Only Onsra

Onsra: The bitter sweet feeling that something won’t last.

[onlyonsra]

“Love somebody”

“She had red hair and star freckles. she made every meal with love and I don’t think she knew what anger was.

[onlyonsra]

I’m mad at you

For breaking the one promise I was expecting you to keep

However the promise of forever is a temptation too tantalizingly for any human to turn down

And not plausible for any mortal to keep up.

You broke the promise the one I knew was the one promise that you couldn’t keep but the promise I wanted you most to keep;

A promise of Forever.

[onlyonsra]

“You made a liar out of me”

[onlyonsra]

I wonder if I’m a violent person. If all of my fits of anger that slip through the thick layer of charade are my truth shining through. My every impulsive thought is my gut showing my true want. Whenever I think to hard and all I want is to hurt. I wonder if that’s the real me. Is it the real me or is the result of all of my negative aspects of myself pushed into a tiny box breaking free ?

[onlyonsra]

2024/10/17

“I love you”

I don’t like to say. It feels uncomfortable when I say it like the words don’t fit in my mouth and they were never meant to.

[onlyonsra]

Archive of my mind

Thoughts of you no longer envoke

No more tears to cry while I lay woke

I miss your mere back that I’d stand on to be taller

It’s odd that I chose you when your list of prospects was when compared to the next much smaller

I thank you for your original dissertation

However my reply did not get past your defence registration

My comprehension is you’ve yet to heal from your last affliction that originated from your actions

Yet, I relent, as i am still injured myself but my cognizance allow my attempts of improvement some traction

First time failed

Second time, same result; we bailed

I believe there’s a say about fouls for this type of thing

But thanks for teaching me poetry and making me a paper ring

If I had to say I gained more than those valuables I’ll say I found out what to avoid.

Listen to his actions the first time because the promise to better next time will void

I hope you enjoy using me as a learning curve to another class you refuse to attend

But this is all I have to say or write to you due to the face that I don’t enjoy shoving salt into a wound I’m trying to tend

from now till evermore I recall my energy, my mind, my thoughts and my attention

But in next April and your name gets mentioned

I might ask once my clarity is unclear

Same time next year?

[onlyonsra]

2024/10/16

“Is it really that horrible to have your heart broken when you get to love someone?”

-onsra

[onlyonsra]

2024/10/17

My poetic mind

“Maybe it’s just me and my poetic mind but for the chance to love someone even for a second I’d bleed myself dry a hundred times over again. And before the coppery taste can fill my mouth I’d let myself remember the sweet overwhelming taste of romance that fed my soul.”

-onsra

[onlyonsra]

2024/10/15

The whole in your chest

fill that hole in your chest with anything other than eros and pragma and you will watch your chest cave deep with the desire of forever

[onlyonsra]

2024/10/14

“I like it when I plague your mind and I like it when you hate it”

-onsra

[onlyonsra]

2024/10/9

Do you want a small bowl of pomegranates?

Or do you want a small amount of pomegranates in a bowl?

Because a small bowl of pomegranates is still and entire pomegranate.

[onlyonsra]

2024/10/17

Your name is poetry to me.

[onlyonsra]

2025/4/27

I didn’t want to tell me mom in case we got back together

I told her today

[onlyonsra]

The answer is always

“You already know”

[onlyonsra]

2024/10/4

“My soft spot for you is like a bruise on a rotten apple”

-onsra

[onlyonsra]

2025/5/1

“Now that I’m not loving you I’ve found so many other things that I love”

-onsra

[onlyonsra]

Little does he know she felt dirty after that…

Like dirt was cleaner than her.