pacifism.

[oukinaru-blog]

It’s been a month and I haven’t come back but I’m thinking about it maybe? Or I was until I heard that somehow the whole shipping debate that every other fandom I’ve ever loved has slipped here and I. Now I feel unsafe? Does anyone even want me to come back despite the fact that I ship things people hate? Or do they only want me to come back if I avoid anything that makes me remotely happy and able to cope w/ my mental illnesses. Idk why I’m being so lowkey salty right now other than I’ve dealt with this entirely too much for the past year and I’m sick of my coping devices being used to demonize me. Especially when characters aren’t blood related...... plus I tag things...

[oukinaru-blog]

I apologize for not replying to things on my blogs (this and @taglione) for the past few days. I just got a job and I’ve been kind of rushing around to get ready for it. I’ll try to get to stuff after work today, though!

[butlerbourne-blog]

       “ Please, you honor me too greatly. And you needn’t             thank me either. Attending to every wish and whim             you bear is but my job in life as your butler. ”

[oukinaru-blog]

     “You deserve all the honor I could ever offer you, Jakob. You might do your job, but you’re also an excellent friend. I could never ask for better.”

[oukinaru-blog]

Buries his face into the nape of his husband's neck. "Mm, Corrin -- you have a nice smell, as always. Your bath soap is heavenly."

     He’d hardly been expecting it, but Corrin can’t say he’s complaining the slightest bit about his lover’s touch. No, he’s warm and solid against his back, and no matter what tomorrow holds for them, he can feel safe in those arms at least for now. Smiling pleasantly, he reaches back to tangle his fingers in soft, white hair.

     “You use the same soap as of late, but you’ve always smelled wonderful to me… Thank you, Niles.”

[butlerbourne-blog]

         “ Milord, why, I do not know what else to say other than: Thank you. ”

[oukinaru-blog]

     “I really love your smile, Jakob! I’m glad I said something. I haven’t thanked you enough for helping me recently.”

[oukinaru-blog]

     Obviously, I have the best retainers... Jakob especially.

[roleplaymmemes]

Please tell me anonymously or not why you follow me. I could use some positive messages

[oukinaru-blog]

i have never drawn a more accurate picture without trying

[tenmamusha-blog]

          ❝   I suppose, that it’s hard to keep the soul full of light, when a black curtain is drawn in front of it.  ❞

[oukinaru-blog]

     “Just because there’s a curtain in front of it, doesn’t mean the light is gone. It’s okay, Shigure. Is there anything I can do for you?”

[scdistik-deactivated20171123]

                                             the most REWARDING thing about a kill                                 isn’t about the THRILL of an arrow in another’s throat                                     nor is it the WRITHING of a soon-to-be corpse.                                                   it is the DISGUST on their faces,                                              it is the look of sheer VULNERABILITY,                                 it is the PLEASURE of knowing you’ve dragged another

                               RIGHT DOWN TO YOUR FILTH.

                    independent & selective niles, fire emblem fates. as written by jasmine.

[nilches-deactivated20160629]

( NEW ) Niles/Zero roleplay blog from Fire Emblem Fates. A reblog will allow daddy to get some titillating action going on here. Super quality. A+. Serious roleplayers only. Are you convinced yet?

[oukinaru-blog]

( 8, 12 & 13 ! )

Mun views. | Accepting!

8. On positivity.

Okay, don’t get me wrong, I love Tumblr. I’ve been here since 2011. But, I’ve also been roleplaying since 2009, and I’ve seen communities who reacted far more maturely to things that made them uncomfortable or that they didn’t like. Because of that sometimes I’m really confused with the whole negative culture that goes on here. Is it because there’s an opportunity to do it anonymously? I don’t know. Back when I started roleplaying it was the understanding of pretty much everyone that you didn’t have to go on the account of a person you disliked, you didn’t have to read their posts, and you certainly didn’t have to be exposed to their content. You could block them. There were fun things you could be doing instead that didn’t cause as much anxiety. I used to be pretty trigger happy with my block button. I still will be if the need arises.

I got kinda off track here, but, as much as I love this place, it’s a cesspool. So many of us are struggling with mental illnesses and awful home lives. I love positivity. I love positivity blogs where people can send in asks with people’s URLS so someone gets to know they’re appreciated. People deserve to know that they have value, they have talent, and they’re loved more than anything.

So I’m going to say it myself! I love you guys. I love reading your writing. I love writing with you, even if sometimes I suck and I randomly drop or lose things because I’m an anxious baby. You’re all very good people! And I want to get to know each and every one of you. And I want to be your dad and protect you and spread love for all of you everywher.

12. On my own writing.

I’m so negative about it. Probably really unnecessarily so. I don’t think I do a good job conveying symbolism or using metaphors or anything like that. I used to, though. I used to write entire worlds to live, and I’ve watched over the years as that kind of slipped away from me. My vocabulary slid through my fingers and left me behind with something really dull. It bothers me a lot. Because I look at replies sometimes and get really upset because there’s so much more I could be saying and want to be saying but I can’t come up with the words I want to use to say it. I think I can attribute a lot of that loss to my depression. And roleplaying really lazily for a year and a half in a fandom that never wrote paragraphs. Ever. I got lazy and let it get away.

13. On following back.

I am!!!! Really shy. And sometimes I’m also really afraid to follow certain people because I don’t know their fandom, or because I find their blog navigation confusing, or just. I don’t know? Sometimes I’m just like............. ????? On this subject. However, I never expect people to follow me back if I follow them. I’m not one of those follow-for-follow people. I’m just. Very Shy. I don’t know.

[taglione]

                              You should’ve surrendered…

[sharpservice-deactivated2017073]

“Milord, you know I can not do that. I was told to remain by your side until death, and I will not disobey the most important policy of butlery…even if you demand that I do,” Jakob refused, slightly more callous and stern than he intended, but he hoped that Lord Corrin understood. The butler, truthfully, had nothing else to do other than take care of the prince. 

He was happy spending the rest of his life serving the one person that mattered in his life. There was nothing Jakob was better at doing than serving his lord, and there was nothing he’d rather do. After all, how else should he thank the person who saved him from being left for dead?

“Please, Lord Corrin. Do not worry for me anymore. I am content with this life; I’d want nothing more. You have many other concerns to attend to, so let me fulfill my duties, so that you may fulfill yours,” Jakob insisted politely, folding his hands behind his back. 

[oukinaru-blog]

     “Are you sure it’s because you were told to?” Corrin asked, voice soft and brows pinched. There’s a part of him, though quite small, who’s suddenly very afraid that.. maybe Jakob wouldn’t actually want to be here, helping him. Of course that would make him all the more adamant about his independence, but only because he wants his butler and friend to be happy.

     But his fears are unfounded -- he’s happy living this way, and the prince would never want to take away from that happiness. Smiling to himself and inclining his head, he sighs. “If you really feel that way, I’ll stop complaining. Maybe, though... can we agree that once in a while I get to do something nice for you to thank you for being so good to me?”

[fujiinkyu-blog]

           ❝ … Anytime, but, ❞

     IT FEELS SO STRANGE, speaking with Corrin. Once your dear older brother      whom you had fallen short of deeming lost to the Nohrians, now a just & fair ruler to the      hidden kingdom of Valla ─ all with the bat of an eye. Here he was, the pinnacle of morale      which stitched two war marred countries together; a proud king whose heart know no      bounds. Yet, amongst the years spent separated from him & briefer still the span of time      between now and your reunion… A heavy weight pressed on your chest. A distant longing,      centering on the concept of making up for lost time. It’s a notion easily discarded when      Corrin’s smile falters & he allows himself to be frank with you ─ any breath of seriousness      spared by him would be reflected with the same amount of gravity.

           ❝ Well, I wouldn’t expect the Vallite kingdom              to welcome a change to who sits on their throne              so suddenly. ❞

     Such would be  NATURAL; it was an abrupt change for everyone’s pace. Valla had      known only the heavy thumb of Anankos for a great length of time. To remove him from      power, only to replace him with someone who had only just recently heard of the happenings      of the kingdom would  (and, should,) generate some static. It was something one ought      to anticipate to see.

           ❝ While I highly doubt you’ve done anything              wrong, why not ask  ?              If anything, someone will tell you how to improve.              Being a king means listening to your people, right  ?              You never know, maybe they just want to know              you’re not going to destroy their way of life, Corrin. ❞

[oukinaru-blog]

     Takumi makes an excellent point. These people have a way of life, and in the few short months he’s been in control of Valla, he’s spent the vast majority of his time busy -- studying and overturning all the harmful things that had been put in place by Anankos, as well as making sure his people were safe. But there was one problem: he had not taken very much time to participate in Vallite culture. There had been several festivals, and he’d failed to attend each one. Even when presented the opportunity to learn from Azura, Corrin hadn’t learned very much about the very people he was ruling.

     Of course they’d shun him in return. He seems to be completely disregarding them, and that is a wrong no matter how he might look at it.

     Guilt pooling in his stomach like boiling pitch, threatening to overflow his innocent walls and escape through his eyes, hot and salty, Corrin made a quiet wounded sound. No, even with this realization, he can’t cry because he’s realized his mistake. The only thing left to do is to rectify it. There was going to be another celebration soon, and this time he’d brave it. If--

     “Thank you, brother. I think I’ve found my answer. But, to fix it, I want to know... Would you mind joining me at an upcoming festival? I think my problem is that I’ve been busy and... shy. My people are very new to me, just like I am to them, so...” He would very much like the company. It may just be what he needs to fully understand his people and their needs... and bond with them.

[arrowbound-archive-blog]

                   Oh, yes. The suffering on your face is simply delicious!

                                     Let’s have some FUN, shall we?

[arrowbound-archive-blog]

How satisfyingly sweet of Corrin to play along. 

Where other prisoners are such a shallow bore he may as well have already gotten his kicks out of them ( and just who oh who left among these broken, dignity stripped men left to their own scraps of inevitable decay is to say he hasn’t?) Much rather a dragon blooded prince his catch of the day over what leftovers get dregged up on the battlefield. Ugh.

Ah. But a ruse is just a ruse after all, fingertips teasingly play against the cool of metal bars keeping his little prince confined ( he would certainly make for a cute pet… ) just before penetrating the lock. Consider this permission to finally find much needed release. 

See? He can be generous.

❛ — Please. By all means. Pour out to your famished heart’s content. I’ll be here all night.  ❜

[oukinaru-blog]

     Sweet freedom is offered to him in the form of an opened prison door, and Corrin could absolutely shout with joy if it weren’t for the fact that their army currently had a very serious problem. There is no heart to be poured out, only stern, commanding words. He’s switched into battle mode now that he’s no longer rattling at the bars of an unfair imprisonment.

     “We need to prepare for battle immediately. The enemy is preparing to launch an attack. We don’t have much time left now because I was in here for so long.” And oh, does the little prince sound ever-so frightened and worried. If they don’t catch this in time, King Garon will be absolutely livid. Hoshido is absolutely not allowed to gain ground on them.

     Not at such a critical time in the war. Reaching Castle Shirasagi is imperative... Garon needs to have a seat on the throne.

     “Do you mind coming with me so we can get everyone prepared?”