little lord fuckleroy

meg. 20. she/her. leo. a plant that grows on rocks.

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i love connor roy so dearly

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well personally i choose to believe that kendall quit business after the finale to pursue his music career

[brookheimer]

shiv was not being altruistic nor intellectually self-interested when she voted against kendall. that was pure raw visceral desperation to maintain some semblance of dignity that she felt kendall being ceo would shred her of. sometimes people do not act in other people’s best interests or their own best interests. sometimes people do the wrong thing for the wrong reasons just because it feels like the right, the only, thing to do. shiv could not let kendall be ceo. she just couldn’t. not because she wanted to sacrifice herself to “stop the cycle,” not because she made a calculation and decided tom was her best interest — because the thought of kendall being ceo and acting like That the rest of their lives when shiv earned that job, she fucking earned it, that was too much to fucking bear. watching him sit in dad’s chair, conduct that vote, grin with entitlement and cockiness and certainty — seeing that elicited a visceral painful all-consuming sensation not dissimilar to overwhelming nausea that, summed up in two words, would simply be: fuck. no. she couldn’t live with that. she just couldn’t. it’s not kind. it’s not smart. it’s just human. painfully, destructively human. because sometimes, that’s all there is to it. not just for shiv, but for everyone. god knows roman and kendall have had those same feelings, made those same self-destructing yet necessary-feeling decisions throughout the show. why does it have to be different for shiv? why can’t she be painfully destructively human, prone to impulsive ill-conceived viscerally felt actions, like everyone else? why are we incapable of allotting her the same nuance and humanity (the good and the bad), the same trauma-informed self-destructive life-ruining hamartias, as we do her brothers? why can’t we fit a whole woman in our heads?

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real.

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and i fear that kendall was always doomed no matter what. if he had become ceo it would have only been an affirmation that it was the only thing he was made for. he would have lived and died for the approval of forces external because that’s who logan made him. but i’m optimistic for him too. i feel that he could break the cycle, follow roman out into the light, start to become a real human person. naomi was right when she said that logan only loved the broken kendall, because that’s the version of kendall that logan created. tragic, damaged, always looking up from a dark place at an ideal he can’t reach. for so long he’s been living as an effigy of his father because he thought that’s what he had to be. i hope to god he finds all the pieces of himself, puts them together, turns away from all of it. i love you kendall roy

[oxford-comma-enjoyer]

saying tom “won” is disingenuous because it implies that becoming ceo of waystar is winning in the first place. if we’re assigning a winner, it’s unequivocally roman. it’s ambiguous as to what happens to him, and there’s still a certain amount of pain in the final smile he gives but i think he’s the closest to being free out of all of them. at its core, succession is about the cycle of trauma and abuse as it plays out in each respective characters’ insatiable lust for power and this pursuit has only wrought pain time and time again. there’s a reason none of the kids have ever “won” on these terms, because the system of abuse works actively against them every time and their participation only feeds into it. “winning” is not success on the terms of the abuser. “winning” is walking away from the table and choosing not to play.

[endiness]

1.01 // 4.10

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he’s free

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there’s actually no way ppl like this exist😭😭

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oh those video essay guys on youtube are gonna HATE this

[humanveil]

SUCCESSION (2018 – 2023) season finales + final shots

There sat down, once, a thing on Henry's heart só heavy, if he had a hundred years & more, & weeping, sleepless, in all them time Henry could not make good. Starts again always in Henry's ears the little cough somewhere, an odour, a chime. And there is another thing he has in mind like a grave Sienese face a thousand years would fail to blur the still profiled reproach of. Ghastly, with open eyes, he attends, blind. All the bells say: too late. This is not for tears; thinking. But never did Henry, as he thought he did, end anyone and hacks her body up and hide the pieces, where they may be found. He knows: he went over everyone, & nobody's missing. Often he reckons, in the dawn, them up. Nobody is ever missing. — Dream Song 29, John Berryman.

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me before the finale: “guys the cycle is definitely gonna keep going 🙄🙄”

me when the cycle keeps going: 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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she kendall on my roman till i shiv

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tiktok is trying to kill me

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i have to find out who wrote “he couldn’t fit a whole woman in his head” and give them the sloppiest most beautiful passionate kiss. i can never repay you for finding a phrase for what i’ve been trying to voice about so many men and people in general in my life for so so long.

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“is he in there? can we get him out?”

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real footage of me after watching roman become a real life human dam bursting in the middle of his fathers funeral. coincidentally, this is also real footage of roman in that final riot scene. kieran culkin emmy now

[uncertainregard]

“my god, I hope it’s in me” KENDALL!! THE CYCLE KENDALL!!

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help i didn’t realize that alan ruck was the kid from ferris bueller nor did i realize kieran culkin was in scott pilgrim until just now😭😭😭