♛ . WHAT GOOD WOULD SAVED TIME DO IF DEATH WAS THE ONLY CONSEQUENCE; when yet another wound would brashly claim a soldier’s life? Such was war, such was Empire’s HER sanguinary cause; yet to have death come & wrap grim claws around known ally’s very throat, nails sinking into delicate skin / to squeeze / to suffocate & snap their very neck? No better than whatever nightmare oft came to haunt her still. – to march through devastation, to cross blood soaked soil & find yet another familiar face distorted by violence & death-delivered ANGUISH. – a thought that made stomach turn / a blow taken to the chest, ribs cracking underneath its metaphorical weight. UNBEARABLE / UNTENABLE. Would she be able to forgive herself? Failing those sworn to her very vow: for a brighter future, a just tomorrow!
Ever protecting those deemed dear, as vigilant as she was brutal / lethal. Crushing bone with a precise ax-blow: decapitating, maiming, cutting her way ONWARD towards a single goal, for a single purpose. – ruthless, & yet …
“You would be dead!” behold battle-ax’ cutting edge: droplets of red spiraling [nay, dancing] as they leap / as a single swing rams it into hard earth below, to free her intact right & no longer encumber useless injured left. REMEMBER, REMEMBER, DEAR LYSITHEA: dead archer found a few centimeters ahead, headless corpse naught but feast for the crows / split open armor of some infantry unit decorating his [?] lifeless body. How could she bear the sight / how could she look ever so coolly, composed save for sudden BURST of wrath / of worry / of suppressed sentiments; this dreadful fear. A mangled thing / shattered bones & languid crimson gushing forth. – this could have been her, a mage, too frail to be midst havoc & clashing steel, ever naive, ever FOOLISH / say! SCREAM AT HER: have you no concern for those in you care? Right fingers coil around stuck arrow, yanking a part out of own shoulder & joint / breaking off its head with a flick of armored wrist; balled fist rising to merely present. With a scowl & a thunderous voice / overbearing ere tossing wooden remnants elsewhere. “with an arrow stuck in your head!”
Pray, what had traversed? REMEMBER, REMEMBER: a leap, shield risen to catch enemy’s blow / second hit askew enough to bend her left far too unnaturally; ah, mayhap the tingle in her fingers & the numbness felt were a result of THAT. In addition to some wretched arrow head caught in heavy plate, piercing membrane beneath [naught she could not handle / barely noticed]. A jab of own elbow had certainly provoked other’s fall; a fact that stung worse than a gash ever could.
Cue a harsh sigh / there, she kneels; knees sinking into the very dirt with but most subtle metallic clink. Body hunching, shoulders relaxing ever so cautiously. Right glove taken off & flung aside, trembling fingers coiling around mage’s torso; one too brittle to be handled with roughest steel coiling around hand’s digits; lo, pale skin, faded scar etched into the back of slender digits; these tips now setting against a shoulder blade, lilac glare mellowing beneath a concerned brow [rage subsided, abated / INTERNALIZED]. – “can you walk?”
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⁅ ⚜ ⁆ Despite witnessing what was to follow after bloody battles again and again, one would never quite grow used to the sight of split open corpses, grass stained with pools of red ( it’s YOU or THEM! ) it was another ghost added to her book of loss, another shadow lurking over petite shoulders whenever darkness would hit, brutally burrowing its way into torn mind ; HAUNTED by something dead which appeared to be alive. In the heat of the moment, always too busy to think, to see, to hear, archers, mages and armored units mere targets for her SPELLS — Yet in this moment, one nearly felt forced to look, EDELGARD’S LECTURE drowning out to white noise, eyes thus focusing on mangled bodies, rivulet of crimson dripping from stout ax... ‘ THAT COULD’VE BEEN YOU ‘ Edelgard, Edelgard, cherished Emperor, THAT IS ME, are you aware of the fact that your arm is wrapped around a WALKING CORPSE? Was it not better to die standing on a battlefield, instead of sickened and broken being tucked away in some bed, helpless to save anyone?
Bright gaze averted from decapitated mess and instead focused on a non-specific spot on muddied ground, unable to lock glances with her. Foe’s blade had merely managed to split her sleeve in two ( if Emperor had interfered mere fracture of a second later, blade would’ve easily sliced through flesh and bones ) causing nimble fingers to wrap around broken edges, pulling shirt back together — Skin below had grown far too pale, it made her veins protrude so disgustingly, it was not a sight she wished to share with the woman kneeling next to her ( REMEMBER, REMEMBER, EDELGARD WHAT I AM, YOU WILL BE! ) LOOK AT HER, pulling an arrow out of soft flesh with a quick yank, soldier marching on, while destroyed self... Sharp exhale, ribs scratching against thin membrane as she moved ; LITTLE DID IT MATTER — Whatever endured in childhood days far worse than anything encountered / witnessed on the battlefield, bones snapped over and over again by strong hands for reasons unknown to then little girl, small lungs gasping for air between the cries / PLEAS for them to stop...
Slow exhale, gaze finally turned towards the other, focusing in Emperor’s direction but still not daring to met her sight, head dipping into a small nod. Limbs ACHED, one was drained, but the mage refused to be pitied and branded useless by not walking herself.
“I think so...” came a quiet response after swallowing thickly, catching a glimpse of naked hand before it disappeared behind own back — In times like these, one part of her wished to hug the other just to reassure her of the fact that neither of them were alone, the other wished to snap own bones in half yet again, cut herself open and let WRETCHED CREST bleed out right there and then, and finally succumb to the inevitable. Unsure if she should apologize or thank the other, mage chose to remain silent, lips pressing into a thin line — ANOTHER LECTURE was sure to follow later that day, she would have plenty of time to talk then.