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overwhelmed: (adjective) to be overpowered or overcome by negative emotion (and please specify if ur asks are vents/suggestions)

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Franz Kafka, from Letters to Felice

[asoftwrongness]

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I try so fucking hard but they always leave. Every single time.

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i don’t care i don’t care i don’t care (im going to sob my fucking eyes out)

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Sometimes!! The Mental illnesses rly do make me experience Symptoms™️!!! Amd it takes me by surprise every fucking time

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Feel everything to fucking extremes. There's no such thing as "a little sad", there's only all consuming grief. Feel every little upset and annoyance as if it's the kind of rage you're only meant to feel once in your life. Feel that "hurt" as if it's the betrayal that shattered your heart.

And become numb after it all. It is all or nothing. It is being completely and utterly drowning in your emotions, or being so emotionless you can't remember what it is to feel.

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Why does everything have to change? Everytime I feel like I finally understand and have things under control, something else just comes along to rip everything apart again

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(( I turned 21 two days ago... i cant even comprehend that. I spent so long wanting to die, I never thought I would make it past 15, but here I am!

And I'm actually close to being happy! I'm glad I survived, and I'm glad I'm still fighting ))

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ive grown up religious too and im still kinda religious i havent really made up my mind in regards to my faith but because of that, i blocked out the idea of coming out to anybody ever a long time ago. in my case i dont think anyone will tolerate me. i WILL lose my life if im found out so i feel you.

Yeah that's the other thing too, it's so hard to work out where you stand with faith. How can you just stop believing in something that you've known your whole life, but at the same time how can you believe in something that has caused so much hate for you?

And I'm so so sorry it's that bad for you. I hope one day you will be able to safely come out and be who you are 💗

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The trauma of growing up religious (especially christian) and being LGBTQ+...

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To elaborate:

I'm in a sapphic relationship with a girl who's entire family is atheist, and my entire family is Christian (Catholic and Presbyterian). Our experiences with being LGBTQ+ are SO different....

My mum has known I'm gay for 5 years now, and told me "I'm worried this will ruin your friendship. Dont you want to just be good friends?". Even after I told her we were never friends, it was ALWAYS romantic, she still acted like I was ruining a friendship

I remember being 15 and after years of repressing my feelings for girls, finally realising I liked girls romantically. I remember crying so much. I remember asking my mum if I could go to confession, and rehearsing to myself every night how I would tell the priest I liked girls. How I would ask him to forgive me. How I would ask him to please fix me.

My girlfriend is travelling to my hometown for my birthday, so she can celebrate it with my family and me. I asked my dad if I should tell my grandparents and he said "please don't. Let me handle it". Because even though I'm their first grandchild, even tho we have special bonds and they watched me grow up... dad knows them well enough to know that they wouldn't accept me.

I went to a Catholic school as well. Everyone I knew was religious. Even when I accepted that I was gay and I was ok w it, it was terrifying trying to work out who to tell and how to tell them. I thought my sister would disown me. I thought my friends wouldn't talk to me. I prepared to be cut off from absolutely everyone because it's never exactly said, but if you grow up Christian, you know being gay is not ok.

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Please send in asks about your experiences too if you're ok with it. I kinda want to have a discussion about it all ya know

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The trauma of growing up religious (especially christian) and being LGBTQ+...

[overwhelmedsuggestion]

To elaborate:

I'm in a sapphic relationship with a girl who's entire family is atheist, and my entire family is Christian (Catholic and Presbyterian). Our experiences with being LGBTQ+ are SO different....

My mum has known I'm gay for 5 years now, and told me "I'm worried this will ruin your friendship. Dont you want to just be good friends?". Even after I told her we were never friends, it was ALWAYS romantic, she still acted like I was ruining a friendship

I remember being 15 and after years of repressing my feelings for girls, finally realising I liked girls romantically. I remember crying so much. I remember asking my mum if I could go to confession, and rehearsing to myself every night how I would tell the priest I liked girls. How I would ask him to forgive me. How I would ask him to please fix me.

My girlfriend is travelling to my hometown for my birthday, so she can celebrate it with my family and me. I asked my dad if I should tell my grandparents and he said "please don't. Let me handle it". Because even though I'm their first grandchild, even tho we have special bonds and they watched me grow up... dad knows them well enough to know that they wouldn't accept me.

I went to a Catholic school as well. Everyone I knew was religious. Even when I accepted that I was gay and I was ok w it, it was terrifying trying to work out who to tell and how to tell them. I thought my sister would disown me. I thought my friends wouldn't talk to me. I prepared to be cut off from absolutely everyone because it's never exactly said, but if you grow up Christian, you know being gay is not ok.

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The trauma of growing up religious (especially christian) and being LGBTQ+...

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I'm never fucking enough. It doesn't matter what I do or how hard I try I am never fucking enough

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God it's so fucking exhausting having all these emotions all the time

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((Today was the first day we didn't have to wear masks on the ward. The first day patients are allowed visitors again. And my god .. I don't think i really let myself think about how horrible it's been working in a hospital these past few months. One of my patients had her little grandson visit, and it's the first time I've seen her smile. I was able to communicate better to my patients coz they could see my smile. My patients who had visitors were so much more relaxed and calm. Hell, even being able to smile at the cleaners and doctors and other nurses in passing, and getting a smile back was great. ))

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Just a PSA: if you're starting to feel like your mental health has been going down the drain and feeling really low and fatigued and finding it hard to do stuff, please be kind to yourself.

My psych has told me she's seeing LOTS of people go into this state, and it's because all the adrenaline and anxiety and stress at the start of corona has been used up, and now your brain is going into a sort of depressive mode.

So please be kind to yourself, don't push yourself too hard and ask for extra support if you need it! !