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Jayson Tapic

Wondering in a rain when you came Covering stars in this life full of lame Picking me up and dust me off Turning this emotions back into soft

Watching the time, thinking of words Picking up rhymes, writing on boards How will I express my love for you? How will you know that this feeling is true?

You are my first and last Forget our dark past Making our future a colourful rainbow With you, my love,…

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Good Bye

Finally. I’ve made up my mind.

As I swallow the last sip of my coffee, I get back to my room with a knife in my hand, it was the sharpest one.

I locked the door.

“What time is it?”

“Oh, It’s already three in the morning and it’s so damn quiet outside.”

“And three is my favourite number. That’s funny.”

“Maybe I will miss this place. Just maybe.”

I cut my wrist and I felt pain at first but as it…

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11.25.19

Original plan is I will be riding with him in his area, apparently there were changes on plan. But afternoon at 3pm we still try to find scramble, which, after seeing yesterday, we plan to find one. Yet, we can't, then he ask me if I want to go to Pandi, because there where I found scramble 2 or 3 weeks ago. I answered him "pede ba?" cause it's already past 3pm na. He said "oo naman", so we go Pandi and he find me different way which I can enjoy the scenery, bukid and puno. Really, we just had joyride, then pabalik he go different way again, mapuno. Then along the way, I ask him if this is the same place yesterday, so yes daw. Then told him because I remember the Gumamela, "gusto ko kase pumitas kahapon" then he suddenly stops where there is another gumamela, but red (peach kase tinuro ko) he pick one and gave it to me. Like, gagi ang sweet. Then may sumigaw pa on the car na ang sweet daw. So, it was really a day. And I'm so shookt.

I wanted him so bad. I wanted his fingers running through my skin. I wanted his voice wisphering my name. I wanted his lips, his eyes, his hair. I wanted him just like how the ocean wants the shore, constantly running back and forth. I wanted him the way the moon wants to hide, the way the sun wants to rise. I wanted him the way the rain wants to fall. I wanted him to infinity and beyond, to the nth degree. I wanted him and nothing could ever kill the fire I had for him.

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AGHAST 01.08.19

It was all bright before it gets dim

She was alone before he gets in

It was all right before it gets wrong

And it was happy before it became a sad song

She was whole but now she’s broken

How this memory will be forgotten?

Tears fall as she reminisce the past

Now her mind is full of aghast

Why does destiny let it be?

Meeting you and me

I love will never last,

Why do I have to fall in love?

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01.08.19

She knows it will never last

Not knowing it will end this fast

She knows it was bad

Never thought it will be this sad

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GAGO SYA

That is true, I knew it from the very start. Yet, I let him kiss me, I let him hug me, I let him caress me, I let my heart falls deeply, despite of him being a gago, I still care for him. And then ginago nya ko (nagpagago naman ako), he hurts me emotionally, mentally. I’m in pain. Still, I thank all these pains and all these hurts because it makes me realize how unworthy is he.

And he don’t…

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He's Sorry 08.21.18

We've been on a fight, not a fight- fight but rather bwisitan/ iniasan/ sungitan/ selosan (like inaakbayan nya and kiss sa head yung malanding M.A.), for 2 days. And now wala yung malanding M.A. Whenever I walk sa labas he's looking at me in the eyes and so I am, but no emotions involve. Then lunch time, I volunteer to buy the food so I can pick my ulam, asked him gano kadaming ulam, then bahala daw ako, nung pabalik na ko sa office he's there near the door, blocking my way, he hugged me, softly, seems legit and no lust, then he whispered "sorry". Ghad, it seem genuine, kala mo totoo and bukal sa puso yung "sorry". Then they eat while I'm encoding, ayawko sumabay sa kanila. After them I eat, then mag isa ko sa office he entered and kiss me, saglitan lang but not smacked kiss kase I have rice pa on my mouth, and twice, I want to touch his body while kissing. Really. And I want him to touch mine too. Then hapon sa labas, nagpakiss sya, I kissed him, I want morr kisses kaso nasa labas kame, he's sitting on the chair near their table. Then hapon again, he smacked kiss me while I was on a phone call. I want more kisses na matagal, but wala kameng time alone.