[olddiaryofnyxx]

This user is suffering from inferiority complex.

[olddiaryofnyxx]

I feel like doing nothing— just lying down, crying, and sleeping ♡

But another part of me wants to lose weight, dress up, do my makeup, and live like a main character. I want to dance, sing, delete all my social media, disappear, and never return. And yet, I also feel like doing nothing at all!!

[olddiaryofnyxx]

Sometimes

I wish to vanish even from myself

[thememedaddy]

[altrvisticsoul]

The hardest part about practicing Islam isn't prayer or fasting or hijab, it's perfecting your character, it's trying not to speak ill of someone, it's controlling your anger, it's making sure you aren't accidentally hurting someone.

[arcane-ersana]

I have a love-hate relationship with my curly hair.

[olddiaryofnyxx]

With my wavy hair.

[olddiaryofnyxx]

Someone said, "My eyes are beautiful." But sadly, it was a girl who said it.

[olddiaryofnyxx]

It's not just that I'm a brave and fearless girl.

There's a heart-wrenching story hidden behind these melancholic-sad and cold eyes..

[olddiaryofnyxx]

They say: "Don't be so dramatic, you have a better life, shelter, and food."

Bro, do they know how miserable my life is? No, they don't even know 0.1% of my life. I swear, if someone else were in my place, they wouldn't have survived. But I did and i'm proud of that.

[olddiaryofnyxx]

Who am I? A human or a monster?

A creature of light or a creature of darkness?

Who am I? A human or a monster..

I search for answers,

But they seem out of reach,

As if my soul isn't in my body,

But beyond my reach..

Who am I?

My soul isn't in my body,

I feel detached,

Like an observer of my own story.

I ask myself,

Who am I,

And what do I want?

What is the purpose of this life that I've been given to haunt?

I try to understand the path that lies ahead,

But the fog is thick,

And my thoughts are a thread.

I search for peace,

For a way to find my place,

In a world that's ever-changing,

Where nothing seems to stay in place.

I look within myself,

To the depths of my soul,

But the mirror reflects back a stranger, a hole.

I look in the mirror,

But what do I see?

A reflection that's not quite me.

I'm searching for something,

But what is it?

A sense of purpose, A place to fit.

I try to make sense of the fragments of my being,

But the pieces don't fit,

And the puzzle's deceiving.

Maybe it's in the journey,

In the twists and turns around.

Who am I?

A question that haunts me day and night,

A quest for understanding,

A search for light..

"Who I am?" by –Nyx

–Artist credit @disproportionatelysculpting thanks my SHUBHCHINTAK.

[olddiaryofnyxx]

😄I'm alright 👍🏻

[olddiaryofnyxx]

Thanks 🫂

[olddiaryofnyxx]

Ek normal life to mai bhi deserve krti hun.

[olddiaryofnyxx]

You were in my dream last night,

I found myself in a moonlit garden

With roses and twinkling lights all around.

I saw you approaching me,

With a gentle smile,

And your hands reached out to hold my face.

Our eyes met, filled with longing and affection.

Time stood still as you leaned in

And kissed me softly

It was a mix of desire and tenderness,

Overwhelming my senses

Our bodies moved together in perfect harmony,

As if our hearts beat in sync

Every touch and caress

Spoke volumes about the love we shared,

Even though it was unspoken.

Our souls intertwined and we danced among the stars.

It felt like we had created our own universe,

Where nothing else mattered except the deep bond we had.

It was a love so profound and captivating.

When I woke up, the taste of your kiss

Still lingered on my lips.

I couldn't help but smile,

wondering who you are.

Do we know each other?

Why can't I remember your face?

"Who are you?" –Nyx

[olddiaryofnyxx]

In the realm of my mind,

Where reality alloys,

Footsteps echo, Haunting,

As darkness descends..

Every sound, imagined or real,

Sets my heart on fire,

A sudden reflex, a jumpscare,

In this bewildering maze.

I yearn for a haven,

A sanctuary to call my own,

A safe place,

Where tranquility is gently sown.

I cannot bear to live in this state of dread,

I can't go on living like this,

In constant distress,

The world a minefield, each step a risk,

I yearn for peace,

For a haven to call my own,

Where I can heal,

Where I can find peace.

Oh,

How I crave a moment of tranquility,

To lay down my burdens,

To quiet the storm,

A sanctuary where I can breathe freely,

And let my weary spirit transform..

(Whispers in the Shadows) –Nyx

[olddiaryofnyxx]

–can you catch a glimpse of the mesmerizing moon??? 😶‍🌫️☁️👀

[olddiaryofnyxx]

HIIII HOW ARE YOU I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU IN MY DASH FOR A WHILE

Hi mate, Idk how I am, maybe I'm a bit messed up, haha..🥲yuss I've been away from Tumblr for the past week (due to some personal reasons) or you can say I've been playing hide and seek lol😅

How r u???