riri⋆.𖦹°‧

farther than he's ever been, cain headed east to eden.

[achillesinhighheels]

[valtsv]

"here's my original character, Man Who Sucks But Loves His Daughter Very Much" and it's a guy who worships at the altar of patriarchal violence and the woman he uses as an excuse and an effigy to absolve him

[valtsv]

well i think his daughter should tell him to kill himself

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

anon in my inbox said fanfic writers who wrote about dark and taboo topics were not “real writers” because of what they wrote about.

reblog if you believe anon is wrong and writers are writers, no matter what they write about. no matter how they portray these taboo topics.

reblog if you believe art can be about topics that are controversial, taboo or outright disturbing, and artists who create controversial, taboo or outright disturbing art are as valid as artists who create art of conservative values.

reblog to laugh at anon ♡

[fratricidesam]

i'm sure i'm not about to say anything original, but i have some thoughts about how to improve 15x10. the universal hate is warranted imo but i still think the concept is pretty cool, it's just what was attributed to chuck's intervention that sucked. thing is, sam and dean do have plot armour; most protagonists do. the whole meta theme of season 15 makes it the perfect stage to address this within fiction. what i can't begin to understand is why the writers decided to attribute their humanly attainable competence to chuck, instead of zeroing in on the things that actually exist outside of them, i.e. their being the main characters of earth and being kept alive through convoluted means time and time again. i'd like to consider plot armour specifically, though: what if that was simply taken away? chuck can't reverse the abilities he led to them acquiring, can't change the narrative he's written thus far in which they're the mcs, but he can stop covering for them. volleys of bullets don't just happen to miss them, horrific wounds become infected, bones break when they're tossed around, they're forced to spend downtime resting and healing. and, if you wanted to stick to dean (only) dying in the finale, why not have these accumulated stresses be what kills him? as skilled as they are, their lifestyle is brutal. they go through even more than the average hunter, whose life expectancy should already be abysmal, and this could be shown through increasing strain on their bodies. they're covered in bruises and scars, limping in a way that might not recover, fingers cramping and toes becoming blistered, early onset arthritis and chronic illness racking their exhausted bodies. and, in the end, dean's body just gives out, or the next hunt finishes him off. and sam is too mentally drained to continue without him and physically incapable anyway. and we, the audience, get to see a physical show of their sacrifice; we get to appreciate how they broke down (mentally and physically) over time, and understand the cost of (their) heroism so that we can appreciate it all the more.

[closet-keys]

Fundraising on tumblr is survival. When tumblr deletes the blogs of people in Gaza, that is participation in genocide. It is unconscionable.

My friend Fadel's account has been banned again yesterday. He is extremely sad and exhausted at this treatment. Fadel's new blog is @fadell-aldany. Please follow him there and send him a message of encouragement. He has been on tumblr for years and has lost all of his connections.

He has been repeatedly hospitalized this month because his blood count is so low from going too long without his blood medication and proper nutrition. He desperately needs funds, and he cannot raise them if no one finds his blog. Fadel's campaign (gazavetters #197) is hosted by a friend of mine. I am texting with Fadel right now as I type this, and I personally can confirm that this new account is really him.

Please help him find his previous followers!

[fadell-aldany]

I don't know what to do about these procedures. I am very ill and desperately need support. My health is in very poor condition, and on top of all that, I am being restricted by this policy. I hope everyone will look upon me with compassion and stand by me.

[closet-keys]

Fadel really needs donations to be able to afford the cost of his healthcare. Every time he cannot raise enough there are ripple effects and life becomes harder, more painful, and more costly. When there's not enough for his monthly blood medication, he's had to go without, and now he needs his medication and treatment for severe anemia from going without his medication. If you can afford to donate anything, please have compassion and help him stabilize.

[writing-prompt-s]

You are a deity newly ascended. Your predecessor has perished, and their domain (now yours) is in shambles. Instead of repairing it first, you went down to the world and did the dirty practical work instead of the grandiose, aloof things other deities do.

[nassef-mahmoud]

Have you ever woken up to find that everything you've built over the years has crumbled? Have you ever felt like you've gone from being someone people respectfully called "Doctor" to someone forced to explain their needs and ask for help just to survive? Do you know what it means to spend your life toiling, studying, and working to build an honest business, only to have war on Gaza snatch everything away in an instant? I wasn't born a beggar, and I'm not used to asking anyone for help. I owned a pharmacy, a source of livelihood and dignity, living off my own hard work. But the war destroyed my pharmacy, and with it, my dreams, my stability, and my family's future. Today, as I ask for help, I don't just feel the pain of poverty, but the pain of utter defeat. The pain of being looked at as if you're a beggar, when you're a victim of a war that stole everything from you. Believe me, need isn't the hardest part of it... the hardest part is having to justify your needs to people, feeling like your story doesn't matter to anyone, and seeing the abandonment all around you as you sink deeper into despair every day. If you can't help, then don't... You hurt those worn down by life with a word or a judgment. By God, I only sought help after every door was closed in my face.. 💔💔💔

God is sufficient for me, and He is the best disposer of affairs.

This campaign was shared by @90-ghost here

The war took my pharmacy… don't let it take our hope too.

My name is Dr. Nassif Al-Dahdouh.

[nassef-mahmoud]

In the last six days, there has been only one donation. I am disappointed... 💔💔

[goreprofonde]

- James Hoch, Wall.

[transgenders]

can anyone please help me with all this, dear god. everythings piling up again & i really gotta pay it all on time.

ca vn kofi bmac gfm throne paylinks

most urgent: June 8th debt repymt ($69.34), June 12th debt repymt ($218.11) & June 12th cshapp borrow loan that was for rent ($462.88 left)

the faster i pay debt off completely the more breathing room ill get ₍^> <^₎ bc i wont have to tell my captors right away. then id get to have time to rest, continue job hunting & plan my hopefully eventual escape Σ(°ω°ﾉ)ﾉ. taking cat of my senior cat still, its pride month & my birthday soon too—so everything is appreciated quadruplely so. luv u ty 4 reading 🫂 xoxo!

[lemontongues]

shoutout to slow growers, late bloomers, people whose plans got derailed by circumstances beyond their control or their own choices, people who never had a plan to begin with, people who have had to start over when theyre too old to feel like theyre supposed to be where they are, people who cant pretend theyre built for the environment theyre in, and everyone who's not living the life they thought they would. im proud of you for making it this far and i hope you keep going until youre happy ♡

[sailermoon]

having unwashed hair will have you believing shit like i can’t be saved

[fearlastyear]

I saw Cassandra and Helenus entwined on the bed. They looked like lovers; perhaps that’s what I found disturbing—though I suspect few lovers ever achieve that degree of intimacy.

and andrea hollander budy’s hansel and gretel poem

They might have been lovers, but lovers do not sleep

as close as this

oh to be with your brother in hell…

[newlyy]

Not that I think all marriages are doomed but when deciding who to marry you should ask yourself “is this someone I’d want to divorce?” As in, is this someone I believe would be mature and fair, even when they’re upset and don’t particularly like me at the moment. Is this someone I could continue to trust while going through an adversarial process? And if the answer is no, don’t marry them.

[7pleiades7]

Mermaids on the Rocks (19th century) by Wilhelm Kray (German, 1828 – 1889)

[callistosam]

read a couple journal articles about callisto & the framing of her rape after posting this and i found "Ovid's Version of Callisto's Punishment" by Shawn O'Bryhim very interesting when relating the myth to sam and azazel's action of feeding him demon blood (especially when considering sam's feelings of "uncleanliness" & the idea of him battling a supposed inner darkness)

this part was discussing how callisto's pregnancy was the key factor of the "pollution" she would bring, which i connected with the tendency of supernatural to avoid azazel's action itself (the actual rape, in this context) and more emphasize the way that sam can be / has been changed by it. the focus is on the "darkness" created within sam (and the question of whether he really is Sammy) after azazel fed him demon blood, rather than the violation of the action or the fact that sam did not want it. also re: the nymphs also not being virgins - the idea that violent actions committed by regular hunters are okay / expected when they are doing them, but when sam attempts to become similar to dean / more like a regular hunter, the instinctive reaction is to question his humanity and whether he is becoming too dangerous.

i found this applicable to the idea of sam not being able to comfortably fit into the family dynamic & hunter role because of his potential monstrosity and connection to demons. also reminds me of how sam simultaneously doesn't fully into "us" or "them" in the us vs. them framing, where he isn't completely considered a part of the hunter category, but also isn't considered to be a part of monster category (therefore making him also an "outcast").

not too much to say about this, just thought that ovid's emphasis on "callisto's pollution" was very relevant to supernatural's emphasis on sam's own "pollution" (the demon blood) and the loss of purity that came with consuming it.

i'm trying to figure out how to phrase this but to me this part is reminiscent of spn's double standards around sam (he cannot pollute it, so he cannot be purified; he cannot be purified, so he will continue to stay polluted) and also how he is unable to escape his potential monstrosity in any way, especially given how his heaven is with dean, who continues / perpetuates the structure that considers sam to be other in some way.

[louisegluckpdf]

the first time i heard the phrase “i need that like a hole in the head” it didn’t even occur to me that many people don’t live with passive suicidal ideation at all times so i just assumed it was a way of saying that you really really needed something and i have continued to use it that way ever since

[valtsv]

"i'm doing this for my wife and kids" justifications are so so so fucking funny like even ignoring the patriarchal arrogance the naked desperation to have an excuse to commit acts of heinous violence and the implications of the family unit as property to be defended and butchered like livestock it's like. if you want a hole to die in so badly grab a shovel and go outside. why are you digging the fucking trenches in our living room man.

[valtsv]