we did wicked things-

We are all Greeks. (resources for the year I get enough time)

[estro-boi]

we gotta get back to torrent distribution, i just watched someone eat eight grand in bandwidth charges because they ran a direct-download piracy site with local file hosting through cloudflare. torrents were invented literally for this exact reason

[estro-boi]

torrents work like this

i have a file or folder on my pc that i want to share with other people. let's call it gayshit.mp3

unfortunately gayshit.mp3 is 750mb and im not paying for discord nitro so i need another way to send it

i put it into qbittorrent and it makes a torrent file. this is essentially a very small file that points to gayshit.mp3 so other computers can find it. kinda like a treasure map

i send this tiny file to my friend, who loads it into qbittorrent. their computer takes a moment to find mine over the vast expanse of cyberspace and then (as long as my pc is running and the file is still where it should be), it gets copied from my hard drive to theirs

this is the cool part: if somebody else loads that tiny file, they can download it from both of us. if i'm offline but my friend is on, the third person can still get it. this also means that if two people have separate halves of the file, they can download the other half from each other. as long as some combination of people have the pieces between them, they can all have the whole thing.

crucially this does not require a server!!! you can just upload the file to a few people and as long as they keep it, it's still accessible. as long as somebody, somewhere is still connected, it's available forever. the only way it goes away is if everybody disconnects from it.

please learn to torrent

[macleod]

How to Use Torrents (with Pictures) - wikiHow

An expert guide to get started using torrentsTorrents are one of the most popular forms of file sharing on the internet, accounting for over

always use qbittorrent, do not use bittorrent or utorrent.

[icaseybaybee]

[eesirachs]

summer reading list—unconventional critical religious theory

catherine keller; face of the deep

minnie khumalo; "judges 19 and non-con: sado-kantian aesthetics of violence in the tale of an unnamed woman," in rape culture and religious studies

griselda pollock; "femininity: aporia or difference," in the matrixial borderspace

monica r. miller, "i am a nappy-headed ho: (re)signifying 'deviance' in the haraam of religious respectability," in ain't i a womanist too

avivah zornberg, the murmuring deep: reflections on the biblical unconsious

saidiya hartman, "venus in two acts"

avgi saketopoulou, sexuality beyond consent: risk, race, traumatophilia

rhiannon graybill, are we not men? unstable masculinity in the hebrew prophets

vanessa sinclair, the queerness of psychoanalysis

sigmund freud, introductory lectures

alphonso lingis, excesses

kristeva, revolution in poetic language

elizabeth grosz, volatile bodies: toward a corporal feminism

luis menéndez-antuña, bridging the interpretive abyss

griselda pollock, psychoanalysis and the image

kristen neumann, the routledge handbook of senses in the ancient near east

elizabeth wright, psychoanalytic criticism

mieke bal, death and dissymmetry: the politics of coherence in the book of judges

reed calrson, unfamiliar selves: possession and other spirit phenomena

marcella althaus-reid, indecent theology: perversions in sex, gender, and politics

black and koosed, reading with feeling: affect theory and the bible

papenberg and zarzycka, carnal aesthetics: transgressive imagery and feminist politics

[quietwingsinthesky]

like the betrayal’s always going to be worse if they cared about you and it didn’t matter. someone discards you because they didn’t give a shit, then you can be angry about that, you can feel vindicated in that, you can get over it. but if they can look you in the eyes and say “I love you. I would make the same choice again.” You will never sleep peacefully again, is all.

[quietwingsinthesky]

“I thought they cared about me, but they were lying this whole time.” <- tired. boring. removes all the nuance of this relationship to make it easier to move on from.

“I thought they cared about me, and I was right, and every minute they were there for me, every time they said they were proud, every laugh we shared leaning against each other bruised and breathless, all of it was real. and they still left me behind. They could put their love aside. I couldn’t.” <- insane. will never leave you alone. reminds you that even the worst people are still people and can still care about even the ones they hurt the most and that undoes neither the harm nor the love.

[neckfat]

[withhertea]

[princesskuragina]

Every time someone tells me they hate Shakespeare (which is frequently, bc people who hate Shakespeare r usually very proud of it and they need to tell me immediately when they learn that I'm a Shakespeare actor) I enact a sort of self contained stoic ritual where I remind myself that I do not need to be defending the most read and lauded and hegemonic English writer of all time even though I KNOW that they've only half-read Romeo and Juliet when they were 14 in a lame English class and formed a grudge and never changed their opinion. I have that knowledge and I allow it to wash over me and leave me undisturbed

[buttpoems]

[walk-up-songs]

Bought my uncle a burger and milkshake in exchange for letting me disrupt the holiest day of the week, NFL Sunday Football, so I could install a Pi-hole and free the household of ads...the thing abt the specific boomers I live with is they told me not to trust people on the Internet but they do not understand the algorithm or online advertising and think that Facebook has their best interests at heart. And every time I have tried to explain to them that no, blorbo from my dashboard is not selling my kidneys on the dark web but Google from your capitalism is definitely selling your web searches to every advertising company on the planet, they think I am paranoid. How could their personal friend Mark Zuckerberg want anything bad to happen to them etc. I am fighting battles I did not know existed!!!

[walk-up-songs]

Update I have had Pi-Hole successfully installed for two (2) hours and have since learned that 40% of the web traffic in this household went to advertisements. FORTY FUCKING PERCENT. We live in hell. This is the greatest gift I have ever given my family that they will not understand or acknowledge or feel any gratitude for.

[walk-up-songs]

Update #2: it was rising all night but the number it finally settled on was...60%. 60% of the web traffic in this household went to advertisements. I can't tell if this high number is bc I live in Silicon Valley and probably am subject to the Algorithmic Internet in ways people outside of Silicon Valley are not or it is normal to have 2/3rds of your web traffic be ads, but it did make me set up a recurring donation of the EFF lmfao.

[walk-up-songs]

Okay I have had multiple people ask, so here are the useful websites that me and Beryl used to muddle our way through:

Using Pi-hole and Raspberry Pi (on the Raspberry Pi website, really good overview of what Pi-hole does)

Tumblr-archived Twitter thread about one household's experience with Pi-hole (this is what sold me on it. Also the tweets were published in 2022 and Pi-hole is actively being developed, so I think some of the teething problems he mentioned might have cleared up or are at least being addressed.)

Pi-hole website (gives broad strokes of the software and imho is not actually that helpful, however this proves that I am not making shit up)

Pi-hole documentation (read prerequisites carefully, you do NOT need the newest model of Raspberry Pi to run this thing!! You don't even need a Raspberry Pi at all, you can run it on a bunch of Linux systems however I'm very stupid when it comes to Linux and when my options are install and learn a whole ass new OS or spend $$ on a Raspberry Pi and hook it up to my TV with a wired mouse and keyboard I will unfortunately be spending money)

Privacy International's guide to setting up Pi-hole on a Raspberry Pi (bro this one saved our asses)

You guys can ask me questions if you want but I guarantee I will not know the answers bc I don't know shit about fuck, I just followed the directions and reaped the rewards. It did take us 2 hours to set up bc I'm bad at following directions (and it's kind of complicated if you've been out of the software game for a while like I have), and you do have to be sososo brave about fucking around with your internet provider's configuration. So make sure you eat before you do it!! However it has been so worth it for me so far, given that now all my devices at home are running faster and I'm not seeing any ads while web browsing. We will see what complaints my family comes up with, but I love it so far.

Also!! if you've never heard of Raspberry Pi, which I realize are not all of my followers are lost in the Silicon Valley sauce so you might not have, here's is their website and their page for using Raspberry Pi at home.

(And here is the Electronic Frontier Foundation, a nonprofit that fights for digital privacy, free speech, and innovation, if you, like me, were presented with cold hard data about your personal internet usage and suddenly realized that our internet is fully a dystopia. haha.)

[acquitarte]

After a few months with pi-hole, I recently switched to AdGuard Home. It was recommended/is co-promoted in a pi-hole discord server, and it seems to be blocking a bit more successfully/consistently for me than the pi-hole did.

I also use Blokada on my phone when I'm not home and have the Windscribe browser extension which includes 10GB of free VPN traffic and has uBlock integrated into it. (AdGuard does technically make things that do this but I like those better; ymmv).

It all takes some setup and tinkering, but I highly, highly recommend taking steps to clear out some of the internet garbage and protect your info.

[imp]

[super-bold]

[surrow]

[Start ID: A collection of 15 DBT strengthening affirmations. They read as follows:

1. What's the worst that can happen? And based on my experience, and not on my emotions, how likely is that to happen?

2. Feelings are sometimes painful, but are time-limited.

3. It will get easier each time I practice.

4. My success is measured by taking skillful action, not whether I was anxious when I did it.

5. I'm not going to let a lapse get in my way. I'm going to continue making progress towards my goal.

6. Feeling I can't do it is not the same as not being able to do it. Stick to the plan.

7. Good job-- I'm staying in the situation, even though it's hard.

8. I'm going to make it.

9. It's a sign of strength to ask for help in an effective way.

10. Knowing when to ask for coaching is a skill in itself.

11. I am a unique person, and I have unique reactions. Only I can determine how I should feel in any given situation.

12. My feelings are not right or wrong, they just simply are.

13. A feeling of uncertainty is not the same as the truth.

14. My painful emotions happen for a reason and are an important source of information and direction for me.

15. Urges are a natural part of being human. Having an urge (even a strong urge) does not mean that I have to do anything at all. /End ID]

[soultea]

Okay but Mark Watney who survives for a year and a half on Mars completely alone and gets to come home because the entire world chose to put everything aside to save him watching the Hail Mary video logs when they come back to Earth and watching the world do nothing?

Mark Watney watching Ryland Grace have to grapple with the fact that he will die and there is no amount of quick thinking or human help that can save him?

Mark Watney finding out Grace didn't volunteer to go to space and was instead sent as a sacrifice so the rest of them could live and getting fucking pissed on his behalf?

Mark Watney who knows what it is to starve on a foreign planet doing the math about Grace's remaining food supply when he decides to go back to save Rocky?

Mark Watney who realistically knows that there is nothing that can be done but who keeps watching the information come out about a middle school teacher who was probably going to die alone in space and not being able to stop thinking about it?

Mark Watney who had to be asked to stop proposing rescue missions because even if they could get funded, there was very little hope that Grace would still be alive even if they got to him?

Mark Watney with survivors guilt for a mission that he wasn't even on?

Mark Watney asking why me but not him?

I know they're not in the same universe and I know the timelines don't line up but just go with me here.

[craftydragonscepter]

just go with me here

[silvaurum]

"i would kill a pedophile to protect my child" ok but would you teach your child how to say no? even to adults? even to adults you like? would you teach your child the words "penis" and "vulva" and then use them? would you let them ask questions about their body? would you answer them honestly? would you learn how to cope with your feelings when you talk about human bodies, so they don't feel ashamed? would you set a positive example for how you talk about your body? would you tell your child they don't have to hug or kiss anyone? would you tell your family the same? would you stand by them when they refuse to hug someone? even someone you know has never done anything to hurt them? would you let your child avoid food they don't like? would you let you child avoid people they don't like? would you believe them? would you sit in the discomfort of not knowing all the answers and not take it out on them? would you love your child the same if someone did hurt them? would you make them feel valued just as they are? would you let them talk to doctors or nurses in private? would you let them express their feelings? would you show interest in their life? would you let your child say no to you? would you help your child feel safe coming to you when they make a mistake? would you apologize to your child? would you believe them? would you put aside your anger to focus on what would make your child feel safe and loved? would you put your ego aside for your child? would you take your child's concerns seriously? would you listen to your child? would you believe them?

[godkissedme]

villa johnsrud, oslo, norway, built in 1970

[bxy]

Thaddeus Holownia

[openingadoor]

[exitwound]

I used to be a human then i was godlike and perfect for a while and then I got tired and now im an beast. you know how it is

[toadrosalina7]

you get called annoying a lot don't you?

[exitwound]

literally no one has ever called me annoying before congratulations on being the first

[exitwound]

probably the number one thing about my personality is a deep seated fear of contributing deleteriously to the vibe and despite how much sleep i lose over it, strangely i never expected this day to really come. so it is to my great surprise that i dont feel anything about this. it is with awe and honor that i now announce that i am completely unbothered. there is nothing you can say to me to make me feel ashamed in a way that matters, in a way that has any impact on the extent of the shame i was born with, a shame i carry every day, a sword pointed inward, a shield sliding stupidly under my own skin. i have no ego left for you to hurt. im free, i glisten