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Allie - she/her | your friendly fandom elder emo | writing firstprince & hollanov fanfic

[porcelainmortal]

Firstprince Masterlist

Hollanov Masterlist

Thanks for being here. If you enjoy my writing, please kudos, comment, and share! It gives me so much drive to keep creating. 💕

[writingdose]

this and also the only difference between fanfic writers and writers who sell their own original works as careers is that fanfics aren’t monetized. that’s all.

being a “professional” writer doesn’t mean your works are inherently better than fanfics. I’ve read so many fics that are more professionally written than some published books.

whether or not a piece of writing is monetized has nothing to do with its quality.

[nellasbookplanet]

Something so funny about rereading one's own unfinished fics. Like wow this is pretty good! Almost as if was written exactly according to what I personally like in fact! Someone should finish it!

[writingdose]

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

some people will be like “I wonder why fanfic writers don’t share their works anymore😔” and then this is them when a writer is kind enough to share something they write — as a hobby, for their own enjoyment — with them for free.

some people really don’t realize how privileged they are that they get fanfics for free. imagine having access to something for free because someone is kind enough to share it with you… and then being rude, entitled and an ungrateful pos to that person who was kind enough to share their creation with you for free

“almost 1 year is a lil too much for me” fuck off. fanfic writers don’t owe you anything. one of my favorite fics was updated after 13 years, and what I did is that I thanked the author for choosing to continue the work, I didn’t act like a spoiled toddler by asking why they didn’t update sooner. and even if a writer chooses to abandon their fic permanently with no explanation, that is their choice, their hobby, their decision. they don’t owe your entitled ass anything.

you people let tiktok rot your brains to the point you see everything as content farm and engagement. not a piece of art created by the artist’s love and passion. it’s dystopian.

[assignedilyaoftheday]

your assigned ilya of the day is casually getting ready for his man in THE legendary rick owens

[porcelainmortal]

the cottage chronicles

(if you are subscribed to me and saw this title change no you didn't)

Chapter 1: The Lake

Chapter 2: The Bed

Chapter 3: Under the Stars

Chapter 4: The Guest Room

Chapter 5: The Master Shower

[porcelainmortal]

read on ao3

[writingdose]

genuine writers getting wrongly accused of using ai because of witch hunt and proper grammar/structure in their works must be what being a woman in the 1600s who is wrongly accused of being a witch because she can read and is intelligent feels like

[swagsmeister]

i love summer

[bludragongal]

There's a cool idea for some OCs in here somewhere...

[gallusrostromegalus]

As a kid I always thought that if telepaths were real I'd know because of any of them tried to read my mind the firehouse of insane bullshit would make them drop to the ground screaming, if not actually explode.

My adolescent ADHD and Adult autism diagnosis were the opposite of a surprise.

[surohsopsisofclouds]

(tags @/gallusrostromegalus)

akdhhaja don't leave that in the tags that's so fucking funny

[thepunkpanther]

We're in Montreal. We find a fucking club.

[gurlsrool]

I generally don’t think Shane struggles too much to understand jokes. I know that that’s how some people interpret him, but I think he’s fueled by sarcasm. That being said…I DO think he’s under the impression that married men who complain about never having sex are joking. Because they must be?

5 years into being out and married, Shane’s at an all star game with a group of guys, antsy because Ilya’s off somewhere calling Anya’s dog hotel for the 10th time in 1 day. Some other guys are ribbing a newly married Cliff Marlow about how he should start mourning his sex life now. Shane fake laughs a little too hard (he doesn’t really get the humor behind this bit honestly) and someone’s like “oh shit, is it true for gay guys too? Does Roz not put out?”

and Shane’s like “haha no, never”, just playing along. Half the table winces but the other half is like ??? Cliff’s like, “Really? Every time I call Roz, he’s fucking you. Even if it’s 10 A.M. He’s always panting when he answers the damn phone.”

Hayden’s like, “Yeah, Shane never answers the first time I call and he always has some weird reason why. I assumed they were fucking. Are you just ignoring me? Wait, why do you have lube in every crevice of your house if you’re not getting laid?”

A Scott Hunter with very, very deep bags under his eyes pipes up with, “He’s getting laid. Trust me. I have the room next to theirs”

Ilya comes up to the table then, gives Shane a very obvious look, and Shane scrambles to follow him up to the room, muttering some bullshit excuse about how they left the bathroom sink on. The table falls quiet for a moment, til one guy breaks the silence with, “Man, I wish I was gay. Do you think you could turn me, Hunter?”

Scott just bangs his head on the table

[porcelainmortal]

Mid-Year Book Freakout 📚

Thank you @books2beach for the tag!

Number of books you’ve read so far: 8

Best book you’ve read so far in 2026: Anxious People by Fredrik Backman. Special shout-out to my favorite re-read, The Prospects, which is a close second. That book is such a warm hug.

New release you haven’t read yet but want to: I have heard good things about Cat Sebastian’s latest, Star Shipped, so that’s on my list.

Most anticipated release for the second half of the year: I have two! Red, White and Royal Blue: The Private Correspondence, which may kill me dead when it lands in my hands. Also, Theodora’s Tea Shop, which comes out next month. It’s only being published in Australia and the UK (so I couldn’t get an ARC), but I have it on preorder. I have followed the author on YT for years, so I’m excited to finally read this one as well. 

Biggest surprise favorite new author (debut or new to you): Only three authors were new to me this year, and two of them were non-fiction books. So idk if I would choose a fave? But I finally read A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, which I learned was written by the grandmother of one of my mom’s best friends. So that was a surprise! 

Newest fictional crush: Technically I fell in love in November of last year, but Hollanov. Yes, both of them. I love them far too much. 😭

Book that made you cry: Anxious People. That book talked a LOT about suicide and I am… extremely fragile, mentally. So...

Most beautiful book you’ve gotten so far this year: I haven’t had income in almost a year, so I haven’t been buying books. I did pick up a few paperbacks with a B&N gift card I had, and while none of them are particularly pretty, the copy of The Alice Network that I got has deckled edges, which I love. 

Book that made you happy: The Prospects, my beloved. That book makes me feel so many happy things. 🥹

What books do you want to read by the end of the year?: Omg so many. I am way behind where I wanted to be bc depression is a nasty bitch and have so many new books I haven’t touched. The ones I mentioned above are highest priority for me, though. 

Tagging a few folks I know have been reading: @cha-melodius @myheartalivewrites @theprinceandagcd @miharaikko @dani-dabbles @adreama-writes @whimsyhuh and of course an open tag!!

(And if any moots want to add me on Storygraph, I'm pm_reads - let's be friends! 💕)

[firstprinced]

shane voice ooga booga that's my man

[smokingrozanov]

Vampire Shane who won’t drink human blood for ethical reasons & human Ilya who is like oh my god Hollander you’re so boring 🙄 you should just feed from me I’m literally giving you permission. Shane is like Ilya I can literally hear the blood rushing to your penis when you say that

[stventricle]

ilusha

[quiet-doll]

recently saw ppl discuss whether they put their medicines in a kitchen cabinet or a bathroom cabinet and i was shocked by the fact that many ppl said kitchen cabinet. so now i need you to reblog this and say where you keep yours