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on the astral plane:

1. the ache of a peeled fingernail—

2. the overexposure of a summer’s midday—

3. the dent of your teeth on her skin—

4. the taste of saltwater after a concussion—

5. eigengrau.

#if you tapped and tapped and tapped against the wall would they reach out for you?#do you think you’d ache for her if she wasn’t made out of flesh? so unlike yours but just as tender?#if you peeked under your skin you’d take better care of your wiring #prose poetry #writing #inspo

how i wish i could tell you of all the things—good and bad, sick and beautiful, the deep grooves of my brain and the soft spongy betweens—

i couldn’t fit you in my heart if i tried: all your light and sweetness and softness against my tiny heart, my unkempt hands, my too-wide mouth.

you should’ve left when i yelled the first time; then the second; then the wrong words, the bad timing, the foggy memories. you should’ve left and i shouldn’t have allowed you so near.

i love you (curse) i love you (plea)

i am afraid you are so much—and not what i wanted. i’m not sure what i wanted; the empty feeling again, the hurt, the feeling of being small; senseless, useless, unimportant enough to not matter what i do or feel. and you are so much; lively and smart and soft and caring and beautiful and and and

you are holding my hand and i am so afraid.

i am not what you need but i am what you want—refeeding syndrome—and you are what i need but not what i want—avitaminosis—and i am so afraid. this is just me saying i am afraid.

i am afraid of wanting. i am afraid of not wanting. i am afraid of loving. i am afraid of losing. i am afraid of you. i am afraid of your eyes. i am afraid of your voice calling out to me.

#writing #prose poetry #from the drafts #on how much i love him

sec0ndwind

michaela montague

poem 1 , 2025

#inspo #quotes

papayajuan2019

it's always a damn picture of a deer on here

#enough deer where are the HORSES

playburo

Julia Fernandez

thetidemice

weird animal flipbooks i made

#horses

nosebleedclub

What can we do when it’s this dark?

ophanym

hold our breath, i think.

wait for a sliver of light (the gap of the door, the barest flutter of a dusty curtain). extend out a hand when it comes, blindly searching in the shadow until it melts into penumbra, shins knocking things into bruises and dust collecting at the grooves between the fingers.

reach for the doorknob even if you have to crawl towards it.

#gentleness #inspo #writing #haven’t written in a while so! warm up

carmengonzalez

“I’m very interested in emotions like sweetness, which have no place in the pantheon of educated concerns, and yet are very important to me. Sweetness is the opposite of machismo, which is everywhere — and I really don’t get on with machismo. I’m interested in sensitivity, and weakness, and fear, and anxiety, because I think that, at the end of the day, behind our masks, that’s what we are.”

— Alain de Botton (via brilaro)