What does it mean to be depressed?
It means waking up and not being able to get out of bed for hours afterwards.
It means trying for hours to force yourself to get dressed.
It means forcing yourself out of bed to go to work and battling the thoughts of quiting every god damn morning.
It means trying to make plans with friends and cancelling immediately after because you just can’t find the energy.
It means not showering for days and sometimes weeks on end, having your hair so stiff and knotted you can’t even dry shampoo it.
It means trying to force yourself to be there for the people you love and drowning in self hatred when you just can’t do it.
It means living in a mess that pushes you farther into depression but not being able to do anything about it because your falling farther down.
It means not eating for days or eating too much.
It means constant waking up through out the night or sleeping for 12 hours every day.
It means living in constant hell and no one can understand that.
