I miss being able to exhibit being depressed? Like a few years ago I could be outwardly upset and sleep a lot and just be sad all the time but then people would be upset at me for it? Like teachers and aquantamces and family members and the like. I don't know why I let it bother me to that point but it happened so much I can't do it anymore I have to act ~okay~ all the time and it just makes me exhausted and angry and I'm no better off than 2 to 3 years ago it fucking blows but I just suck it up everyday and it hurts










