hello darkness, my old friend

'96

[starlightacademia]

“It's taboo to admit that you're lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven't left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you're not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are. A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn't transition well to adult life, that you'd fall right through the cracks. And look at you now, it's happening.”

[1anonyymous1]

tell me about your day, i care

[vexeia]

[darknightofthescorp]

[sexanax]

not to be sof but i love being held and called baby

[goldpixy-deactivated20230510]

just found out my entire personality is a trauma response

[fromhersoul]

[torukou]

[wishing-for-deathx]

I’m lying in a corner in a pool of my tears and I can see everyone moving on. And here I am, still in agony over wounds that should have stopped hurting a long time back.

— I don’t know how to heal

[spacelesbians-archive-deactivat]

[heyoh-s]

I grew up believing that I was hard to love — and that any sort of kindness was lost on someone like me.

[cosmicvngel]

[thealfaguy]

So damn peaceful when nobody knows shit

[siickangel]

“you’re so quiet” i’m dissociating and ive lost connection with reality

[smokeinsilence]

have you ever noticed you pick up little habits and phrases from the people you love? it’s no wonder our hearts are so easily broken when people leave. we become a reflection of the people that we care about and those personality traits stick with us even if the people don’t

[mahalkongluna]

Happiest Birthday to this beautiful soul!! 🥺🥰

Idk if makikita mo ‘tong post na ‘to, but i hope so hahaha.

Gusto ko lang sabihin na sobrang proud na proud na proud ako sa’yo, for what have you become. 🥰

Ang dami ko gusto sabihin, pero dahil birthday mo gusto ko lang maging happy ka. Yan ung palagi kong wish sa’yo simula palang.

But first, hayaan mo muna akong humingi ng sorry sa’yo. I’m sincerely sorry, chiee, sa mga times na nawala ako/wala ako. Sa mga times na hindi kita nadadamayan. Sa mga times na kelangan mo ng kaibigan o ng taong makikinig sa’yo. I’m sorry.. Pero sana palagi mong tatandaan na sa mga times na naging distant ako, hindi nagbago ung tingin ko sa’yo, ikaw pa rin ung Anchie na nakilala ko from the start. Di man tayo tulad na ng dati, pero di nawawala o nabago ung love ko for you. God knows how much you mean to me. Ikaw ung nagturo sakin noon maging strong eh, you’re one of the reason why I’m still here. Di man ako palaging nasa tabi mo, pero I’m always cheering you from afar. I’m always praying for your happiness and serenity, because that is what you really deserve.

Thank you for being so understanding. Thank you for choosing kindness and happiness. Thank you for being you. You’re such a blessing to us. I’m thankful for you, riel & leo. Sobrang binless ako ni Lord dahil binigyan nya ako ng mga kaibigan na tulad nyo, at di lang basta kaibigan tinuturing ko na kayong mga kapatid ko. Iba-iba man ung naging battles natin, iba-iba din ung naging pagcope up natin sa mga struggles natin, pero alam kong iisa lang naman ung goal natin. Thankful ako dahil di man palaging present ung isa, napupunan naman nung isa ung kelangan nung isa. Gets mo ‘ko dun? Hehe. And sa times na magkakasama tayo, sobrang solid lang. Alam kong buo tayo. Eto ✊🏼 tayo.

Ako pa rin ‘to chie, ung banghalu na nakilala mo. Di man ako palaging nasa chatbox mo o sa messages mo, pero I’m a silent fan here, no. 1 haha. Kung gaano mo kamahal ang BTS, ganun kita kamahal. Kung gaano mo sila chini-cheer, ganun kita chini-cheer from afar. Nakikita lang kita na nakangiti, happy and okay na ako for you. Sometime’s that’s all we need. Sometimes, okay is enough.

Nabasa ko lang sa isang catalog:

“Sometimes it’s okay to face your own fears and learn everything about yourself including the hard things, the things you’re not proud of, the unflattering truths that you hide from everyone. Sometimes you need to be alone with the universe so you can learn how to be your own universe.” —Alam kong gets mo ko dito. Sobrang pinagmamalaki ko ung self-growth natin, keep going! 🤗

Mahal na mahal kita, chie. Di ako magaling sa explanation (magaling lang ako magdrama lol) pero sana nakuha mo ung meaning ng message ko. I hope to see you real soon & the GALA fam! Have fun today, and the day after this, and everyday, okay? Okay!! Hehe *mahigpit na yakaaaap* 💛💛💛 @okayisenough

[aidashakur]

Forgiving people in silence and never speaking to them again is a form of self care.