SoĀ āpromiseā was originally a song where Jimin scolded himself for not being honest with himself. The lyrics were so dark that they were close to Jimin literally cursing himself through a song. I, for one would have been absolutely devastated if his first solo was him degrading himself in his own eyes.Ā
The fact that promise went from being a song where he blames himself for his hardships to a song where he said, you know what? Iāll pick myself up and Iāll be my own light. Iāll make a promise to myself that I wonāt let myself and my head bring me down.
Ā Iāll be a better me, FOR myself, BY myself.
This is honestly so so Jimin itās actually fascinating. He never showed even the slightest signs of discomfort or pain during the time he was going through whatever it was that he struggled with and when he was ready, he took something that was his suffering and turned it into something so beautiful to help not only himself but everyone else as well.
You get me? Hiding all the suffering and coming out being this stronger, prouder version of himself? Itās his personality, it is what he is; He will never show anything that bothers him and will always reflect genuine love, happiness and affection in whatever he does. Itās just his being, who he is; Itās what Park Jimin is about.
Throwing everything that hurts under a rug and showing only the best of him to us. What we see is always what he wants us to see. A stronger prouder version of himself is what he gives us and what he so easily hides is all the suffering that came along to the journey to this version
I donāt know if you understood what I meant by this, I hope yāall did. Itās just, he works so much to hide his pain and just puts out the happier version he would want us to see and believe in. He embodies affection in so many ways it hurts me to think that there are people out there who think of him as anything less than a gift from the heavens that we clearly donāt deserve.
Also, he kept mentioning that he keeps ālyingā to himself about his condition and wonders why he doesnāt rest when he knows heās had enough. He wonders why he keeps ālyingā to his own self about how much he can take. If this is what his wings solo āLieā was about, just imagine the years this boy has spent suffering because of his own damn self and all by himself. He lies to himself.
When he says āItās endless even if I try to run. Free me from this hell. I canāt escape this suffering, Save me who is being punishedā Itās Jimin himself who is putting him through all of this suffering and if that doesnāt absolutely break you then I donāt know man.
Honestly, all I can ever pray for is for Jimin to love himself.
All I hope for is for him to realise that everything he is, is enough.
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