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[contemptible-scoundrel]

🐖EMPATHYPIG LIKED YOUR POST♥️

>I don't see the point in living anymore

🐖EMPATHYPIG REPLIED TO YOUR POST 💬

>I know things are difficult right now, but you need to hold on. I care about you.

[shmto]

[novelconcepts]

Hey, man, c'mere. Listen. Get in real close, this is important.

You're gonna make stuff again. You're gonna make stuff you're proud of. You're gonna make stuff you're excited to share. You're going to feel that overwhelming drive to create, not just the frantic I want to want to you're stuck in now. You're going to have awesome ideas, and you're going to make them into reality. You're going to create again. You're still an artist. You're still a writer. You're still home to the same passion you had before. You'll find it again. It's not gone. It's just resting. Let it rest. You're going to make stuff again. I promise.

[kosmogrl]

[moveslikekeithrichards]

the stuffed animal situation is phenomenal these days. you can find any specific arthropod or deep sea fish or microbe etc. used to be back in olden times all you could get was bears and mutants

[orchardermine]

It's been one full week since my attempt now. Yaaaaaay.

Things haven't really gotten better. I'm still dealing with physical consequences and will be for a bit.

But I also talked a lot to the friends I do have. I also heard from some older friends I'm happy to get back in touch with. I still feel alone but I have much more evidence that I'm not to reference back to. I'm thankful for that.

After an attempt, often people feel grateful for surviving. I'm not there yet. Things will probably get much worse emotionally before they get better. But I'm still here for now and I'm trying to enjoy it as best I can.

The other day I took a spur of the moment trip out of town to the big mall to look for Chiikawa merch. Idk what happened but after the 10th I got really focused on them. I think it's the simplicity. I desperately want a plushie of Chiikawa to hold soon. Comic con is coming up so maybe there? I have a lot to do before then bc... I kinda thought I wouldn't make it there lmao.

Maybe someday I'll be far enough away from this that I'll feel better. I hope that, but right now I'm in the middle of it and feel like I'm drowning. Wondering why I'm not enough, not good enough, not worth enough, burying myself in ways that aren't helpful to anyone.

Two things I have been thinking about;

I opened up more specifically to a good friend of mine about the attempt and was told "A sorrow shared is a sorrow halved. A joy shared is a joy doubled." I've had trouble believing this lately because voicing myself has so often gone wrong, but I do believe them when they say so.

And also the classic tumblr image:

[bliindclown]

[orchardermine]

I've gone back and forth about talking about this but I just would like some more support.

I attempted suicide on April 10th. Physically I'm fine; my body is fine, I have a nurse nearby, I just feel kind of garbage-y at the moment obviously.

Emotionally, less so. I'm not a danger to myself and the appropriate people IRL are aware of such so that they can make sure that stays the way; I also spoke to my closest friends about it and am beyond lucky to have some amazing people in my life who are checking in with me and keeping me busy. I am not yet at the 'I'm glad I survived' state though.

I probably won't be posting writing for a while, of course. My headspace hasn't been great for it but I'm happy to chat if anyone wants to.

Mostly, the purpose of this post, if anyone has any good news or words of support to share, I'd love to hear it.

Thank y'all 💖

[catcrumb]

[twboy28]

my old NINAH sketches😇

[meerers24]

Wounded man, please!!!

One wounded man coming right up! Drawing his nose and hair was my fav part lol

[novelistparty]

Baby Globe, Wikipedia’s 25th birthday mascot

[mtndewpitchblack]

[strummedguitars]

First time drawing her

[asymptomaticsavant]

Ahhhhh I absolutely love your ninah art!! I love the way you render things and how you give everyone little splotches on their hands and face and aaaaaAAAAHHHHHH!!!!

That being said, have you drawn the characters from the update yet? (aside from the ones you already posted) I would love to see the tattooed woman or the rockstar!!

Awwwww, thank you!!!! 💝🌸🌟✨💝🌸🌟✨Glad you like even my lazy blushes, ehehehehe.💐💝💫

I just drew rockstar actually, but I haven't have time to do tattoo at all, so!!

[bilshmu]

cutie

[orchardermine]

I love you Wounded Man NINAH

[gengario]

staying up really late is comforting. the world stops expecting things from you. it’s just quiet for a while.