Hello, my loves! I wanna thank you all so much for your patience and support in letting me heal and spend a bit more time in reality this past (KINDA A YEAR) looooong while, and in that, I have amazing news to share with all of you. I went to the doctor's yesterday and when they weighed me, I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry because the scale said 169. I'm officially at 61 pounds lost and I've been maintaining the 170s for a few months now, so to finally see any kind of 160 is the best because I haven't seen them in over three years. I look in the mirror and I see my old overly confident and narcissistic self again. I finally feel like me again, just a little thicccccccccccccccccccccc-er. When I was skinny, I thought that was the body I was meant to be in. But, now I think THIS is the body for me. I like having and overly exaggerated hourglass figure, while I do wish I could get my chest down a cup-size or so and lifted for health reasons as the bras I HAVE to wear really affect my fibro myalgia, not to mention the back pain of lugging these things around, in appearance...I couldn't be happier. When my body changed for the worse, I wanted to hide. I used to ALWAYS wear the tightest clothing to show off my body (and if ur an og u remember that), but the moment I realized how I looked, I wanted to do nothing but hide it all. And now? I'm in crop tops and tight dresses that feel so right and so good. This is the me I missed. Instead of being the assertive person I had always been, when I went into hiding my body, I also hid my personality and let others lead me because I had no confidence to do anything, especially by myself. But, at long last, I don't mind attention. I don't mind talking with people, or speaking up, or acting like myself. I'm finally back to being who I've been always been. If I could stop losing weight right this moment, I'd be happy with that. This is the body I'm meant to have, and accepting that was the last big leap I needed to finally love myself again.


















