Just a bunch of beautiful dummies

Who even knows anymore?

[fuckrozanov]

i have MANY uncouth things to say

[bloominflowers]

a centaurs appreciation post bc I love these characters and this team with all my heart 💗

[hauntedyke]

quick doodle of these 2 from their red carpet lookz

[russianblush]

me @ my mutuals

[cumslutshane]

the magnetic pull of always needing to hold the other's hand!!!

[waldemarstr]

Have we considered that between Ilya Slavanov and Mr. Autism 3000 this is probably how they look to the outside world even when they're as happy as can be 😭

[bluegiragi]

long distance selfies

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[sailyourshipsaroundme]

"'We could only have one child,'' David said quietly. "We thought about adopting, but we decided in the end to just focus on making Shane the best person we could. I think we did an okay job of it.

Ilya smiled at the understatement.

"We couldn't be prouder of the man he's become,' David continued. "I don't have any Stanley Cup rings, but I have Shane.''

Chapter 39, The Long Game

....

It's Christmas of 1988.

There's one more present under the tree, and Yuna's eyes are dancing as she hands it to David. He opens it to find the tiniest pair of shoes he's ever seen.

"No. Really?" He's dizzy.

"Really," Yuna grins, and her eyes are shining with tears, and David loves that face more than anything. He hopes their baby looks just like her.

.....

It's a bitterly cold day in February of 1989 when David puts the shoes away. He pushes down all the anger of it's not fair, why us, why our baby. Yuna needs him.

The doctor had said you're young, you can try again.

.....

In the spring of 1990 the flowers are blooming to life and Yuna's belly is starting to look rounder. David looks around the empty bedroom in their Ottawa house and thinks green might be nice, something that works for a boy or a girl, a nice cheerful shade. Next week he'll buy the paint.

The call from the hospital comes before he gets the chance. When he looks at the doctor's scrubs he thinks green is the ugliest colour on earth.

.....

They don't talk about it. Not when the leaves are changing colour and the nurse offers them congratulations. Not at Christmas or New Year's as they turn the calendar over to 1991. It's Valentines Day before David gets the courage to touch the rounded swell of his wife's body and he cries when whoever is inside touches him back. It doesn't matter that they don't have a name or a face yet, he loves them so much it hurts.

.....

On a Friday morning in May, David holds his son for the first time. His face is scrunched and blotchy red and angry. He's the most perfect thing anyone has ever laid eyes on.

He watches Yuna sing and rock him near the nursery window at home, her face glowing. He thinks the yellow paint was definitely the right choice for their sunshine, their only sunshine.

.....

Shane is a chubby baby (they laugh themselves sick when the baby shoes don't even fit on his fat little biscuit feet) but by the time he turns two he has leaned out into a little boy, they think maybe they are ready to try again. David imagines a girl this time, introducing Shane to his baby sister. Melissa sounds pretty. The baby name book had said it meant honeybee and doesn't that just fit perfectly amidst sunshine and flowers and springtime?

.....

It never happens.

Shane is an only child at four and five and six and he's becoming something special on the ice, all the coaches say so. David thinks that they have no idea what they're talking about when they say that because Shane Hollander has always been special from the time he kicked and rolled inside his mother, before he ever knew what cold was.

If he's all they get, they will make sure he knows he is everything.

.....

Sometimes David wants to take Shane by the shoulders and apologize to him for making him think he has to be everything. You don't have to try so hard to be perfect for us, he wants to say. You're perfect to us because you're you, you're ours, don't you know how we prayed and hoped and waited just for you to exist, don't you know that's enough?

Much, much later as he waves to him (to them) in late evening sunshine, he sees Shane relax behind the windshield with a loving hand on the back of his neck. David feels something inside of him loosen.

.....

On Shane’s wedding day, David embraces both his sons and dances with his wife and my god, if this is all he ever gets in life, no man has ever been so lucky.

.....

"Are you ready?" Shane is smiling and his eyes are shiny. Ilya looks much the same.

David is dizzy. But he nods and holds his hands out. Shane places the baby in his arms and oh, she's so tiny. He forgot how tiny they start out.

Her little knit hat is yellow.

"Hey there, honeybee," he murmurs, and his voice is foggy with unshed tears. "I'm your grandpa."

[finelytaylored]

you can see the heart eyes from behind the sunglasses I can’t handle this 😭

[shilyas]

condo stairway scene gets me every single time bc of the way ilya lingers. the way he takes way too long to tie his shoes & adjust his jeans, the way he stands for a moment even though his cab is definitely there & the way he teases shane as he slowly lowers himself to give the sweetest, most unhurried kiss goodbye.

[myshippinglove]

This edit is so funny. Poor Ilya was going through it 😆

©️ in video

[elisaholies]

12 HR fic recs

unfair advantage | 1.6K | Ilya leans forward in his chair, deliberately, to put his mouth right next to the microphone. “Oh wow,” Ilya says brightly. His Russian accent is thicker than usual. “Drapeau must be trying so hard to seduce me. But I am sorry, I am already taken. A one man man, I am.” | Great characterisation, perfect Ilya voice. And this fic contains the best Ilya-chirps-Scott-Hunter line ever.

we could get better mileage by @twinkwolf | 6.9K | "Have you ever gotten someone pregnant?" | This fic discusses abortion and there's a pretty graphic description, FYI. If you can stomach this, it's such a fantastic story. A great exploration of Shane and his feelings towards the idea of parenthood. And a lovely portrayal of Shane and Jackie's friendship, which is something I'm a sucker for. It also features some smoking hot sex scene and also a really believable, grown-up version of Ilya and Shane. Highly recommended.

A Friend of the Family by @twicesonnet| 11.9K | Two months after Jackie lets the backyard fire pit fall over and just stands there letting it burn, Hayden has a boys trip. Arrangements are made. Enter: Svetlana Vetrova, daughter of the famous Soviet goaltender, and Ilya Rosanov’s best friend.| This is the best Jackie character study I've seen so far. Jackie here is a real person, much more than the magical being who does emotional labour for Hayden in most stories. And I love how open-ended this is.

I know that I feel it, but I don't know the name | 12K | David Hollander gets in a car accident while Shane and Yuna are travelling. Ilya, newly traded to Ottawa, is the only one available. He handles it pretty well. Until he doesn't.| David is in an accident. Ilya in this one almost broke me. It gave me all the feels.

Image Management by @409-conflict and ritualist| 9K | During his rookie year, Shane goes to a Halloween party at a Montreal gay bar to confirm some suspicions about himself. Unfortunately, it’s 2010, so the official photographer uploads a few hundred photos to the bar’s Facebook page.| Great use of socmed. And I just love how 409_conflict writes Yuna. Also, this is possibly the only time I've ever felt something resembling a positive feeling towards Grigori Rozanov? The power of transformative works!

tender by @barkerandlovelace| 18.3K | Ilya had dismissed the feeling out of hand, except he has now just spent half an hour in the bicycle shop considering the difference between 190 gsm and 250 gsm merino wool and which would best keep Shane warm while wicking sweat during his morning commutes. This is yet another thing Ilya has never done before. The only person whose sweat he has ever contemplated the wicking of has been himself.| Amazing full AU. AMAZING. Ilya is still a hockey player. Shane has a government job. They meet after Ilya retires. The perfect mix of fluffy/funny/tender with stellar characterisation.Imo, it's on a par with the AUs by magneticwave and Vera Dragon, I can't think of any higher praise than this.

think twice (and come back for a third time) | 70k | Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost. A stranger, and the love of his life.| Canon divergence. Ilya and Shane breakup and never get back together. Very angsty. Well-written, good characterisation. Lovely Yuna/Ilya.

big things happen every time we meet BY @trippedlaces| 14.5k | Halfway through Shane and Ilya’s first season playing together in Ottawa, an online sports betting company figures out how to make itself the main character when it comes to social media’s new favorite topic.| Extremely funny, good use of socmed. Great characterisation too, especially Shane, who comes off as suitably hockey-obsessed. :D

too busy making my own waves by @themardia| 4.4K | In Hayden’s defense, JJ’s new habit of dropping chirps that sound like they’ve come straight out of Shakespeare just seems like another round of JJ being his usual weird, over the top self. And hey, if he wants to call the opposing team a bunch of “malicious gnomes” or “mud-licking wretches”, he can have at it. (After Scott Hunter coming out last season, everyone's making some adjustments.)| A much kinder look at JJ than canon, and it totally works. Love him and Hayden trying to be better human beings because they love Shane.

Untouchable Face by @zenaidamacrouras1 | 76k | Shane was twelve when hockey scouts started showing up to his games. He was barely fifteen when a check went horribly wrong, fucked his knee to hell and gave him a grade III concussion. During rehab he found swimming, and he was seventeen when he went to the Olympics as an alternate for freestyle swim events. He’s 24 and working for his mom’s sports PR company when he meets Ilya Fucking Rozanov. May contain: Shane Hollander navigating what it means to be mostly normal when your whole childhood was about preparing you for greatness. Shane Hollander attempting to flirt. Possibly less than 100% accurate descriptions of what a sports PR agent does.| I'm extremely picky about AUs where Shane is not a hockey player but this one totally worked for me. Extremely cute.

the intricate brocade of this happiness by @always-waxing-crescent| 10K | But Ilya shakes his head, absolutely mute. There’s no universe, no universe where he can talk about this. He moved to America to forget. | A brutal look at Ilya's childhood and the new phase of his life after the Cottage. Yuna isn't immediately enamoured with him and I love this characterisation. Interesting exploration of his relationship with Alexei too.

the suicidal duckling | 9.7K | Ilya had thought it was dumb, when Galina suggested it. A code word for when his mental health was bad—he and Shane didn’t even have a code word for sex, and Ilya was regularly tying Shane to the bed and slapping his ass until it was as red as a tomato. “Is there a reason you’re calling me?” Shane asks now, voice echoey over the phone. “Or is this part of your strategy to win our argument?” Ilya swallows hard. “Constantinople,” he says.| I love it when fic show Ilya and Shane fighting, in a believable way. As someone who's been in a relationship with the same person for 20 years, sometimes I like some reality in my romantic escapism. I also like it when fic focuses on Ilya's depression. This story has both and they're both excellent!

[hollanovarchive]

do you have any fic recs of hayden finding out about shane and ilyas relationship?

Yes, I have it below. I also have my rec list of "Getting Outed" that I'll be posting soon (:

Hayden Finds Out

🏒 snooping, sexting, and regretting | 2.4k

In which Hayden snoops through Shane's notifications and misinterprets every text.

🏒 Hayden Pike (the idiot) finds out through his wife Jackie (the smart one) | 2.5k

Two things align succinctly in Hayden’s mind. Boston Lily is a hockey fan. Boston Lily is into some freaky hockey related role play.

🏒 For Emergency Use Only | 2.5k

Hayden stole Lily’s number from Shane’s phone, just in case of emergency. He never ended up needed it, but turns out just having it in his phone changed everything he thought he knew about his best friend

🏒 proof of life | 2.5k

So when Hayden walked back into the kitchen, mouth agape and with what can only be described as a concerned glare, holding a Boston Raiders sweatshirt with a large ROZANOV 81 printed on the back, Shane really, really did not want to lie anymore.

🏒 Semantics | 2.8k

Pike calls Lily after Shane's concussion, full of restless panic and a complicated sense of responsibility at being the only one who knows about their relationship.

🏒 Misadventures in Making Friends | 3.0k

Hayden and JJ find out, but are like, cool about it.

🏒 the one where Hayden finds out | 3.0k

three times Shane almost let it show that he was in a relationship with Ilya and one time Hayden connected the dots.

🏒 Hayden Pike Is An Idiot | 3.6k

Hayden stared at the messages, the only thought going through his mind was Shane’s gonna get beaten up by Lily’s husband.

🏒 You Have Reached Lily | 3.7k

Hayden calls Lily after Shane’s injury

🏒 call it what you want | 3.8k

Hayden is pretty sure Shane won't mind if he drunkenly sneaks into his apartment at 2 am to crash on his couch. But when the voice that wakes him up at 7 am the next morning belongs to Ilya Rozanov... He realizes that maybe he didn't think this one through.

🏒 call it what you want | 3.8k

Hayden finds out.

🏒 Ilya F*cking Rozanov, of All People? | 4.0k

🔒 Hayden overhears Shane's phone call in the stairwell. Ilya f*cking Rozanov? Of all people, Shane was in love with Ilya Rozanov? Wtf?

🏒 I'd like to buy a vowel |4.3k

Hayden figures out who Boston Lily is thanks to three little letters on a Valentine's Day card

🏒 i pay attention to things that most people ignore | 4.6k

🔒 Hayden Pike is a lot smarter than people give him credit for. Shane Hollander is his best friend, of course he notices when he's hiding something. Of course he notices that he's been secretly seeing Ilya Rozanov this Entire Time.

🏒 learn my secrets (figure out why i'm guarded) | 4.7k

🔒 Hayden Pike finds out about Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

🏒 Hayden Pike's Terrible, No Good, Very Bad Day | 4.7k

Hayden Pike finds out that Shane and Ilya are together in the hospital after Shane gets hit by Marlow and he has many feelingsTM about it being Ilya.

🏒 Maybe a Good Change? | 4.7k

Shane is bad at adjusting to unexpected changes and Hayden is a good friend. A fix-it fic for Episode 4.

🏒 Hayden Gets The Message | 4.9k

Hayden starts to put the pieces together and figures things out much sooner than expected.

🏒 your pace | 5.3k

They have been through a lot together, over the years. Hayden loves him, he is his best friend, his favorite teammate. Hayden had thought aside from Shane’s parents, he was the person that knew Shane the best. But now Hayden is wondering if he knows Shane at all. Because the last thing Hayden had ever expected when he knocked on Shane Hollanders apartment door was to see Ilya fucking Rozanov open it.

🏒 Pike Children to the Rescue | 5.4k

Hayden thinks Shane is having a panic attack during their phone call while Ilya is blowing him, and proceeds to drag his children to the cottage to surprise Shane, only to find Ilya Rozanov is already there. Hayden finds out about them, and has to reconcile his hate for Ilya with his affinity for his best friend

🏒 Jackie is Always Right | 5.5k

5 moments where Jackie Pike figures out the mystery of who Boston Lily is on her own while Hayden is completely oblivious. Of course, she has to fill him in.

🏒 I Need His Number | 5.7k

Another Hayden finds out fic, but this time it’s because Shane gives Hayden Ilya’s number and he discovers that it’s the same as Lily’s.

🏒 Hayden Pike Gets a Clue | 6.0k

Set during Ilya’s last year in Boston. Five times Hayden stays clueless and one time he figures it out

🏒 Caught up in a Blissful Feeling | 6.5k

“You can prove it? What, that Rozanov is your Boston girl?” Shane nods, and Hayden looks at him with disbelief. “Go ahead, then. Prove it.” He gestures at Shane, urging him to do so.

🏒 Hayden Finds Out | 6.5k

It’s the first year after the cottage when Ilya and Shane finally made it official. Shane’s parents now know about the pair and have been nothing but supportive. Will Shane’s best friend, Hayden Pike, react the same way? Hayden hates Ilya Rozanov, and he certainly doesn’t expect what happens when Shane spirals into a panic and needs his Lily.

🏒 That was unexpectedly mature of Hayden | 7.4k

all the missing scenes of how Hayden actually found out

🏒 World's End | 9.5k

Hayden was pretty suspicious of whatever the fuck had been going on with Boston Lily after the complete meltdown and ensuing relationship Shane had with Rose Landry. So, when it became apparent that things were back on with Lily, he decides to do some investigation of his own

🏒 all-stars weekend, 2017 | 10.1k

Hayden is invited to his first All-Stars game in 2017 and he is very excited to go. As he gets to know the All-Stars from the other teams, makes fast friends with Carter Vaughn and even admits that Boston is kind of good, he also accidentally discovers that Shane is in a relationship. With Ilya Rozanov

🏒 Best Guess | 10.3k

Hayden slowly figures out who Boston Lily is, with Jackie's help.

🏒 Centaur of Attention | 10.6k

The missing scene before TLG where Ilya gets traded to Ottawa, and Hayden starts to get suspicious.

🏒 cheater-cheater, pumpkin eater | 13.2k

Hayden’s almost positive Shane is cheating on Boston Lily with Ilya Rozanov

🏒 Brotherhood of Hockey Secret Keepers | WIP

Hayden Pike found out who Boston Lily was through a mishap of his own making, in Boston, 2014. Cliff Marlow figured out the truth behind Montreal Jane through the power of friendship and vodka, in Montreal, 2015.

🏒 Haydenov Phone Swap Series

After a mix-up leaves Hayden with the wrong phone for three days, he ends up learning more about Ilya Rozanov and his secret girlfriend, Jane.

If you have any suggestions, feel free to add (: There are so many out there so let me know your faves and Ill add it !!

Make sure to check out other fic rec request here -> Requested Lists

Similar -> Getting Outed | Hayden Finds Out | Hospital Rewrite | Relationship Reveal | Shane Comes Out AU | Soft/Hard Launch | Timeline Reveal

[paperdollinsane]

All those kisses are making me mad 🥵

[ok-notgood-probablybad]

I'VE NEVER SEEN THIS BEFORE

[thisfeebleheart]

the sweet little shin kiss is so dear to me

[mina-logan]

When your bro is also your bunny it can be something so special.