Fly me to the moon

A thankful person who love to learn about anything

[owlwaysbe]

"Aku kok ga punya kerudung yang match sama baju ini ya mmm"

(meanwhile...)

"kok aku pake yang itu-itu aja sih. Eh kok ada warna ini, kainnya beda, model nya juga beda"

Dasar wanita~

[owlwaysbe]

Kuatnya manusia itu berbeda-beda, tergantung bagaimana mental dia terbentuk sejak kecil. Jangan disamakan, jangan dipukul rata. Kalau mengeluh masih dalam tahap wajar menurutku nggak masalah. Tapi ga berhenti di tahap mengeluh. Diimbangi dengan tindakan. Perbaikan bagaimana agar mengatasi apa yang dikeluhkan. Energi terbuang buat mengeluh lebih baik dilarikan mencari solusi kan ya. Kayak kata Tan Malaka: "Terbentur, terbentur, terbentur. Terbentuk."

[owlwaysbe]

Percakapan semalam pas terawih dengan seorang ibu yang saya tak kenal nama tapi familiar wajah karena sering satu shaf.

👩 : "Sendirian aja ?"

👧 : "oh enggak. Ada ibu tuh di belakang" (nunjuk ke arah belakang. Kebetulan datang duluan sebelum adzan)

👩 : "sampean siapanya ibu itu? Aku kenal tapi ga tau nama soale.."

👧 : "oh anaknya bu."

👩 : "kok ga mirip ya? Tak kira siapanya gitu sering liat"

👧 : (senyum-senyum) mau tak becandain jawab anak pungut nanti takut dianggep serius. Akhirnya ku jawab senyum.

👩 : "sampean di kodim ?"

👧 : "iya di kodim di belakang TK... Dulu tapi" terus aku ketawa

👩 : "aku di situ loh (ngejelasin alamat tinggal dekat sini, dekat itu)"

👧 : angguk-angguk, senyum (gatau itu dimana. Dijelasinnya area gang bukan kawasan asrama) Terus bilang rumah sekarang di Rinding

👩 : "jauh ya sampe sini"

👧 : "hehehhe"

👩 : "sampean SMA mana? Kelas berapa?"

👧 : (dalam hati penasaran apa ya sebab dikira anak SMA) "kelas XI Bu di SMANSA" Terus aku ralat sendiri takut dosa karena berkata tak benar.. Wkwk.. "Saya udah kerja bu.. Masih kayak anak SMA ya?"

👩 : "iya e.. Tak kira sampean masih SMA." Ibunya tertawa lalu lanjut bertanya "Kerja dimana sekarang?"

👧 : "yang jualan mie sedaap, daia, soklin smart bu"

👩 : "yang gudangnya di Bujangga itu ya"

👧 : aje gile ibu ini tau. Jarang yang langsung tau aku jawabnya singkat gitu. "iya bu.. Betul"

Aku secara tak langsung menyudahi percakapan dengan melakulan hal lain. Karena pasti bakal panjang lanjutannya.. Dan alhamdulillah kebetulan sudah adzan Isya..

14 Ramadhan 1440H

[owlwaysbe]

Women can be whatever they want to be, that’s what I think my example shows. All women should follow a career path that inspires and makes them happy

Aisha Al Mansouri

[owlwaysbe]

If you can't take it anymore

You might feel like you’ve reached your breaking point. You might feel like giving up. You might feel like you can’t handle another heartache, another disappointment, another day.

But you are going to get through this.

You are going to make it through today and then you are going to make it through tomorrow.

You might feel weak right now, because your pillows are tear stained or your body feels numb — but you are secretly stronger than you realize, because you are still breathing. You are still surviving. You are still alive, even though it seems like the entire world has been against you lately.

Even though you have been struggling, you are still here. You might have scars. You might have baggage. You might have less than you want. But you are here. And that is something to be proud of accomplishing. That is something you should never take lightly.

You are probably sick of hearing it gets better because it seems like things keep getting worse.

But here is the truth about that phrase, not the sugarcoated version: Things suck right now. And things are going to continue to suck for a little while. Your world won’t change overnight. Your sadness won’t disappear magically when you wake up in the morning.

There are going to continue to be days when you struggle to rise from bed. Days when you scream until your voice cracks. Days when you want the pain to disappear and do whatever it takes to get rid of it.

But over time, things will become a little less horrible. You will learn how to deal with your pain a little easier. You will learn how to smile a little wider and dream a little bigger.

One day, you are going to realize that you feel good. Not fine. Not okay. Good. Happy. Better.

Of course, healing isn’t a linear path. Tomorrow you might feel slightly better — and the next day you might feel worse again. That doesn’t mean that you are falling back toward rock bottom. It just means you had a bad day. Everyone has bad days. You can’t let them stop you from continuing to grow. To heal.

Right now, you might feel like there is no hope for you. But if you stick around for long enough, things will change. Things will get better.

One day, you are going to wake up inside of a home where you feel comfortable, beside a person who loves you like the stars.

One day, you are going to love yourself for who you authentically are instead of collecting more and more reasons to hate yourself.

One day, you are going to learn how to handle your problems without a bottle or needle or razor blade to guide you.

One day, you are going to look back on the pain you experienced and realize how strong you were for making it through so much bullshit.

One day, you are going to be thankful that you kept hanging on, because your life will form into everything you’ve ever wanted.

©Holly Riordan

[owlwaysbe]

Follow your heart, but take your brain with you

[owlwaysbe]

Pepatah berkata, “Lakukan hal yang kau sukai, sukai hal yang kau lakukan,” seolah simple dan mudah untuk dilakukan. Prakteknya di kehidupan luar biasa.

[owlwaysbe]

[owlwaysbe]

Seiring berjalannya waktu, teknologi semakin maju dan canggih. Apa yang menjadi angan-angan dalam benak kita dahulu, kini telah menjadi kenyataan. Dulu sewaktu masih SD begitu terpana melihat kecanggihan komputer layar tabung di rumah. Wah bisa apa aja ya benda berbentuk mirip televisi itu. Walau jujur aku hanya memakai program 3D pinball nya saja sudah kepalang senang sekali rasanya. Aku sabar sekali menunggu booting komputer ayah. Sungguh berbeda kecepatannya dengan komputer masa kini. Selang berapa lama ayah memiliki laptop yang windows 98 dan kalo tak salah memiliki slot disket. Walau tebal dan berat aku merasa dunia begitu canggih menciptakan komputer besar (seperti di rumah) dalam tentengan ayah setiap ke kantor atau pergi dengan rekannya. Tahun berganti tahun kebutuhan akan komputer pun berganti dengan komputer jinjing yang disebut laptop tersebut dan aku memiliki laptop sendiri sewaktu kuliah. Ah bahagianya kalo kuingat saat itu. “Aku merasa tak perlu laptop toh masih banyak warnet yang buka nanti sekitar Asrama putri.” maklum dulu siswa SMA masih bisa dihitung pakai jari yang memiliki laptop, dan kita tak terlalu membutuhkannya. PR dikerjakan di rumah dan jarang yang di Ms. Office, seringnya ditulistangan. Semenjak kuliah saya tertarik dengan dunia video editing dan design grafis. Dengan tim film dokumenter beberapa kali menang kontes film dokumenter tingkat fakultas dan universitas. Sayang beberapa waktu terakhir aku tidak lagi mengedit-ngedit dan membuat video lagi karena laptop saya udah udzur dan tak mumpuni buat running. Lag nya sungguh menguji kesabaran. Jangankan running app video, buat booting start saja lama sekali. Karena tiap kali aku pencet tombol start muncul layar blue screen. Butuh sekitar 30-45 menit untuk start. Dan banyak huruf keyboardnya udah ga berfungsi! Hahaha. Could you imagine?😂 Waktu surfing di internet untuk referensi laptop baru aku nemuin artikel di tirto dan sindo kalo ada produk namanya Asus VivoBook Flip TP410. O MY GOD O MY GOD. My dream is real. Laptop ini bisa dilipat-lipat, transformasi ke empat bentuk, laptop biasa, diputar 360 derajat jadi tablet dan standing display. Bisa touchscreen juga! Oh i want to propose you to be mine...

(aku menemukan tulisan ini di draft tumblr, bahan untuk giveaway DR bekerjasama dengan asus tahun 2018 awal tapi tak jadi mengikutinya karena satu dan lain hal)

Seakan mestakung.. Beberapa bulan kemudian. Saat aku sedang di masa mengenal diri sendiri dan bertanya apa yang sebenarnya kamu mau dan cari.. Aku sudah mulai lupa dengan tulisan di draft tumblr ini.

Ayah tiba-tiba membawa laptop dengan type yang sama persis dengan yang ada di benakku. Aku tak pernah menceritakan hal ini ke siapapun. Allahu Akbar. Allah sungguh Maha Baik. Melalui ayahku aku dapat memilikmu.. Aku tak enak sekali rasanya. Beliau begitu memahami dan mengertiku😭

I promise to make you always happy and proud of me, dad. Give me time and the opportunity to make it comes true..

Can i have a partner of life like you? Ayah serbabisa, tegas, disiplin, fun, asik diajak ngobrol tapi agak canggung mengungkapkan rasa sayangnya karena bahasa kasih ayah itu bukan physical affection. I love youu!💓

Maaf aku masih suka menjadi anak yang semaunya sendiri😔

16 April 2019

[owlwaysbe]

When the snows fall and the white winds blow, the lone wolf dies, but the pack survives

Northern quote

[owlwaysbe]

If anyone ask me

Q : Could you describe yourself in one sentence?

I answered it with..

"I am passionate committed 100% of every single thing that i am doing."

[owlwaysbe]

Hi! it's been awhile.

I never write anything lately.

It was battle for me, everyday.

And i lost the time to explore myself. To read and know the old me is treasure. So i will write anything that come in my mind. Mostly random things.

Cheers.

[nisakhairunnisa]

Menemukan ini dari postingan teman, rangkuman salah satu kajian ustadz Adi Hidayat. Entah siapa yang buat ini, tapi MasyaAllah bermanfaat, semoga menjadi catatan amal kebaikan.

[haniiin]

It’s not easy to always have strong faith. In fact, we weren’t created to constantly feel that bond with our Creator. But that’s the challenge. That’s the test of this life. Here are some tips on how I help lessen the distance I sometimes feel between me & my beautiful Allah:

1. Know it’s simply a test It’s nothing more, don’t overthink it. We were put on this earth to be tested. The whole purpose of this life is to be put through trials & tribulations sent down from Allah to see how we’re going to react. Are you gonna give up & let the doubt define your relationship with Allah? Or are you gonna fight through it & prove your trust in the One that created you? And low faith isn’t necessarily a bad sign. If He gave up on you, He wouldn’t care to test you. And by feeling low on faith, that means you had strong faith at one point; you’re just in a moment of weakness. This is temporary.

2. Don’t tell yourself that you’ve lost Don’t convince yourself that it’s too late. Some people underestimate the impact of the things you tell yourself. If you say to yourself that you lost—you did. But you are in control of your own thoughts, tell yourself you’re gonna push through this. Because He has blessed you too much for you to not fight for this relationship with Him. It’s all about will-power. Where there’s a will, there’s a way. Cliché—but very, very true.

3. Open His book One of the challenges in believing in Allah is the fact that He doesn’t talk to you directly. There’s no face-to-face interaction. Obviously, that’d defeat the purpose of ‘faith’ if He were to show Himself. But that’s why He left us the Qur'an, His exact words. So why wouldn’t you read the one physical, undeniable proof of His entire existence? Try opening it to a random page. Just start reading and see what He wants to tell you. You never know, the answer to your doubt might just appear right in front of you.

4. Make a list of ways He has blessed you A literal list, on paper (or Google Doc like me). Write down all the things He has blessed your life with. From the small to the big. Your health, the fact that you woke up this morning, your car, your job, the fact you had a good day, your parents, your siblings, your friends, your education, your computer, your phone, your full stomach, your spouse, your sight, your bed, your house. Just keep writing. Then think about those out there in the world that don’t have what you have. Allah blesses you every single day, & you don’t even realize it.

5. Make a list of wrongs you have committed Now, make another list—but this time with things you aren’t proud of (I recommend making sure nobody sees this one…it should always stay between you & Allah). Write any sins you might’ve committed. You yelled at your mom. You haven’t prayed in days. You did something with the opposite sex. As uncomfortable as it is to openly tell yourself you’ve sinned, just think deep & put it in writing for your eyes to physically see. The reason you feel low on faith might just be because of one of the things you wrote down. Maybe you’re subconsciously beating yourself up because you know you did something that He doesn’t like. When you’re done, start repenting. Ask Him for His forgiveness with the truest intentions. He’s listening, & He is forgiving you as you’re asking of Him.

6. Do Jama’ah prayer Listen to the khotbeh. You never know when the message might hit right at your heart. Sometimes it might not, but even just the surrounding of other Muslims praying with you might give you the strength you needed. Praying side-by-side, shoulder-to-shoulder, as a wall of believers bowing down to their Creator. As a community of people that love Him—asking for His guidance to the straight path that leads to Him. Join them.

7. Understand that Allah loves you, unconditionally Allah is the one the made you. He created you, exactly as you are. Your existence itself is proof that He loves you, He took time to craft you. Think about how forgiving He is. As many times as you mess up, He’ll be there to forgive you the moment you ask for His forgiveness. That’s the definition of unconditional love. Just think about that concept.

8. Stay strong with your 5 prayers, & understand what you’re saying If you don’t understand what you’re reciting during prayer—go read the translations. You can’t believe in words you don’t understand. So when you pray, really believe what you’re saying. And even if you don’t feel the prayer, still do it. By doing so, you’re proving to Him that even though you don’t fully feel it, you’re still doing it because He asked you to. Show Him your try at unconditional love. That just might be the proof you’ve past His test, and maybe the ticket for Him to place that connection back in your heart.

9. Visualize heaven & eternity Imagine what it would be like to make it to paradise. How easy your life would be, and not for something temporary like this life. Something that will last forever…where you’re never gonna die. Sometimes it’s hard for us humans to comprehend the concept of eternity because everything in this life has an end. But really think deep about the idea of eternity. Eternity in heaven compared to eternity in hellfire.

10. Surround yourself with faithful friends We humans are like sponges, we absorb whoever we choose to surround ourselves with. Some people say that they don’t lose their faith and don’t budge on their beliefs when surrounded by faithless people. You might not become less faithful, but you definitely won’t get more faithful. It also goes back to the idea of community in number 6—sometimes your faith can get inspired just by seeing and hearing others talk about their faith.

11. Fast for a day Sawm—another one of the five pillars, another act of worship. You know what it’s like to fast during Ramadan, it’s an automatic sense of closeness to Allah. So try it, even out of Ramadan. Fasting clears your head, it reprioritizes everything in your life because you’re ignoring and not giving into the urges of your body, rather feeding your mind and soul instead.

12. Go out in nature Go to the outskirts of town, to the open fields. Out in nature. Watch a sunset. Watch a sunrise. Lie on the grass & just watch the sky, dissect the clouds. Pray on the ground, bow your head onto His earth. Watch the birds above. Breath in the fresh air. Feel the warmth of the sun on your skin. Absorb the earth that God created for you to live in. Feel His presence in His designs. Let that be the bridge to feeling His existence. Try going on a road trip to a nature site. I had a completely new level of love for Allah when I had body rafting at mega mendung. These 'nature trips’ are now an annual thing for me. It’s become a need for me.

13. Sit at the masjid alone, & reflect on your purpose in this life Go in between the prayers when there’s nobody there. Just sit and think. Think about Allah’s greatness. How forgiving He is. How generous He is. Think about why you’re on this earth. Essentially, He put us here temporarily to test us & see if we’re worthy of making it to His eternal heaven. Remind yourself of that. Feel the beauty in sitting in a place where thousands of Muslims have gotten their prayers answered. Now ask for yours.

14. Do good deeds Ask how the cashier at the store is doing. Smile at a stranger. Help an elderly woman carry her grocery bags. Volunteer at an animal shelter. Help the poor, give them your used clothes. Try joining an organization that feeds the homeless. Don’t underestimate the power of helping others. When have you ever felt bad for doing something good for someone else? Follow the steps of our Prophet (pbuh), he dedicated his life to helping others.

15. Read His 99 names I feel like He gave us this list of names to help us understand how He can help you when you need it. When you lose faith—The Restorer, The Inspirer of Faith. When you don’t feel safe—The Guardian. When you don’t feel understood—The All-Comprehending. When you feel it’s too late—The Most Forgiving, The Most Merciful. Read them, understand them. It’ll help you understand His role in your life, in this life.

16. Start a new chapter in your life, change your daily routine Wake up tomorrow & tell yourself, “today is the beginning of a new chapter in my life,” then ask Allah to guide your new life to the path of His liking. Then start doing things differently. Change your daily routine. Start taking a different route to school or work. Try a new restaurant. Get away from things that make you unhappy. If you don’t like your job, find one that you do. Think differently, put yourself if other people’s shoes—imagine your life as the janitor at your work. Just do things differently from your last chapter. Sometimes people can confuse a weakening of faith with unhappiness. Monotony can be a burden so change it up, it’s a new you.

17. Forgive your past & those who’ve wronged you Don’t let any ill-feelings sit in your chest. Let go of any wrongs you’ve done, once you’ve asked for forgiveness from Him—the matter is done, don’t let it even be a thought. If someone has wronged you, reconcile, and forgive them. It could be your friend, your coworker, even your parent. Everyone makes mistakes, try to understand them, and let go of that resentment you hold for them. This a new chapter in your life, these are all new relationships.

18. Listen to different Qur'an styles We’ve been blessed to have intonation (similar to singing) of the Qur'an as a part of our religion. For me, there’s nothing like hearing the style of Ahmed Al-Ajmi. Even when I don’t fully understand what’s being said, I feel the connection to Allah just by the melody. There about 9 main melody styles called “maqamat.” Each having a unique range of notes that portray all different kinds of emotions. Listen to the difference between the athan in Maqam Hijaz and Maqam Kurdi. There’s one called maqam bayyati that brings me to tears, every time. It hits my heart and I can’t hold back the tears from simply feeling Allah’s words, even if I don’t know what’s said.

19. Learn more about the religion Read up on strong Hadith & Sunnah of the Prophet (pbuh). Learn about Islamic history. Stories of the prophets. Learn from their actions and words. Our Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) is supposed to be our guide to what a good Muslim is, follow him.

20. The most important one—Talk to Him I can’t stress this enough.  So how do you expect to have a relationship with Allah when you never talk to Him? Yes, prayer is key, but your duaa’ is where your personal relationship with Allah lives. After prayer, just talk to Him. Tell Him what’s on your mind. Tell Him you’re frustrated at home. You’re unhappy with school or work. Give thanks for His blessings. Ask for forgiveness for your wrongs. Tell Him you’re sorry. Tell Him you’re working on being a better Muslim. Talk as if He’s standing right in front of you, essentially, He is. He’s always listening. Even out of prayer, when you feel frustrated anywhere—close your eyes & make a quick prayer directly asking Him to help you. He’s always listening. Make Allah the center of your life. Sustain yourself through His strength.

I’ve been waiting so long to write this for y'all. I’ve gotten countless messages asking me how I personally keep my faith up.  I truly hope this helps you find the love for Him that I have found.

May He (Allah) always be with you, take care my friends ❤️

[taufikaulia]

Dosa adalah penghalang kebaikan. Maka ketika kamu menemukan dirimu sudah jarang baca Al-Qur'an, jarang bangun malam, jarang puasa sunnah, dan terlambat shalat subuh, jangan-jangan ada dosa yang menghalangimu.

— Taufik Aulia

[owlwaysbe]

Reminder for me

[taufikaulia]

Yang menyedihkan selama ini adalah kita gak pernah sedih soal akhirat, kita selalu sedih soal dunia.

— Taufik Aulia

[owlwaysbe]

Take a moment. Sit back. Marvel at your life: at the grief that softened you, at the heartache that widened you, at the suffering that strengthened you. Despite everything, you still grow. Be proud of this.