Le Kath's Diary

kathrine rae | eighteen | Bachelor of Science in Accountancy | Kathrine is an amateur photographer, a dreamer, and an aspiring artist wandering the boundaries of the Pearl of the Orient Seas. Aside from being a financial executive, she’s just a normal kid who wishes to put a name for herself someday. Enjoying the sea breeze of the Pink Ocean. She's somehow flexible to everything as long as it meets her capacity of doing. She always seeks for adventure.

[onkat]

She locked herself away didn't give anyone a key she didn't even say goodbye and was swallowed by the sea

[onkat]

City of Dreams #Macau #Venetian #GondolaRide

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[onkat]

CRAZY PEOPLE #friends HI CA! Hahahahaha

[onkat]

So playful #puppy #keshaISPanget #lol #love

[onkat]

Just choose. #lol #faces #expression #mood #me #onkat

[onkat]

Number 1 fans are here ^O^ #mama #zumba (at Robinsons Place Tacloban Annex)

[onkat]

[psych-facts]

A strong friendship doesn’t need daily conversation or being together. As long as the relationship lives in the heart, true friends never part.

[onkat]

My window's peak friend

I walk down by the aisle with my face full of happiness as the edges of my mouth touch my ears. I'm a happy-go-lucky person as everyone says. I do collect friends and have an unending conversations with them. I'm always happy and is always happy. If you see me smile, you'll probably consider me as a good person, well I always am. I'm rather the mood maker of the atmosphere when something's weird going on. I do joke around with my friends but due to language barrier, I always end up in an awkward situation but I just laugh about it. I'm the best friend everyone can have.  I do lack self-confidence like those of chubby persons. Actually, I'm so good in dancing but can't express through it cause of my low esteem. I'm just an average student that well, have average scores and relentless removals. I did think of giving up cause of my limited knowledge but I'm all tied up with some situations I cannot ever escape. I'm actually a cry baby that easily cries over simple things and I can't control my tears to just flow easily. Well, it's not actually just because of my physique, but rather cause of my dramatic past.

I'm really a happy person and the friend of everyone but when the time you cross the boundaries, you'll see how that widow's peak of mine actually works.

[onkat]

My mysterious friend

I love to stalk and scroll to my past. I tend to forget my embarrassing and stupid moments yet instances of such never left me behind. They seemed to walk with me when I see him infront of my eyes. I always wonder how stupid I am during those days yet that was the happiest. I do believe in destiny and really believe in destiny. If you and I are meant to be, I can still wait if it means forever liking. I have a thick mask that covers my inner self to the people around. Though I'm that close with everyone, I don't lay all my cards infront of them. I do keep something for my own because they will never understand and no one will ever will. I'm such a coward regardless of my talents. I always tell myself that I ain't good enough to show others what I got. I'm actually above average than others but I hate when they compliment me for such. Yes, I'm actually a weird person when you and I get close enough. I tend to forget things easily and pretend the next day that none of it ever happened. I'm usually not a type of friend you'll like at first glance cause of my physical appearance but when you get a chance to know me better, you'll see a rainbow that shines colorfully during the day. I ain't that pretty unlike those girls with handful of fashionable clothing but don't you dare underestimate me cause I can actually do better. I can learn new things in just a small span of time, it's just I'm quite a lazy person sticking out my eyeballs infront of my computer.

I will never unveil everything to someone cause I know someday, they will betray me like what others did to me.

[onkat]

Still the same

She stopped for awhile with all the words from a friend's mouth blurted out of nowhere. This is bad. Just bad. Hearing that evil word somehow wounded her. This isn't good. This isn't her. She tried to ponder and yes something's wrong. All this time, all this time. She ran as fast as she could that she could no longer see a ray of light from a far that reveals a single identity of herself. She always do things that hurt others. This isn't good. She must stop. She must change. She must disappear. She fell into her knees with all the despair and agony ranging through her eyes. With her hoarse voice, she screamed loudly that would empty what's inside. No matter how hard she wants to change. She's still the same. Still the same.

[onkat]

My hot baby ♥

[onkat]

Well

I was overwhelmed by the surprise my friends prepared for me. I was in the depth of excitement that I don't already know what to react or so. I saw you leaning on the wall and something went inside my mind. Since I was too happy that time, I even made an eye contact expecting a greeting from you. As I took steps forward, everything seemed so predictable. You know this day, I mean you probably know somehow. Yet, it didn't not happen. You gave me a two-eyebrows response as you usually do and that smile that eeeesssh I actually hate. Nothing more, nothing less, it's just, it was something that I'm so ashamed to tell my friends and to remind myself that awkward feeling I had during my day. Yet again, that scenario is like a pirated dvd that keeps repeating in my mind again and again that makes me wonder, Why the hell I'm still like this?

[onkat]

Omo OPPA! 

[onkat]

Kiss me with those lips baby <3

[onkat]

How is it different?

It has been almost 3 years since the day I completely faced my new environment and new colleagues. I admitted that those years have been included on my most memorable events contributed to my youthfulness. Yet again, I felt so happy that I don’t know if I was really happy. Am I happy being myself with them or was I just acting to be one? Back in the days, being with my friends, I do worry nothing. I don’t feel lonely if a close friend isn’t talking to me at all, I don’t worry if someone gets angry at me cause of my simple jokes, I don’t worry if this person isn’t sitting beside me or so, I don’t worry much about them, I don’t feel so jealous over such things. Bottom line is during those times I don’t feel lonely. If someone faces their back at me, a single poke can mend the bond. A topic of two becomes a topic of all. In fact, it’s actually tiresome to fake a smile.

I know it would be too much to ask from God but I do hope I’ll change. Change to be a better me. Something or someone that would push me to do so. I don’t want to be so passionate that cares so much that makes me hurt and disappointed unknowingly. I tried yet it lost me there again.

I really hope there would be this someone who can understand the  real me. Sometimes dramatic, sometimes sweet and full time childish.

Lord, I just need ONE FRIEND.