hi, i wanted to start off by saying i love this blog and sometimes i find myself scrolling through it for hours because it's so interesting to me. i have the book as well and i really appreciate that you guys share these things. i've been wanting to share about an experience i had in a lucid dream many months ago, but i had already sent some asks prior and i didn't want to clutter up your inbox. in the dream my family was having both a birthday party and a memorial service at my house. i was surrounded by people i've known, but all of us, including myself, were very small. (about 2 feet tall with adult bodies, but in my dream we were supposedly aged 12-13 years old.) there were "adults" at the party, family members, who appeared to be normal sized humans, but they felt less "real" than the little people. the energy within the dream felt very off and i felt like i was in danger. the sun started to set as i walked around talking to adult family members. i wanted to eat something, but i kept remembering that i had already eaten in the waking world and did not want to eat more. i also i believed that i was getting drunk off beers, but further realized i had never taken a single sip. i felt comforted in the presence of my aunt, but she left me. once i returned to the garage with the little people i felt uneasy again. at this point i became aware that i was not this small in other dreams, but here i felt almost like prey. i began walking towards a door, when another adult family member came up to me. i felt safe again, but then i realized this particular person is actually shorter than me in the waking world. at this point i became fully aware that i was dreaming, and the entire room rearranged itself. i was now laying on my back in a large bed as multiple children in white pajamas danced around the room in a circle. suddenly everything became incredibly clear, much more clear than the waking world, to the extent that i could vividly see pores and other details on the childrens' faces. i became very afraid because i was very aware that these children were fully real and alive. as i began to sit up on the bed, i came halfway out of my body. everyone stopped dancing and stared directly at me as i did this, and i spotted a red headed boy with freckles who resembled someone i went to school with. i managed to get myself to speak, and said "hi," but my voice sounded unusually loud and detached from myself. the boy looked at me with an expression that made me feel as if i shouldn't have felt so confused, and said hi back to me. my first instinct was to ask them if they were real, which felt wrong, so i held my tongue on that. instead i asked him "are you awake?" to which he responded "no i am not." i felt very fearful and repeated myself, asking the entire room this time, "are you awake?" and some other children replied "no, we are not." i then asked "why are you not awake?" and they said "because we are born from the grave." i had the fear that if stayed longer or if i wandered the rest of the way out of my body, i would disappear or become lost forever. at that point i decided i would wake myself up, so i laid back down and reconnected with my body. i woke up laying on my back on the couch.
The Fae and Writer Speak:
First of all, I'm really glad that you like the blog and find the book helpful! That makes us both happy.
There's a lot to this, so I'll do my best to relay what I'm getting, as the writer, as well as what Atri is telling me. He said first thing, that this is about the death of your youth. It's a crossroads dream, where you're not a child, but not an adult. (or you are an adult, but inside don't feel like you're 'really' an adult) You're afraid away from the adults, because you feel too small still and that scares you.
The death and birthday, have to do with the death and birth.. as all deaths are births into new stages of life. You are at a crossroad and this is manifesting in your dreams.
Now, that said, he says that crossroads can attract other beings in the astral. Crossroads are very vivid and powerful energetic places to be.
The boy and children are Fae. He knows by the glamour of the boy to look like your schoolmate, and by their answers to your question.
Of course, they are not awake. That is not their name.
When you asked, 'why,' they told you where they come from. They have come there because of the grave in your life or dream, if you'd rather. Whenever something dies, something is born, and here they are, born on the energy of that Nature.
The unsettled and prey like feeling you had or perhaps still have in the wake is because you were realizing in your vividness in the dream, that there was something 'off' about them, and not a normal part of a regular dream. They were Fae .. it can be a very surreal feeling when experiencing something very very real in it's truth from just fantasizing about it.
Fae are not always sweet butterfly wings and summer magic. The presence of Fae can be a little disarming and unfamiliar, especially when you realize it isn't normal for them to be there.
