Okay here is what I can transcribe from what I hear as lyrics from the JenMish music writing session. I’m pretty sure the beginning is just Jensen babbling nothing to help Misha get the melody but there are some words in there that I simply cannot make out, but I think I got it from where Misha started in.
Standing up on the bridge there. Looking down on the water. Just me and my little brother. Where’s the angel that we need? Where. Where is he now?
Looking out over the water. See as far as the eye can see. And I live and I need another… day to find you there.
Where’d you go when I need you (also possibly where’re you going when I need you, not entirely clear) You were gone and left me all alone. But you were never alone, you told me. Here I sit with you on this stage in Rome.
Yo you got any awesome McDanno fic recs tho? Last time I looked a good like 4 years ago I couldn’t find any. But I’m definitely interested!
Hey there friend!! Oh lord I’ve read soooo many great McDanno fics (the writers in the fandom are especially talented!) and I think I have over 900 bookmarks on AO3😬 Do you have any particular categories/genres/types of fic you’re looking for so I could help more and narrow it down?
In the mean time off the top of my head, I would recommend anything and everything by SquaresAreNotCircles (https://archiveofourown.org/users/SquaresAreNotCircles/pseuds/SquaresAreNotCircles/works?fandom_id=146772 ) and Banshi13 (https://archiveofourown.org/users/Banshi13/pseuds/Banshi13/works?fandom_id=146772). Their fics really capture the canon voices, characterizations, and unique bond of McDanno well, using the good parts of the show and filling in everything that the show misses.
If you’re looking for a different type of story (like AU-epic type fics) let me know! There are a lot of great writers/stories, so I will work on compiling a more comprehensive list hopefully soon!
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not to be emotional on main but fanfiction is a gift and it’s so fundamentally human to tell each other stories and i am deeply grateful to have that in my life. thank you all for adding so much emotion and meaning to the world with your words
okay but uh. though it’s about Dean’s “I hate you. and I love you,” scene with Mary, something about Jensen approaching Bobo specifically to thank him for clearing up something he’d been struggling to put name to, that tied into the previous season. Jensen saying that as he was acting that season there was something going on with his character in regards to that specific relationship that he couldn’t place until that moment in the season, that writing, a scene that makes everything click into place. in this case, the choice of why to bring Mary back, and why Jensen felt like both he as an actor and Dean as a character were struggling with their connection to Mom. but uh. something about that. something about Jensen approaching Bobo to thank him for writing one of the final episodes of a season, where the written script finally gave him insight into what he’d been missing, perhaps unconsciously playing, now cleared up in the text for both him, Dean, and the audience. something about that.
Its been over 2 months now since the Supernatural finale aired. I am still so angry, hurt, and confused by it and I don’t think I will ever get closure unless someone like Andrew Dabb, or Jensen Ackles, actually opens up and gives us an explanation that makes sense.
What annoys me most right now is people trying to gaslight fans into believing that we should accept the narrative we have been given at face value: That the finale was always planned to be that way, that Destiel was never on the cards, that there was no Network interference, that the only changes made were due to covid and were minor at best.
This harmful gaslighting is FALSE.
NO ONE KNOWS THE TRUTH OF WHAT HAPPENED.
Look, I don’t agree with some of the crazier conspiracy theories. I don’t believe that there was some huge campaign among the CW Network execs to remove anything remotely gay out of homophobia. I don’t believe that the finale was changed because of some desire to make it into a Walker promo. I don’t believe that the finale was really bad on purpose in protest by Dabb for not getting to do an ending he truly wanted. I don’t believe that Dabb left us smart fans a bunch of secret messages in the finale to hint that he was on our side all along and that everything was fake.
I do, however, believe that all of these conspiracy theories have some elements in them that are plausible. At least, more plausible than the bullshit narrative mentioned above that some people are pushing in some desperate attempt to defend the Network (which imo is really strange behaviour anyway - why would anyone care about a TV network with a history of terrible behaviour?!?)
We have facts, based on information provided before the covid lockdown, which for some reason, people like Misha have since backpeddled on. So let me try to outline some of the information that makes no sense.
Below the cut I go on a deep dive into the conspiracies and statements I have heard about the SPN finale and try to make some sense of this whole fucked up situation. It gets long.
Are you a serious cockles shipper, or do you just do it for fun? No hate either way lol just wondering
okay i’m putting this under a readmore because it’s embarrassing to talk about in front of 20k people. this is my cockles manifesto:
i am, as a rule, not into rpf shipping. i have no problem with people who are, it just feels kind of weird and invasive to me so i generally avoid it.
however, i have been here since 2012, and the sheer level of unabashed shenanigans that have been beamed into my eyeballs, paired with my intuitive understanding of body language, have convinced me that misha and jensen do in fact have a private romantic/sexual relationship.
BUT i have to make it clear that i don’t mean that in a “cheating on their wives” way, but in a polyamory way - which isn’t much of a stretch, considering that we know misha and his wife are poly, and vicki literally wrote ‘the threesome’s handbook’. almost every single cockles shipper loves vicki and danneel, we are not about disrespecting or hating them whatsoever.
now, i KNOW that saying that i believe the actors who portray my otp are in a secret relationship makes me sound insane, believe me i’m aware of that, but i’m not saying it lightly or without evidence. those of us who’ve been around a while know that it’s treated as basically an open secret in the spn fandom and among the spn cast, who very frequently make comments and allusions to them being together. jared has made SO many comments that people make posts collecting them, like this one and this one. like i said, it’s basically an open secret (like that time the show said “they’re a couple in real life”). here’s some Highly Suspicious Stuff: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14/15, 16, 17, 18, 19/20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 40, 41, 42, 43
i mean...
but it’s important to make clear that if either of them EVER seemed uncomfortable with us shipping them and making jokes and comments, i would absolutely stop. i respect them and i don’t ever want to make them feel creeped out or like their privacy is violated. but the thing is, they not just ‘not uncomfortable’, they very deliberately egg us on. misha loves to make ‘cockles’ puns, they happily do silly photo ops implying they’re together, and they both love to post photos of themselves together, knowing quite well how we go crazy for it.
like the above selfie, where they posed chest to chest, and this actual ‘anniversary’ photo jensen posted, celebrating ten years of the first time he took misha out to dinner, actually tracking down the same restaurant and the same table.
or these really adorable photos of the boat trip they took with both their families:
and of course the beloved sunset photo:
every time they have a panel together (which usually only happens at the yearly roman convention known as jibcon), their antics get wilder. the first time i went “wait...” was in 2013, when they dry-humped onstage.
and by 2019, we have jensen eagerly throwing himself down on the stage (to reenact a scene between castiel and sam) so misha could get on top of him and mime choking him, and then pretty obviously getting a boner because of it (video). oh and i can’t possibly leave out the kissing (bonus gifs, and more), or the panel where jensen got drunk and opened his pants to show misha his underwear.
their body language around each other is so different from how they are around anyone else (except their wives). like, you can see how jensen and jared love each other and what good friends they are by how they play off each other and have an easy camaraderie, but as soon as jensen gets around misha, he can’t take his eyes off him. he stares, he giggles like a fool over not-that-funny jokes (we call it his unicorn laugh), he looks absolutely besotted, and they’re constantly gravitating to each other and touching each other in really intimate ways: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20
honestly, there have been so many Shenanigans over the last 12 years that i can’t even remember them all, or find them all in my archives. there’s been clothes sharing/swapping, there’s jensen’s inexplicable kink for misha’s bad accents, the time misha reenacted the fake orgasm scene from when harry met sally and jensen, um, liked it (bonus), their matching bracelets and rings (and another ring), how very enthusiastic jensen is about calling misha “dmitri”, how jensen grumpily insists he can’t remember last week but jumps at the chance to tell the story of how he met misha and the first time he went to dinner with misha and misha told the server to bring them “the three least ordered dishes on the menu” (seriously, they tell the story of how they met all the time), the number of times they’ve been suspiciously late to their autograph and photo op sessions...
here’s some more adorable:
gag reel compilation
resume battle
“i love you”
best moments compilation
really bad dancing
gently bullying
jensen praising misha
jensen gushing over misha
lowkey hand-holding
“i’d take jensen home”
bickering
the time misha tried to sneak up but jensen could see him in the monitor
knock knock
supportive jensen
“you drew the black penis?”
destiel or cockles??
bowtie adjusting
jensen losing his fucking mind over meeting a dog named misha
whatever this is??
some sdcc shenanigans
shenanigans
“aloha, cowboy”
when jensen pied misha
“dapper as always”
the way jensen likes being bossed around... (bonus angle)
that time jensen tried to facetime misha so he could participate in a panel
“who said it” game
misha gazing at jensen
stuck in the space pants together
2011 jibcon highlights
blowing a kiss
jensen straddling misha on set
that time misha accidentally (?) tweeted out a cockles post,
jensen elbowing jared because he wants to play foosball opposite misha
the mirroring compilation
“who doesn’t love freckles?”
jensen falls over laughing because misha is wearing socks
the infamous reverse french mistake edit
jensen asked misha to autograph his sign
that time they showed up wearing the same suit
cute whispering and giggling
jensen calling misha his ‘pebble’
“how are you?” compilation
jensen brought a shirt to give to misha
“he’s like a little puppy”/”he’s like a little teddy bear”
jensen’s accent kink reappears / and again
"jensen’s the horse”/”my kids have seen jensen having sex many times”
“so it’s like football...”
jensen reminiscing on when they met
and look, despite all that, it’s honestly not about fantasizing about two hot guys fucking, or anything sexual at all. whatever they actually are, they love each other, they make each other happy, and getting to see it makes me happy. it’s something good in the world, these two sweet idiots loving each other and letting us see the fact that they love each other.
so, uh, i guess to answer your question, i’m serious. but i do try not to cross the line between what happens publicly and what’s private. from what’s shown in public, i draw these conclusions, because, well,
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