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𝗆𝖺𝗋𝗂𝗌𝖺 | 𝟥𝟢 | 𝗆𝗂𝖼𝗁𝗂𝗀𝖺𝗇 𝗆𝗈𝗇𝗍𝗒 | 𝟤𝟢 | 𝗈𝗍𝗍𝖻 ♡

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HITS Summer Series at Lamplight Equestrian Center in Wayne, IL 2026; © Andrew Ryback Photography

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HITS Summer Series at Lamplight Equestrian Center in Wayne, IL 2026; © Andrew Ryback Photography

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i’ve lost two dogs in the past several months, neither were old and ready to go. it’s not fair.

[mesacollie]

Sierra on another stunning Mojave morning.

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i am just defeated

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i don’t understand why life has to be so cruel. i don’t understand why i had to lose them both just months apart. i am heartbroken. clementine i found on the street and she was the last dog i rescued with my mom before her passing. toot was my first ever real foster fail who i didnt even want because he was just too wild. they were the best dogs ever. i am so incredibly lost.

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all i know is loss

[horsesarecreatures]

Amba seemed to admire the views too.

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my landlord wants to sell my house. i am drowning in bills. i have to get rid of monty. then my moms dog attacked one of my others. now my youngest dog is now seriously declining from his kidney disease and will have to be euthanized. i cannot take anymore of this. what the actual fuck.

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quality time with my big dog

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there may be days where we can’t stand eachother but i can’t imagine life without him :( he was so mean and shut down when we met… i hated him. he’s grown into such a happy and friendly guy with the little amount of time i do get to see him. i would hate to see him regress.

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my moms dog went after my dog tonight so he’s got to go. neither of my siblings have stepped up in any way since she died. neither of them offered to help with him, offered to take him. i got stuck with the trauma of breaking into her home to find a hoard and knowing that down the hall she was deceased. i’m so overwhelmed already bc of the whole situation with monty, struggling for bills. i can’t have a dog here that doesn’t fit in well with the chaos of my life. i just can’t do it. i’m so tired.

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i’m gonna have to get rid of monty

i just can’t do afford to have him and pay my bills

i feel like such a failure

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montreeeee

[ahorsenamedphoebe]

Solo riding

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went for a nice walk in the back field 🌱

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i should go see him but i don’t feel well

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