MANAHIMIK KA

 "WORDS AND THOUGHTS THAT CAN'T BE VERBALIZED"  * Life x Art x Reality x Dreams x Quest x Sound* //Singer - Song Writer\\

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You gave up.

So did I.

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hi.

I, need, a hug, from, someone, who, understands.

So, I, give, myself, a hug.

-style inspired by Jose Garcia Villa-

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Shout out to the person who always makes me smile; the person who always makes me laugh at everything that’s not normally funny; the person who makes me weird because he’s weird; the person who eats lunch with me; the person who would not hesitate to spend money just to eat dinner with me;

Hey, I like the way you hold my hands and hug me the way I can’t breathe; why are you so dumb? I always hurt you with words coming out of my mouth; words that were not part of your world before, and still, you give me the love that I don’t deserve?

Why welcome me to your life? when I’m pushing you away with my words that you don’t deserve? Why welcome me to your life when my personality doesn’t deserve to be welcomed by you? just, why?

Am I too selfish? For I’m giving you my love the way that’s hurting you? For I ask you to do things that I want for you? Am I?

If that so, I’m sorry. I know, I’m guilty. My attitude doesn’t fit yours. It’s not easy to reach your level.

Why are you so kind to me? I mean, why do you love me like it’s forever? What have I done to deserve you? You really are a soft-hearted person, don’t you know that?

So many things that have happened to us, and counting; and still, you’re never giving up on me. There’s so many people that I can be with; So many friends that surround me; but still, it’s you that I want to be with. I don’t know why, and I don’t know how it became like this, But a day without you at places that we’ve already reached feels like a burden to me. So many people, so many faces; but still, it’s you that I want to be with.

Hey, I love you. 

7-23-17 (1:01 am)

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First of all, I don’t want to say it not because I really don’t want to say it, but it’s because I can’t say it. 

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Who would be happy?

Who would be happy? if it's Christmas and he's not with you. Who would be happy? if you're browsing on Facebook and all you see are photos of people with their love ones; with them captions "with bae", "with my one and only", and such. Who would be happy? If you're celebrating Christmas with all the important persons in your life, when in fact you're thinking about him all day. Who would be happy? If you're having a good time with your family, but time to time, you're hiding in a corner just to chat him because that's the only way to reach him. Who would be happy? If you're telling him stories about the happy moments in your family, but you can't make him belong. Who would be happy? If you've already received and opened all your gifts but still you can't be with him this holiday season. Who would be happy? If you really want to take him to church this holiday season for thanksgiving and you have no choice but to pray alone. Who would be happy? Would you? Would I? Yes, I would. I know he can't be with me this season. I can't take photos with him this season and post them on social media. I can't celebrate this season with him. I can't introduce him to my family. I know these plagues are only just for now. But why am I happy? It's because I know that the Lord is preparing us for the future; the planned future; the future when all the happiness will be found. Soon, the chance will be given to me; the chance to make my dreams come true. I thought I was lonely. But as I was writing this letter, I found the answers. No, I was not lonely. I am happy. Yes, I am. I know that there are waiting more gifts for me to be opened. I know that those gifts are not for this season. I am happy. I'm celebrating this season with my family and with my friends. I love them so much. Soon, they will know him.  Soon, he will belong. For now, all we can do is to wait and be patient. Life has a schedule. Life is life, and you can't change what is on your planner; the planner that's not yours but God's. Yes. I'm happy with that.

-Thoughts for Christmas 2016

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And as I looked up into those eyes, his vision borrows mine.  And I know he’s no stranger, for I feel I’ve held him for all of time

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boyzn poizn

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who can understand the way I understand myself? hahaha

[inspiration-daily]

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So I just wanna be your homie Call you up when I get lonely At least until you get to know me I just wanna be your homie

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You know I never call when I'm falling in love

Boyz n Poizn

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I can’t feel it :(

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Ne me quitte pas

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“Why is it when I’m helpless, you leave? Maybe it’s because you want me to take care of myself but I don’t. You leave because you want me to help myself. But I’m helpless. And still, you leave.”

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"Why is it when I'm helpless, you leave? Maybe it's because you want me to take care of myself but I don't. You leave because you want me to help myself. But I'm helpless. And still, you leave."

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“when will you learn how to feel what someone feels?” -slap mah butt if I myself don’t know how to..

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Oh. I hate this. Good night. |.| |.|