pet peeve?

“oh, sweetie, i’ve got a lot of those. hold on to your seat. so, i hate aggressive interrupters, people who steal your joke and say it louder, guys who bring their guitars to parties, silent treatments, people who make their entire existence revolve around their relationship, tongue clicking, people who ask ‘can i ask you a question?’, the word ‘pantie’, and... you get the point.” 

18. Three things you’re looking forward to?

“that paycheck, babes.” 

[ofcharlie]

cancer, libra

cancer: if you could choose your child’s zodiac sign, what would it be?

“not libra. fuck libras.” 

libra: describe your dream partner.

“i think i gravitate towards emos who are complete softies on the inside. specifically someone who’s 5′9″, a capricorn, and thinks they’re the next gerard way. that person probably doesn’t exist, though, so i don’t know why i even try with such a specific type.” @nicocampbell 

[ofcharlie]

juno & 12th house

juno: do you believe in soul mates?

“i think it’s a ridiculous and overwhelming idea to think about, but... i think i do. at least i have enough proof to know that i do.”

12th house: do you like to be alone?

“a lot of the time, yes.” 

[ofcharlie]

nicocampbell​:

“well my bandmates definitely tried to match your level of mean-ness, but you’re just a natural talent i guess.” he told her. the more they walked, the more comfortable nico felt, like sinking back into their natural rythm. things had always been so easy with charlie. he was grateful they still were, despite them barely even being friends anymore. “no it’s not weird at all. looks good actually.” nico said. “i would have thought long hair would look weird on you, but it suits you.” what he didn’t say was that he was pretty sure charlie would look great in any hairstyle, but maybe it was implied by the shy way his eyes shifted to his feet. “though my favorite hair you’ve ever had is still when you chopped it all off yourself.” of course this was partly due to sentimental reasons, mostly the role said diy hairstyle had played in the beginning of their friendship. back then nico had thought charlie was the coolest person he’d ever met. not much had changed since then, he realised.  at the mention of his own grown our hair, he couldn’t help but laugh. “oh the girls love the long hair.” nico made a dramatic show of running his hands through his hair. “does really well at gigs. makes all our fangirls go crazy.” they’d barely had any fans, let alone fangirls, but he’d been teased relentlessly by his bandmates about growing it out supposedly for the sake of pulling girls. in reality, he’d just been either too lazy or too broke to go to a hairdresser most of the time. “you should see the headbanging action. emo teen nico would be proud, don’t you think?” 

“what did i always tell you? no one can match how great i am at this.” she answered smugly, mostly just teasing like she had always used to. charlie definitely was starting to feel a lot more comfortable with going back into the swing of things. it didn’t take as long as she thought it would, which could only be explained by the fact that they were best friends who knew each other so well. “thank you.” she responded quietly. what he said next unlocked so many vivid memories that she could never forget. “oh, the choppy ass look? that was your favorite?” charlie grinned. god, it was so bad and horribly done out of anger. and yet it somehow manager to earn her a friendship. “who knows, maybe it’ll make a comeback one day.” she shrugged. 

the girls? was charlie’s first thought. she really thought she wouldn’t care if nico had been into other people after they broke up, but now that she was hearing it coming from him... she tried to act normal. “oh really? that must’ve been your thing, huh?” she teased with a grin. “oh, true. emo teen nico was preparing his whole life for this iconic headbanging. he would lose his shit.” she laughed, shaking her head. charlie spotted the place she was referring to earlier, and made her way towards it, nodding at it to nico. it was a little hidden cafe. charlie liked to come here sometimes to work on projects or just chill. “i think you’re gonna love this place. they have the best chocolate cake ever.”