Day 1 was brutal in the morning and early afternoon...I looked and felt like shit and ultimately wanted a bottle of wine to feel better, and think I looked better (lol...).
I didn’t succumb, but I ate too many carbs...comfort food..., and then had a crazy sweet tooth around 5pm (I’ll probably be getting those a lot with not drinking all the sugar in the wine. Thankfully, I didn’t succumb to my sweet tooth...that’s all I need: another addiction.
Started reading the “Big Book”...some nice person at the AA meeting gave it to me. I am actually really looking forward to the meeting today. Feeling a bit manic and doing lots of busy work. The true test is when I have a “crisis”, or a perceived crisis and if I then get a strong urge to drink.
Went to the wrong gym this morning...thought it was Tuesday...must have lost a day along the way...they all drift together when you’re drinking all day, and have no time schedule that is adhered to in any way or form.
I feel a lot better today..., and look better (although the carbs made me puffy)...I look forward to looking my best and feeling wonderful...I know it will take time, but one day already feels better!
ONE DAY AT A TIME...I HOUR AT A TIME...ONE MINUTE AT A TIME...ONE SECOND AT A TIME...
Boyfriend got home from work...we only have 2-3 hours/evening to spend together (and that includes him eating dinner)...it’s like we don’t know what to do unless I’m cooking and we’re taking cig and wine/beer breaks along the way...and, I’m in a bad mood if I don’t have a buzz....
Sooo.... we ended up getting a nice bottle of wine and a six pack and playing cards and smoking cigs...I had 3 glasses of wine....which for me is pretty much nothing...Fast forward to the next morning (DAY 3)...
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