zee's spaghetti

Hello! My name is zee and I only watch Seinfeld in VHS

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I have my last chemotherapy session tomorrow 🥹

To break down what chemotherapy looks like for me: 6 hour session (I am there +7 hours though), 2 days with the chemo pump at home, 3rd day you remove the pump (painful), and then the next 2 days are hell.

Hopefully I can share good news soon after this hellish week that is to come. But I just wanna thank everybody here on tumblr yall have allowed me to just vent everything I can't with family and friends bc I don't want to make them sad or have them say I am healed and I shouldn't be complaining bc what if god is listening. So thanks everybody for being so supportive and understanding

[wolfythewitch]

This too shall pass but like holy fuck

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[thatbastardlass-deactivated2021]

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As I am still dealing with the bank who has to lower my monthly credit (which has doubled in the past 3 years), I kind of wonder if other cancer patients just give up on their rights. This is so tiring, demeaning, and confusing (lots of burecratic stuff).

I have been forcing myself to go there and study my rights and prepare formal complaints on rights violations and etc, plus all the other bills because for some reason I am still paying the normal quotas of eletricity and water?? Even tho I'm not at my apartment since December and then all medical bills pilling up (physiotherapy, trauma therapy, acumpuncture and all the expensive medication). So exhausted.

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The way people treat other people with disabilities... I knew it was bad but I hoped people would be kind to me and my situation. So many people have been kind and understanding over what happened to me.

But, when I do have to present my disability certification (= or superior to 60% disability) they look me up and down... Are you trying to see my cancer through me, maybe? And then they ask for my ID like to make sure I'm not lying. I felt like a nuisance asking for a discount that people with disabilities are entitled to, and the bank person literally told me "it's not my fault you have cancer" when I was fumbling, and I'll admit a bit emotional, over them not helping me with my place credit as they have to under the law.

Anyway I'm writing this out of frustration because the bank only cared to help me when I requested to write a formal complaint (very bad for businesses in Portugal plus I had written it to be framed around rights violation which is well bad for the bank) and the manager herself deeply apologized for her coworker and that she would fix this in two weeks. For reference My original request was made 4 months ago.

And I am anticipating it will be the same this time with a different company who gave me the discount after the ticket-lady analysed me thoroughly like she was trying to find any physical disabilities. I thought i forgot my ID for a second and she seemed very pleased to tell me she could not give me a discount without my ID (which thankfully was in my bag after all). She reluctantly gave me the discount but then she charged me 3 times? I don't even know, from a security point of view, how one does that. I only authorized one payment with my card.

She also didnt believe my friend who has breast cancer and forgot her certificate to get the discount. So no discount for my friend. I typed her an email to send to them and she got her money back but still. Does the ticket-lady get a commission for ruining the day for people with disabilities? This just seems so unnecessary cruel...?

Just a little vent.

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does anyone else organize each party's member inventory according to the character's personality/collect things the character would like too?

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Ok I'll just show you all the inventory so you know what I mean. Starting with Tav who has the hard task of being the main character and thus carries most of the loot such as scrolls, books and whatnot on the first 2 rows. Now for the rest of it:

Anti-cazzador chest: Includes Garlic, holy water, regular water (which apparently also harms vampires), nuts (because I vaguely remember that in Buffy the Vampire Slayer books vampires had nuts for hearts so I thought it was poetic), vampire book, and finally, a dead, putrid rat because Cazzador made Astarion eat them as part of the abuse and the first thing I'm gonna do when I catch him Ricky--when I catch him-- is throw that decomposing carcass I'm carrying since act 1 at Cazzador's face.

Drow stuff: Tav is obsessed with spiders and Mommy dearest queen of Drows and spiders Lolth, so she has a collection of Drow artifacts. And a needle, because webs and sewing obviously go hand in hand.

OC and pet stuff: OC time but she is not rly a drow and actually is the daughter of Lathander god of the sun!!! listen I was bedridden with cancer for 3 months I had a lot of free time ok--

Sea stuff: had never seen the sea as a Drow so Tav is like that Mike Wazowski meme finding a penny every time she finds something on the ground including that Baldur's Gate stone some rows below.

Egg collection: as a daughter of the queen of spiders Lolth, Tav loves eggs and believes in egg supremacy and finds viviparous birth (the non-egg way) to be disgusting. I kind of imagine her loving and carrying that Githyanki egg like a baby. I wish you could egg-birth a little Githyanki Stitch-like baby that destroys everything awww it'd be so cute.

(Some quest items I might need yuck making my inventory look bad!)

Witchy stuff and bones: what the title says. Look at that cute frog tea-pot too though I love it so much.

Sweets: Sweet tooth. Milk, milk, custard tart, cookies, recipe book and Demoman pan for war for all purposes.

Crystals!!!!!!!!!! So pretty!!!!!!

It's kind of a hassle to play with Tav because I have to organize her inventory often, especially when I buy things but it's ok because it totally makes sense to me the way it's organized!!

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Here's Gale and his ostentatious collection of witchy hats and comfy sandals.

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Shart's Sharrite aesthetic

[cherrydanish]

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[ivan-fyodorovich-k]

the unpaid internships, the scraping up money to pay bills, the sleeping on couches, is actually how they separate (i.e., filter out) the poor

[ruhlare]

hey (with the intention to watch every studio ghibli movie with you)

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I played D&D yesterday at a board game store and I am still a bit shook from it. This isn't a D&D horror story but there's a few things I need to vent about.

- the DM who we did not know handed us character sheets. Apparently this had been agreed with the guy from my group who was arranging everything but he forgot to tell everyone?

- I never related more to a drag queen who gets the role on a ruchallenge they hate. I was forced to play a low charisma wizard whose whole thing was being religious. I did rly good and moved the plot along despite this horrible character, I killed it.

- Anyway straight men are animals they immediately go "IM ROGUE" "IM BARBARIAN". They don't even read the character description or backstory. Or ask me and the other girl in the group if we wanted to read the roles first??

- nobody was doing character voice 🫠 "he says x" "he asks why"-- I interrupted the other players to speak like the characters and they were just stuborn. Especially the straight men they barely used dialogue they only wanted to fight?

- one of the things I HATED the most was that I got a crystal (important plot device) and one of the straights says a) he wants to break it. I start *discussing* with the group that I don't think that's a good choice. B) suddenly the guy says "I take the crystal from her and save it on my things."

????

- me and the group and still discussing what to do with the crystal but the guy decides he takes it and doesn't need to roll or interact/ask me. He then triggers a boss to appear who wants the crystal.

- Before we can discuss as a group why we should give him the crystal the same guy throws the crustal at the guy??

- The DM who had obviously put some effort into describing the boss and voice for the boss just goes ok. I guess he leaves with the crystal then.

- the same guy says he wants to fight the boss. Not for the crystal. Just because he wants ti fight.

- I see the horror flash on the DMs eyes. This is obviously a very high level boss to fight later in the campaign. He even goes "are you sure..?" I save it by saying no obviously not. We already lost the crystal let's not get killed too. Dm says "good choice".

- playing in a boardgame store is horrible. There's so much noise. I have adhd and oh my god. Also dm said something rly serious to my character and I couldn't understand him and didn't wanna ask him to repeat himself bc he did character voice and it was a tense moment.

- straight men's characters kept trying to "go investigate on their own". Boy we just started the campaign??? Maybe idk we should stick together. One of them kept "I go way ahead of them" or "I go way in the back". Which triggered events without us being there yet. At some point the DM ignored the guy and just spoke like he was there with us too.

- I was the only one (aside from dm) actually roleplaying and doing voices.

- one of the guys was mad the dm didn't let him use his own figure on the map even though it was three times the size of the figures the dm had for us.

- I am 100% sure the men were angry I was the hero of the battle we had. (It was bush like creatures and I used burning hands... They were all upset at the dm when the attacks they used barely did anything. And I mean actually arguing.

Anyway I just to take this out of my chest. They also kept asking for feedback/compliments on WhatsApp and I was nice and said I rly liked meeting with them and the dm was way better than I had imaged. And the guy that stole my crystal without asking and almost ruined the game an off comment about me being "uncomfortable" because I didn't join them for dinner after (worded like an accusation)? 🫠 And didn't even say anything about me carrying the game and helping him with his fuck ups. But ok.

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the other girl dipped and now theyre asking if I wanna play again this weekend and ASISDJSJjs 😭 and its the guy who stole my crystal too and he worded it like "if you want" but got mad when i didnt respond?? and is tagging me on the group now.

to be this confident... self-assured... delulu straight men rly have no self-cringe-critical thinking ... they dont question themselves. We must harvest their powers....

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they asked if I can make it this Sunday and now they're saying they want to get rid of the DM after?? THE ONLY GOOD PLAYER???

I want to get the DMs number to ask if he's running any campaigns so I said yes(ₕₑₗₚ)

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does anyone remember these D&D horror stories I was posting a year ago? Anyway I left this on drafts but now I read it and got chills (the following happened on whatsapp before I left *that* group for good):

me: we shouldn't have repeated classes in the same group unless it's intentional. Having diverse skills helps the plot but also makes combat much more versatile. =)

straight-man#1 : I AM A BARBARIAN MAIN SINCE I WAS A LITTLE BOY. I play barbarian every game.

straight-man#2: I want to play rogue but I think straight man 3 also wants to play rogue. We can both be rogue.

straight-man#2: I only want rogue or ranger or monk.

me: I was thinking of going druid since I already made her character sheet including portrait and backstory. Specifically for this group. =)

straight-man#3: aw man I wanted to play druid. Are you sure you want to play druid?

me: oh. that's fine then, I can play something else. =)

straight-man#3: well now *I* feel bad bc I dont have anything prepared and you already have everything prepared. But I read something about spore druids and it piqued my interest even though I can't say for certain what it is or that I've prepared anything around it other than the thought that I want to play it. But I guess you can have it.........

me: it's ok. you can have it. =)

straight-man#3: ok.

straight-man#3: you know what I think I want to fight so I will be a paladin.

straight-man#2: the only thing that matters is killing anyway [[yes he rly worded it like this]]. just find a class you can wield a sword.

straight-man#1: sword bard is a thing. I will look into it so I can be a sword bard.

straight-man#3: bard is so useless. literally does nothing in battle

me: haha uh guys why are you all so focused on killing and battling?

straight-man#3: well I *WANTED* to go druid so I could focus on exploration instead of fighting.

me: =)

[24985uhjnetfoiuswhiejnklmpfos0]

fuck it 10 pm post we like to party

[moonkitty]

this video feels like seeing an old friend for the first time in a decade

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comments some tf2 person left on my profile (read bottom to top)

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Straight men trying to justify why they leave Astarion at camp and never make him part of the party

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being told chemo will last 6 months

being told I won't be able to eat ice cream for 6 months

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1 more month till ice cream........

[arthoesunshine]

i like to pretend i already died and asked god to send me back to earth so i can swim in lakes again and see mountains and get my heart broken and love my friends and cry so hard in the bathroom and go grocery shopping 1,000 more times. and that i promised i would never forget the miracle of being here

[makomoriz]

Encyclopedia of an Ordinary Life, Amy Krouse Rosenthal

[ashauyel]

I can’t stop making the noises tzuyang makes whenever she eats soup whenever I eat soup now like she’s RIGHT it’s good and I should be allowed to loudly exclaim about it

[apparently-artless]

i think it's quite amusing how the dish was shown using namari's perspective. before tasting it, she thought it wouldn't taste good and even thought of eating the stew as a form of punishment. right after tasting it, only then did the stew become vibrant in her eyes.