my thoughts in a strange order

this is my diary, don't judge me okay

[oveerthiinking]

you keep on hurting me and I keep on forgiving you

[oveerthiinking]

i don’t know how you do it, but you keep creeping back into my life

[oveerthiinking]

and a few weeks later i realized that i don’t need your love to be someone

[oveerthiinking]

you found someone else and left me in a world i don’t want to be alone in

[oveerthiinking]

i dont understand how you can still cross my mind every 5 seconds

[oveerthiinking]

he is not mine

he will never be mine

and i just need to find a way to accept that

but it breaks me

[oveerthiinking]

I don’t know if I am important to you and it’s killing me

[oveerthiinking]

here i am again. sitting in the corner of my room, crying my heart out

[oveerthiinking]

I don’t know what to do anymore. everything i thought was true turns out to be not.

[oveerthiinking]

i don’t have feelings anymore, all i feel is tired

[oveerthiinking]

it is not about you anymore. it is about me. me finding myself again. me loving myself.

[oveerthiinking]

i don't know what to tell you. you hurt me, but I miss you so badly.

[oveerthiinking]

i can occupy me through the day. it is the night that brings back the memories of you.

[oveerthiinking]

i try to not let my face show my true feelings, because the world couldn't handle it

[oveerthiinking]

losing you is like sitting in the sun. suddenly clouds came and even though you were feeling warm and cozy one moment you suddenly lose this feeling and it’s just cold

[oveerthiinking]

you cheated on me and now want to have some advise on how to get a girl? are you fucking serious?

[oveerthiinking]

I don’t want to feel that way, but I just can’t help myself