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Tsuyu hosted a sleep over at her room and all of Class 3-A girls are invited.ย Obviously, a sleep over won't be complete without fluffy cushions, games, gossips and a special mention of Yaoyorozu's tea.
You guys have been playing truth or dare for a while, it's just you and Uraraka that hasn't got their turns which makes you uneasy. You honestly don't know what Mina would ask you to do and you've already seen the things the girls did. One thing's for sure, this woman is scary.
"So...... Izuku right?" Mina asked as she turned to Uraraka who's face is now turning bright red.
"I don't like where this is going" Uraraka replied, trying to hide her flushed face in the palm of her hands, which activated her quirk, causing her to float around the room.
Mina giggled a little maniacally at Ochaco's words. In her head, she's thinking of all the things she would have her do, but you know she won't torment the poor girl that much. The pink haired removed "truth" as a choice because according to her, that's no fun at all. The girls agreed, including you, which you kind of regret now.
"So the dare is--" she paused, thinking for a second. "You need to send Midoriya a selfie. You can't tell him it's for a dare tho" this made Uraraka groan as she sat back beside Jirou.ย
"Oh! You need to ask his opinion about your new necklace as well" Hagakure added and Yaoyorozu agreed. The girls gave each other a high five while Uraraka let out a defeated sigh.
She opened her front camera and positioned the phone above her head, tugging on the chain slightly. She showed us the picture before sending it to Izuku. The picture was rather suggestive in your opinion; the angle made her necklace pop up, but the top part of her bossom is visible in the background, it didn't help that her face is a little red in the photo as well.ย ย
Uraraka:ย ย *Sent a photo*ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย Deku-kun, what do you think of new my necklace?ย
"Now we wait" Mina cheerfully said and turned to you "You've been awfully quiet y/n" you can't help but to notice that grin plastered on her face and you know damn well she's up to no good.
"Let's get this over with" you told her with a sigh. You just wanted to quickly finish whatever suffering she's going to put you through.
Jirou pulled out her phone, searched for something before handing it to Mina. While they were busy discussing something, you nervously turned to Momo who's currently adjusting the eyeglasses he took from Iida "Can I back out?"ย but she just gave you a cheeky smile and a pat on the shoulder. "Goodluck"ย
Momo was the first one to be dared; her dare was to walk up to Iida, grab his glasses, wear it in front of him and walk away without saying anything. Tsuyu was dared to sit on Shoji's lap for 20 minutes. Hagakure had to confess on her long time crush, Ojiro, and lastly, Jirou was dared to shower Denki with praises for 10 minutes straight. Mina, on the other hand, was dared to kiss Bakugo on the cheeks, and you can already guess what happened next.ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย
A phone was shoved into your line of sight. "You need to do this" Mina said while she pointed at the phone with a video playing. You look at her horrified but she just laughed at your face.ย
"But with who?" Tsuyu asked.
"Todoroki" Uraraka grinned.ย
"Yep. Definitely Todoroki." Jirou crossed her arms and nodded while her eyes are closed.ย
You looked at them confused.ย Although you do have aย crush on Shoto, you have never told anyone about it nor show even a slight interest at him. You can feel your face heat up at the sudden realization that your friends knows about your little crush on him all along.ย
You sighed in defeat and just accepted the dare. What can possibly go wrong, right?
"We'll be watching" Mina winked at you as you guys marched towards the common area where the boys are hanging out. The girls stopped by the stairs, peeking a little. You made your way towards the couch where Kirishima and Shoto are sitting.ย ย
"Yo, y/n" Kiri greeted you and you just replied with a nod.
You sat beside Shoto who was munching on a chocolate chip cookie. He offered you a piece which you happily took and ate beside him.ย
"Oh this is good! Who made this?" you asked.
"I made it" Shoto turned to you. "I asked Kirishima and Bakugo to teach me" you nodded and quickly look away. You quietly scanned the whole room; Kiri and Shoto are minding their own business eating the cookies Shoto made, the Baku-squad are playing a video game while Izuku and the others are playing a monopoly game, though Izuku isn't really playing, he's just staring at the screen of his phone, looking very red.ย
You can't help but to chuckle to yourself. You quickly glanced towards the girls and Mina mouthed "now". Unbeknownst to you, Kiri was also looking at the girls direction, when your eyes landed on him, he gave you a confused look and you just replied with an apologetic look. His mouth turned into a circle when realization hits him.
'A game huh' he mouthed and you answered with a nod.
"Shoto" you turned to him.
"Yes?"ย
"Can we--" here goes nothing "make...love?" You can see Kirishima choke on his cookie in your peripheral vision.
"Make love?" he asked, confused.ย
You nodded. You can feel your face heat up. You looked away, not wanting to see the look on Shoto's face, you mentally wished that the couch would swallow you up because of the embarassment you feel.
You don't know what Shoto's response will be, but knowing him, you're sure he'll be nice at least. You mentally braced yourself for a rejection you're about to face. Or so you thought.
"Sure, but do we even have the ingredients for that?"ย
"What?" You and Kirishima said in unison.ย
Shoto looked at you two, confusion visible on his face.ย
"This is the first time I've heard about that dish" he stated. Kirishima snorted and finally let out the laugh he's been holding for so long, while you bit your inner cheek to hold back yours. Shoto on the other hand, ignored the red head and called Bakugo instead.
"Bakugo, can you send me the ingredients for love?" he asked as he pulled out his phone and started searching for the dish called love.ย
"What the fuck, Icy-Hot?!" Bakugo yelled, his eyes landed on Shoto, his face looking like he just heard the stupidest thing in the world. This took the attention of your other classmates as well.
His gaze left his phone, he quickly looked at you then at Bakugo "Y/n said they wanted to make lov-" you hurriedly jumped from your seat to cover Shoto's mouth.ย
"Ah! Oh my gosh don't mind him! It's a dare!" You half shouted.ย Your classmates just laughed at you, you can feel your face heat up due to embarrassment.ย
'Screw you Mina' you thought to yourself.
"Didn't know you're freaky like that y/n" Denki teased you. The others gave you a teasing look as well.
"It's a dare!" You shouted in horror.ย
"Sure, if you say so" he and the others laughed and get back to playing again. Kirishima, who's laughing with the others, stood up and bid farewell to the both of you. "I'll leave you guys to your own business" he said with a wink.ย
You just sighed. You're pretty sure all of your classmates will be teasing you for the next few days.ย
"Y/n" Shoto mumbled under your hand.ย
You quickly removed your hand from his mouth and apologized. "Sorry" you said awkwardly as you sat back on your spot again.
He just hummed. Silence took over the both of you. You quietly glanced towards the stairs and the girls are nowhere to be seen. They must've gone back to Tsuyu's room. You contemplated whether to go back to her room or not.ย
You let your eyes wander and it stopped at his phone, a search tab was open and it was an article about "make love". You turned to face Shoto, you opened your mouth to explain about the dare, but before you can say something, he pulled you by the collar of your shirt and gave you a peck on the lips.ย
You stared at him, wide eyed.
"I can't exactly give you what you want right now but I'm pretty sure a kiss will suffice?" he said.
"Wha-" he kissed you again. This time it was longer, until it was interrupted when a throw pillow hit the back of his head.ย
"Get a room you fucking dumbasses!!" it was Bakugo.ย
Great.
You gave him a middle finger and was about to talk back when Shoto pulled you away from the scene and lead you towards the second floor.ย
"Where are we going?" you asked.
"Getting a room" he opened the door to his room and shoved you inside.
"Looks like I'm gonna have to give you what you want after all" he smiled at you and locked the door.
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- he leans more towards sub, but he can be a soft dom when needed to
- lets you guide him through it
- gets nervous and overstimulated quickly
- moaning mess, gets shy about it at first but you reassure him that you like it and he goes crazy with it, he mumbles, whines and whimpers a lot
- i feel like he would lean more on the girthy side and is average
- he can only hold out for so long so he cums quick but he has the stamina to hold out for 4 or 5 rounds
- gives the best aftercare, bathes with you, cuddles, snacks, anything you want.
โare you sure about this, izuku?โ you ask wanting to make sure heโs comfortable. โmhm, please keep goingโ he says while heโs shaking, you can tell he canโt control it but he canโt help it, heโs never been touched by a woman before. you put your hands around his neck slowly moving them down to his shoulders where you held yourself up as you grinder against his dick, you both have been doing this for a while, feeling each others naked bodies rut against each other. โare you ready for me?โ you whisper against his ear. he mumbles lowly while nodding his head, shutting his eyes waiting for it. you plop yourself down on his dick and you lost him. he starts shaking and hid in the crook of your neck as he whined, it all felt like so much. heโs never felt this good in his life, he thought to himself. he felt your tight pussy squeeze around you and he swears he sees stars, โf-fuck, itโs so much y/nโฆi donโt know if i can hold up much longer..โ he mumbles, kissing you rapidly against your neck.
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katsuki bakugou
- itโs your first time, heโs experienced
- he canโt help his rough demeanor and is used to being aggressive so it takes a lot out of him to be gentle but he wants both of you to have a good experience
- he likes being in charge but heโs all about your pleasure, loves fingering you, loves having his tongue inside of you, loves doing anything that will make you feel good
- tries his best to reassure that he wonโt hurt you, โiโll go easy on yaโ donโt gotta worry babeโ โiโm gonna take care of you sweet girlโ
- grunts, groans, and every now and then he will moan and hear a slight whimper when he cums
- he will be submissive if you make it a challenge like saying โyou probably wouldnโt be any good submissive anywaysโ
- girthy, veiny and a little above average, heโs a chunk of meat
- heโs a good cook so he will cook for you afterwards and watch you fall asleep as you watch a movie together.
heโs already made you cum twice from his fingers and tongue, he gets up licking your juices off your fingers as he leans in to give you kisses on your neck as he lays you on your back. being the only one naked, you start to softly tug and look down at his sweatpants where you can see his noticeable bulge begging to be freed. a small smirk appears on his face as he releases himself from his sweats, seeing his hard cock springing out. you blush at the sight and he teases you, โlike what you see?โ which only makes you try and hide your face. he presses his tip against your entrance, โyou sure about this?โ he asks pressing light kisses on your cheeks. you nod but that wasnโt enough for him, โnuh uh, wanna hear it from that pretty mouth of yoursโ he looks you in your eyes. โyes, want you to take my virginity katsโ and he smiles as he enters you, causing both of you to tense up and moan. โfuck, sucking me in so much babeโ he waits for you to become comfortable around his length before starting up his thrusts.
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shoto todoroki
- itโs both of your first time
- he doesnโt exactly have a preference, he doesnโt have a high sex drive so heโs okay with whatever you want, he doesnโt particularly know what to do but he trusts you with his body. once you guys get used to having sex more often, he gets comfortable initiating and taking charge.
- he doesnโt know if heโs supposed to make sounds, heโs never watched porn but when you hit certain spots, he will start breathing hard and if you listen closely you can hear a slight moan.
- before you two had sex, you had given him a blow job and the sensation of putting his cock inside your mouth was weird at first but eventually he got used to it and learned to like it as he would involuntarily buck his hips forward to get deeper in your mouth.
- his cock is a bit more on the skinny side but heโs long, longer than katsuki and izuku. with a bright pink tip and pale base.
- he falls asleep after sex, he isnโt aware of aftercare but you both just end up napping afterwards and he will wrap his arm around you in habit.
shotos eyes follow as you trail your fingers down his bare chest as he towers on top of you. his eyes moves down to your bare chest in front of him and you give him a light smile. โdo you want to touch them shoto?โ you ask and he turns his eyes back at you and a slight blush appeared on his face, โcan i put my mouth on your breast?โ he asks for permission as you nod petting his hair as he smiles before trailing kisses down your chest before grabbing one and sucking softly on the nipple as he plays with the other one. he doesnโt know what about sucking your tits fascinated him so much but he started to grind his hips down on your clothed panties. after a while of repeating this motion, he lifts his face up and asks, โi want to have sexual intercourse with you, if thatโs okayโ. you tell him thatโs okay and he starts taking off your panties and pulling down his pants after. you grab his dick in your hand and put it in between the lips of your pussy, gliding the tip against your wetness and he starts breathing harder as he grinds his hips down against it, โi want you to put it inside me nowโ you tell him as you wrap your hands in his hair as he puts his head down to your neck and you press a soft kiss against his cheek. โokay. iโm putting it in now, i promise iโll go slowโ
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denki kaminari
- itโs both of your first times
- itโs chaotic. you both think you know what your doing, you both DO NOT.
- yโall both donโt have a preference, after a while of having sex more often you will both switch roles but the first time is just pure chaos, yโall are both too busy trying to figure it out than actually getting to that
- denki does all of the above, moans, groans, whines, whimpers, barks, you resist the urge to slap him from the childish remarks he makes (he is so brainrotted it isnโt even funny)
- โzoo wee mama, youโre bad as fuck maโ โdenki please stop talkingโ
- his shit is girthy and average, not anything too special, he calls it his lightning rod
- heโs a baby after sex so he demands you do everything for him and baby him because he claims he did all the work like the alpha male he is (he didnโt do shit)
โfuck y/n this feels so good, youโre so tightโ he says as he grunts against your neck leaving a small smack on your ass, โdenki, thatโs my thigh.โ you say plainly as he stops and looks down laughing, โoh shit, my fault, iโll put it in now!โ he says leaving a quick kiss on your lips as he makes sure to guide his dick down to try and find your hole โoh i found it!โ โthatโs my ass denki, we arenโt quite there yetโ you roll your eyes at him. he finally finds your pussy and enters himself in slowly, โoh shit this is so much better than your thigh, fuckkkkโ he moans as he rolls his eyes back, you feel a shock inside you and let out a small yelp, โDENKI! control your goddamn quirkโ you say slapping his arm and he laughs a little, โdonโt slap me, i might do it againโ he jokes as he kisses your neck. โYOU PERV!โ
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eijiro kirishima
- itโs your first time, heโs experienced
- heโs a soft dom, heโs the sweetest in bed for sure, heโs very careful and considerate
- heโs pretty confident with himself and makes noise in bed but sometimes he likes to stay silent so he can listen closely to your moans and admire the way heโs making you feel
- โyouโre beautiful y/n, canโt believe i have such a pretty girlโ
- he is the BIGGEST, he has a monster dick, itโs huge, longer than any of the boys, he is PACKING, heโs girthy and veiny too.
- he can only cum about 1 or 2 times but he can hold out for a WHILE.
- heโs educated on sex and how to treat a woman from getting advice from his friends, online, he even asked aizawa for advice which only ended up with aizawa saying โjust donโt be a dumbass and donโt ask denki for advice for godsake, can i nap in peace now?โ
he takes out his dick from his boxers as you stare unashamed at the thing thatโs gonna go inside you. you would be scared if it werenโt kirishima going inside you. heโs a sweet and nice boy so youโre sure he will be as gentle as possible. โi hope you arenโt disappointed, itโs okay if you donโt want to do it or anythingโ he says reassuring you thinking youโre staring at him because it isnโt enough (heโs so dick blind ๐) โno no, itโs perfect kirishimaโฆyouโre perfectโ you smile as you kiss him. he starts and he puts lube on his dick so it will hopefully be a little easier on you as he slowly enters you as you moan around his chest. kissing and touching his sensitive chest as you play with his nipples and he moans. โi love when you do that, you knowโ he says burying his head in your neck as you hum against his ear, โi know babyโ
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touya todoroki
- itโs his first time, your experienced (based this more on before he became โdabiโ in the sense of he is still living with his father and has a lot of anger build up)
- heโs either a MEAN dom or a BRATTY sub (he has a lot of daddy and mommy issues so it depends on the day type shit)
- when heโs mean he will grunt or straight up start laughing mid sex, when heโs bratty he whines and complains.
- โhey ainโt it supposed to be my first time, yet youโre the one acting like a bitch in heatโ โatta girl, move that ass for meโ
- he was a sexually frustrated teenager so he watched a lot of porn as he would abuse the shit out of his dick, heโs masterbated in front of you a few times and youโve given him oral but he didnโt want to rush into sex, that was until the day his father didnโt show up and he was filled with anger coming home to you with anger and a hard cock
- has a breeding kink, wants to fill you up any chance he gets, loves seeing you covered in cum
- his cock is long, girthy and fat, his tip is always a redish color from how hard he gets and he has veins running up his shaft.
- uh what is aftercare?
touya walked through the door, eyes red probably from crying beforehand, โtouya are you okay? whatโs wrong?โ you ask concerned from his quiet demeanor. usually he wouldโve cried in your arms or angrily rant about what happened but he just stood at the door quietly before finally speaking. โstrip.โ he said bluntly staring at you in the dark room, โhuh?โ you asked again wondering if you heard right. โI saidโฆโ he walked closer towards you like you were his prey before continuing, โstrip for me.โ you felt yourself throb as you removed your clothes letting them fall to the floor as he picked you up and turned you on the couch, holding your legs up in a mating press as he removed his abused red cock from his pants, โyouโre gonna let me breed you tonight, ainโt that right babyโ he said more in a demanding tone than asking permission. you nod and he leaves a slap on your ass, โuse your words.โ and you moan, โyes touya, want you to breed me, want it so badโ and he lets out a cocky laugh, โyeah, thatโs a good fucking girlโ he says as he slides his cock into you without warning, thrusting hard as you squeeze around him.
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hanta sero
- your first time, heโs experienced
- heโs a soft dom, he isnโt too hard on you but he likes being in charge but he wonโt mind you riding him once you get used to his cock.
- heโs a moaner, likes praising you
- โdamn girl, youโve been hiding this from me all this time?โ โdonโt get shy on me, i gotchaโ โwould never hurt my ladyโ โjust a little longer maโ
- he knows you his so once you get used to his cock, he isnโt shy in letting the bakusquad try you out, he knows that you know who you belong to.
- he will massage you (heโs great with his hands) afterwards or help you bathe, he likes taking care of his girl
- he has a skinny cock but itโs LONG and damn does he know how to use it.
- he gives GOOD oral. he loves when you sit on his face.
โgoddamn baby, you feel so goodโ he says as he has his cock stuffed in your hole while thrusting into you as he admires the way you moan for him. โsero, want more please, p-pleaseโ you moan out as he stares goes down to your nipple softly biting on your nipple enough for you to moan out and arch your back, โmore of what, ma?โ he asks as he sucks the skin of your breasts, โput it all in, donโt hold back p-please hantaโ you whine as you pull his hair sending sero into a frenzy as he pulls out leaving you confused, โw-wha-โ your words cut off as he slams his cock inside of you fucking you deep as he hits your g spot, โthat better baby?โ he cockily asks against your ear, nibbling softly.
The worst part about Liam Payne dying is that people are posting about โthe switch up is crazyโ
Like no. He was an abuser and made horrible decisions, but nobody wanted him to die. He was getting hate for an INCREDIBLY valid reason, but we all recognized that he needed mental and physical help. He needed to go to rehab. He needed to get away from drugs and alcohol and improve upon himself away from the public. No one wanted him to die.
Weโre not mourning the life of an abuser, we are mourning the part of him that we adored and looked up to for a massive part of our childhood/ teenage years. He was a huge part of how I was introduced to my love of music. And yes, he did horrible things and made horrible decisions and over the last few years has been anything but admirable, but none of us wanted this.
Maya didnโt want this. And everyone saying that itโs her fault can actually go burn in hell. She likely already blames herself enough. She likely already wishes she hadnโt spoken up about it out of the guilt that she likely feels. You guys commenting all over the socials about how this is her fault and โare you happy now?โ Are actually horrible people.
A 7 year old boy just lost his father. A woman just lost her long term boyfriend. Two parents just lost their son. Several young children just lost their uncle. Show some fucking respect. Joking about it and hating on people who had nothing to do with what happened is not doing anything but twist the knife for the people who this has ACTUALLY effected.
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ โโโโโ part 1
๐ summary; the one where lando norris reunites with his childhood love at the Monaco Grand Prix and is convinced heโs over her. after all, itโs been 7 years. he canโt still love her, right?
สษ pairing; lando norris x influencer!reader
แกฃ๐ญฉ fc; jadeybird on ig
โญ type; irl x smau (there will be more smau in later parts)
โก a/n; iโve come to realise that there arenโt many stories on here where the reader is mid/plus-sized. as a mid/plus-size girl myself, i personally can find it upsetting when there is mainly only representation of the body types that society deems to be conventionally attractive and not a lot of representation of others, they are common body types and they are attractive. i have struggled with body image in the past and i still do on occasion, if anyone who reads this ever needs anyone to talk to about this or literally anything else, feel free to message me and iโll always get back to you. love you all, you beautiful people xx
Lando Norris loved the Monaco Grand Prix. Who didnโt? The history behind the race, the atmosphere, it was overall an amazing experience every year. And best of all, he was able to stay at home. When travelling so often meant never staying in one place too long, he was grateful for one time a year he could sleep in his own bed the night before a race.
It was race day and, as per, the track was as chaotic as usual. From the mechanics frantically checking to make sure the cars were ready for the race to the fans filling the track to the brim, it was hard to get a moment alone. In fact, Lando had barely had one since he stepped foot on the track. Heโd been pulled into meetings and interviews left, right and centre.
Amongst all the chaos he finally has some time to himself as he heads to the track for the national anthem. Heโs walking in silence, head down as he makes his way over. He keeps going over the strategy for the race in his head, heโs starting in p4. Overtakes are hard on this circuit, everyone knows that. All Lando wants this race is to preserve his tyres and hold his position.
Itโs like the universe made it happen. Just as he lifted his head up, heโs met with someone he never thought heโd see again. Y/n. His first true love. They were together for three years, but when it became abundantly clear that Lando would be joining Mclaren for the 2019 formula one season, they couldnโt deal with the consequences that brought for their relationship, and ultimately it ended.
She doesnโt see him, and heโs almost relieved she didnโt. Itโs been seven years since the end of their relationship, and yet upon seeing her he couldnโt help but notice how beautiful she is. Sheโs changed, naturally, they were just teenagers when they separated. But sheโs still as breathtaking as he remembers. He couldnโt be thinking about this. Not now. He pushes these feelings down, repressing them as much as he can as he finds his spot on the carpet and the national anthem begins. He needs to focus on the race.
78 laps later and he was p4. Lando knew he probably wasnโt going to gain any positions during the race due to the circuit but he still canโt help but feel slightly disappointed in himself. Ever since his first win in Miami, since he was finally able to prove that he can win races, heโs craved it again. That feeling when he passed the checkered flag in first place, he wanted it again. Itโs natural in his line of work to want to be the best, heโs surrounded by 19 other drivers who all want to be on that top step every weekend. But his teammate was p2, he was proud of him. Overall a good weekend for the team.
After the race was just as chaotic as the start, between interviews and press conferences and briefings, the only quiet time Lando gets is in between them. So thatโs what heโs doing. Walking in silence towards the interview pen as his pr manager talks in his ear. Heโs not paying attention to where he goes and so of course he has to walk into someone.
โSor-โ He says looking up at them, expecting to send a small smile their way before continuing but thatโs not what happens. โY/n..โ
โLandoโฆโ Her voice is still as soft as it was all those years ago. He just gazes at her and neither makes a move to look away. That is until she clears her throat, looking down.
โHowโve you been?โ Lando asks, a feeble attempt to get her to stay just a little longer. He doesnโt want her to walk away just yet. Just a moment longer.
โIโve been well,โ Glancing back up at him and he can tell sheโs hesitant, he doesnโt blame her. Breathing out, she sighs before she speaks once more, โI watched Miami, congratulations on your first win.โ
She still watched, sheโd watched him win. He doesnโt quite know why he thought she wouldnโt; sheโd always had a love for motorsports. Itโs one thing they bonded over as teens.
โThank you,โ He canโt help the soft smile that graces his face. Lando mentally curses himself for glancing over her shoulder, being met with the slightly annoyed face of his pr manager. He should be in the pen by now.
He looks back at her, nodding. โI should probably goโฆ it was good to see you.โ She just nods at him, smiling softly, watching as he walks away.
Arriving at the pen, Lando takes a deep breath, forcing himself back into the driver headspace.
Five hours later and heโs stood in a club, music blasting, bodies dancing all around him and heโs stood nursing the same drink for the past 20 minutes, taking with George. Normally Lando loves a party, out of the whole driver grid heโs the one youโre most likely to spot coming in and out of clubs on a Sunday night. But tonight heโs just not in the mood and he just canโt figure out why. Though he has reason to believe itโs got something to do with the girl he can spy dancing over Georgeโs shoulder.
He canโt help but let his eyes dart towards her every couple minutes. He watches as she dances surrounded by people, laughing and smiling without a care in the world: he used to be able to make her do that. The countless nights theyโd spend wrapped up in each other, talking about whatever came to mind, the soft giggles sheโd let out anytime Lando said something even remotely funny as his hands would occupy themselves in her hair. They all came back to him as he watched her.
Clearing his throat and downing the rest of his drink, he turns to George, dismissing himself before heading to the bar and deciding he was going to drink away the thoughts of the girl that was seemingly occupying his mind like a plague. He certainly does just that and three hours later, Lando is black out drunk basically lying down in the back of a taxi as Carlos sits there with him, making sure he gets home safely.
A groan immediately falls from Landoโs mouth as he wakes up with a hangover straight from hell. He buries himself under his duvet until he finally decides he needs something for the pain. Peeling the duvet off of his body, he stands up, jumping slightly at his phone ringing. Itโs Carlos.
โPlease remind me to never drink again,โ Lando states the moment he answers the phone and heโs met with Carlos laughing into his ear.
โItโs that bad?โ The spaniard asks and Lando can hear his smirk down the phone. Letting out a grumbled โyesโ Lando drags himself into the bathroom where he keeps his painkillers.
โWhat even happened?โ Carlos questions him, โDidnโt you say you werenโt gonna drink much?โ
โI donโt know,โ Lando sighs, swallowing the painkillers, finishing the glass of water. Heโs lying. He knows why but heโs not going to tell Carlos that.
His mind drifts back to the short conversation he had with her the day before. The way she danced in the club. The way she laughed. Her smile. Shaking his head, he pushes it down. He ends the phone call with Carlos, making the excuse heโs going back to bed, hoping to sleep off the hangover.
But he canโt get back to sleep, heโs never been able to fall back asleep after waking up, envying people who find it so easy. After 10 minutes of trying, he finds himself hauling himself into his living room, sprawling out on the sofa and watching whatever Netflix recommends him.
He has no clue what heโs watching but then again, heโs not really paying attention. His mind kept travelling back to her. No matter what he tried. He told himself it was just shock. The shock of seeing her again. And before he knew it, he was opening instagram, typing in her name and clicking her most recent post.
and if you ask me to, daddyโs gonna buy you a mockingbird, iโma give you the world
author: writing this had me sobbing a few times and i truly hope you'll love it as much as i do. let's keep in mind that this is a work of fiction, and that i do not know nor am associated (unfortunately) to any of the real people mentioned here.
tw: massive fluff, description of anxiety, angst
word count: 7.758k words
It wasnโt a long drive to the estate, but the portion of time you spent in your car parked out front was longer than what you had planned - lost in your thoughts, you made an effort to gather a bit more of the courage you knew you still had in your core to now face the most significant person in this whole chaos: your daughter, the love of your life. You knew Lily would eventually bring up so many questions that your only hope was that sheโd wait for Mason to be around, but knowing her all too well, her focus would be entirely on meeting her dad; you could already see the twinkle in her eyes, the impatience hovering over her making that little human pace relentlessly whenever she had to wait for things to happen when they should and not on her time - which was nothing like you, because you considered yourself fairly patient. So that was another thing she probably got from Mason.
With another sigh parting your lips, you eventually made your way to the big house - only to be welcomed by your mumโs frantic screams that Christmas was ruined, by your dadโs hopeless and anguished glance, and a pair of tiny arms that made your entire world stop because nothing else mattered. Lily held you tight like youโd been away for years and not for just a few hours. โI missed you, mummy. Abuelita is angry,โ she pouted, her big hazel eyes gleaming with tears she seemed to be containing for a while now.
โOh baby,โ you cooed. โWhat happened?โ
Lily carefully explained the same way she heard: there was a big snowstorm and pretty much every family member that was expected to join them for Christmas wouldnโt be able to make it. So far, it was just the four of you, Emma (your cousin, daughter of your fatherโs brother), and her two children, Louis and Oscar, the 8-year-old twins. Inevitably, your thoughts went straight to Mason and how having him there would be perfect. Not the way your mum truly wanted, but itโd make Lily happy and whatever made your daughter happy, also made your parents happy.
Back in Surrey, Mason quickly typed you a message after declining two of your calls.
Watching half of his family still in shock with the news he just dropped could be amusing if it wasnโt something so serious - although Mason was sure that, at some point in life, theyโd all have a good laugh about it. His sisterโs soft hand squeezing his shoulder felt reassuring, but Mason could still feel his heart pounding against his chest and the silence filling his large living room was the scariest sound he had ever heard. Lewis was the first one to break it with a sigh, and Mason could only hope heโd say something funny to break the tension, but it didnโt happen - at least not yet.
โAre you sure sheโs yours?โ Lewis questioned and Mason scanned his dadโs face starting to turn red, the veins in his forehead throbbing under Lewโs question.
Before Mason could answer, Jaz took a step forward and went big sister mode just like he expected she would. โLetโs not rule out a DNA test, but youโve all met this little girl before.โ The confused look on their faces swapped back to shock once Jasmine showed them Lilyโs picture - Debbie had tears in her eyes and glanced at Mason, desperately waiting for him to say something, but the truth was he was never the one to hide this from them.
โI know itโs a shock to all of you, as it is for me too,โ Mason began, swallowing a sob before he could start weeping the way he did this morning. โBut I need you all with me in this because everything Iโll do from now on is for her, itโs not about me. I need you all to make this about her as well.โ It seemed like those words were all his mum needed to ultimately allow those insisting tears to roll down her cheeks and search for her husbandโs hand, who softly squeezed it, giving her the comfort she needed that everything would be just fine in the end. โThis is far from how I expected itโd be,โ Mason added. โBut I canโt say that Iโm not happy. I truly canโt wait to be with her and be the father she deserves.โ
As Mason nervously rubbed his hands on his jeans, trying to control how sweaty and shaky they were, he observed his dad end the short distance between them and pull him into a hug. He didnโt need words from Tony to know his dad was proud of how he was handling the situation, and whatever damage control theyโd eventually have to do would be properly taken care of. But, at this moment, it was all about her. It was about making sure that Lily would have everything she always wished for, and deserved.
Mason knew it would be the biggest challenge of his life, he didnโt have 9 months to prepare himself nor to understand how it was to be a father. What if he wasnโt able to love her unconditionally, or to be everything she expected heโd be? What if he ended up being the worst dad he could possibly be? His only hope was in what his father himself represented - Tony taught him to be a good man, to fight for his family, and to be honest and decent.
Masonโs life wasnโt his own anymore, and that frightened him to the core, but he also felt prepared to fully embrace all the changes thatโd come with it because deep down, he knew itโd be worth it.
While Jasmine distracted his parents and brother with pictures and the few stories and details she knew about, Mason hurried to call you back. While he waited for you to pick up, he thought how odd something so simple also felt so intimate - calling you, someone he thought about from time to time, to talk about the life you two shared. A beautiful little girl, whom he couldnโt wait to meet.
โHello?โ you breathed on the other side of the phone, trying to concentrate on the call and on Lily jumping on your bed after having a large cup of cocoa with marshmallows. โLilian Maisie, I swear to God that if you vomit on this bedโฆโ
Mason couldnโt hold back a laugh, but he also felt his chest clenching a bit with the sudden urge to be there. โHi, itโs me. Mason.โ
โMase, hi!โ he grinned at the nickname, loving how it sounded coming from you. โI tried to call you before.โ
โI know, I was with my family. I told them about Lily.โ
โOh? How did it go?โ
During most of the talk, you felt yourself going a bit dizzy from holding your breath. It was almost like you were waiting for something bad to happen like you were ready to protect your daughter from everything and everyone, but his familyโs reaction was expected and you couldnโt really imagine what they were going through, but you felt deeply sorry and embarrassed to be the one causing it - muttering โIโm so sorry, Masonโ during the phone call was the least you could do, and although it was sweet of him, the fact that Mason kept telling you to stop apologising didnโt make things easier. You knew youโd have to work hard to fix things, and that as long as it wouldnโt affect her routine, it was their right to have a free pass to your daughterโs life whenever they wanted.
โDid you tell her?โ Mason asked, chewing the inside of his cheeks as he anxiously waited for an answer.
โNo,โ you heard him sigh. โBut only because I wanted to ask you something first.โ Mason softly hummed, waiting for you to continue. โWould you like to spend Christmas with your daughter, Mase? Bring your family too, or donโt, I dunno. But theyโre all more than welco-โ
โYes, Iโd very much like to spend Christmas with her,โ Mason interrupted. โWith you two.โ
Insane was the only word you and Mason could find to address this entire situation, it was all happening so fast that you two shared something in common: fear. Of not giving everyone time to process the news, of dropping this on Lilyโs shoulders, and, somehow, causing more damage than good. For Lily, it wouldnโt be just meeting her dad, as he was also her best friendโs uncle - no matter how mature she seemed to be, Lily was still just a child and you and Mason feared her reaction. He was particularly terrified of not being good enough, that sheโd be disappointed when she found out heโs her dad but you repeatedly told him that Lily loved him unconditionally.
He couldnโt deny that he was a bit disappointed to be going alone, but it made sense that his family decided to stay behind, saying that this moment was private. In a quick phone call with Jaz, she promised they were considering joining your family for Boxing Day and that they all appreciated the invitation - Jaz mentioned how her mumโs emotions were everywhere, wanting to know everything she possibly could about her granddaughter, so you kindly sent a few pictures and videos of Lily growing up.
While the kids were playing, you took the opportunity to let your parents know about your decision to invite Mason, which seemed to make your mum quite happy. You also had to update Emma, who had always been one of the most discreet and private members of the family; she pulled you into a hug and said you could count on her for anything and, between giggles, that sheโd do her best to control her twins who were obsessed about football just like any other boys their age. Although overwhelming, it also felt like a relief to be able to finally tell people about Lilyโs dad.
You were finally alone with Lily in her room, braiding her hair the way she liked, as she moved unquietly on the chair placed in front of the mirror. โPeanut, sit still please,โ you hummed, a frustrated moan parting your lips seeing your request was pointless.
โBut I want to know what the surprise is!โ Lily pouted, little arms crossed against her chest.
โIt wonโt be a surprise anymore if I tell you,โ you winked, not letting her see how amused you were when she huffed and finally sat still.
Always independent and self-sufficient, Lily politely dismissed your help when she went to pick an outfit. You instructed her to go for something warm, and even if she seemed a bit confused with the tights, she managed to do it all on her own, which brought you both comfort and nostalgia to see her growing up so fast. Until weeks ago, when Jasmine walked into your lives, it was just the two of you against the world and although you believed it to be enough, of course, there was always something missing and not just for her - you missed it too, having someone to share the wonders of the things she did that were so little to some, but so meaningful to you; and you knew that no one could fill that gap better than Lilyโs father.
As he drove to your place, Mason pictured all different scenarios of him meeting Lily. His heart pounded in his chest, each beat echoing the mixture of excitement and fear that coursed through him - Mason rehearsed the moment countless times in his mind since he found himself alone, yet he also knew that nothing could truly prepare him for it. As the GPS showed he was getting closer and closer to the estate, a whirlwind of emotions overwhelmed him.
His mind raced with questions. Would she really like him, like you said? Would she be scared? Could he truly be the father she deserved? Mason felt his chest filling with both hope and dread. The weight of all those years, unaware there was a little yet huge piece of him out in the world, pressed down on him - the years he had missed, the milestones he hadnโt been there for. Mason couldnโt let a grudge take over him, there was no point now.
He took a deep breath, trying to steady his nerves once he spotted the large gate in front of him. Definitely, no one could ever say it was for the money, he thought, eyes curiously scanning the manor behind the gates - Mason didnโt have to announce his arrival, as he watched it slowly open for him. Not far away, he could spot your figure, standing outside the white door. You seemed as nervous as he was.
As Mason parked his car between a brand new black Range Rover and a racing green Aston Martin Valour he recognised as being limited edition, Mason felt the palms of his hands sweat even more. This wasnโt his usual habitat, none of his friends nor acquaintances were this wealthy. Part of him felt uncomfortable, but the other was relieved to know you were the opposite heโd expect someone this wealthy to be - he instantly assumed your family was as lovely as you.
When your eyes finally met his, you caught him wiping his hands on his jeans. You two could hear the loud waves of laughter of children coming from inside the house, filling the silence between you but Mason felt disconnected, focused solely on meeting his daughter. He finally stood tall in front of you, cheeks pink from the cold but he looked as gorgeous as ever - Mason seemed to relax a bit under your touch when you squeezed his shoulder. โItโs going to be okay, Mason,โ you said softly. โWeโll do it together and itโs going to be okay, sheโs the sweetest girl.โ
Mason let out a heavy breath, the smell of mint and the warmth coming from him made you feel slightly dizzy, but you quickly put yourself together. โI just donโt want to scare her,โ he admitted, his voice trembling slightly. You felt sorry for him. โI want this to be perfect.โ
You smile warmly. โJust be yourself. Sheโs naturally a curious little girl and knows Iโve planned a surprise for her, but youโre her biggest dream and everything she always wanted,โ you said. โBesides a dog. She desperately wants a dog.โ
The way the corners of his eyes wrinkled when he laughed was adorable and you could swear your heart skipped a beat. โThank you, Y/n. For everything so far. I know this hasnโt been easy for you.โ
โItโs been a journey,โ you acknowledged, a soft smile curling the sides of your lips as you felt your cheeks flush pink by the sudden touch of his skin on yours - Mason held your pinky with his, his eyes never leaving yours. โBut Lily deserves to know her father, and you deserve to know your daughter. This is the right thing.โ Mason nodded, and your eyes fell to your pinkies intertwined. โShall we?โ
Masonโs breath caught in his throat as you guided him inside the manor, and he loved that despite all the wealth, it felt like home - the warmth, the laughs, and the smell of freshly baked biscuits soothed his nerves. He carefully scanned every little detail as you guided him upstairs, then down a hallway adorned with family photos and childrenโs artwork. You stopped in front of a door decorated with colourful stickers spelling out โLilianโ.
โCan you wait inside as I go get her?โ Mason nodded and walked into the bedroom after you opened the door for him. โIโll be back with her in a minute.โ
When you left, Mason found himself not knowing what to do, again. His eyes quickly scanned his daughterโs bedroom - it was smaller than he expected, it had a fantastic garden view, and walls painted in baby yellow and white. There were lots of books, a wall full of artwork, ballet stuff, and, last but not least, a football - which made him smile warmly as his chest filled with pride.
โAm I getting my surprise now, mummy?โ He heard his sweet voice and Mason swallowed a sob, trying not to look like a creep standing behind that door.
โMhmm, you can say so. I truly believe youโll love it, angel.โ You replied and he smiled at how sweet you sounded talking to her. โI wonโt ask you to close your eyes because I know you wonโt,โ his daughter replied with a giggle, that made him want to burst into tears.
As the door slowly opened, Mason fully embraced the moment when his life wasnโt just his anymore. There she was, his little girl, looking at him with hazel eyes filled with curiosity - Mason felt like he was looking at himself. She had light brown hair that fell in loose curls around her face. The moment Mason saw her, time seemed to stand still. His heart skipped a beat, and he felt a surge of emotions he had never experienced before. There was an intense mixture of love, joy, and an almost unbearable ache. The sight of her, so small and innocent, with features that mirrored his own, hit him with a profound sense of connection and loss for the time they had spent apart. His breath caught in his throat, and his eyes welled up with tears.
Mason realised in that instant just how much he had missed, and how much he wanted to be part of her life. The room seemed to blur around him, and all he could focus on was Lily. His daughter. The word felt both foreign and incredibly right. He was overwhelmed by the desire to protect her, to know her, and to make up for lost time.
โHello Lily,โ Mason said softly, crouching down to her level as you guided her to him. โRemember me?โ
Lily nodded. โIs Summer my surprise?โ She sounded both excited and confused as she studied him with cautious interest, her mind racing as she tried to understand why her best friendโs uncle was there.
He smiled and shook his head, trying to steady his nerves, eyes looking up searching for yours in a silent ask for help.
โNo, baby,โ you cooed, โMason is your surprise.โ
Lilyโs eyes lit up with interest, head tilted to the side. โWhy?โ
โBecause youโre Maisie and Mason,โ he watched you crouching down next to her, your hand softly caressing her back as her full attention was still on him. โRemember all those nights you asked the stars to bring your daddy to you?โ
Mason swallowed the lump in his throat, his eyes burning with tears - he couldnโt cry now, he didnโt want Lily to see him crying, but he felt so overwhelmed by knowing how much she wanted him. The thought of that precious little girl wishing for her dad every night was one of the most painful he ever experienced, and in that moment Mason silently promised heโd never let her go through that again.
When your words finally hit her, Lilyโs jaw slightly dropped and her eyes searched for yours, but quickly went back to Mason - he noticed how her little eyes teared up and she pouted, clearly experiencing a mixture of emotions that were a bit too much for her.
โYouโre my daddy?โ She sniffed, her voice barely above a whisper, still trying to process what was unfolding before her.
โOh, sweetheart,โ Mason finally allowed tears to stream down his face as he nodded. โYes, Iโm your daddy.โ
For a moment that felt like forever, Lily was silent, and Mason couldnโt ignore how you silently reassured her that it was fine to feel everything she was feeling, validating it, by either squeezing her shoulder or running your fingers through her hair. Then, with a sudden burst of emotion, Lily threw her tiny arms around his neck, hugging him tightly. Mason felt a surge of warmth and love as he hugged her back, his heart overflowing. โI always wanted a daddy,โ she said softly.
You didnโt know how you managed to hold your tears until now, but seeing the wide smile on his face and how Mason sighed in relief, you just couldnโt hold them back any longer. You muffled a sob by covering your mouth with your hand, and the way Masonโs hand searched for yours while not letting Lily go filled your heart with love.
He held her close, his voice choked with emotion. โAnd I always wanted you, Lily. Iโm so happy I found you.โ
Mason knew this was just the beginning, but he felt ready to face whatever came next with his daughter, and you, by his side. Lily pulled back slightly, her small hands cupping his face, making Mason giggle. Her eyes sparkled with excitement as she curiously scanned his face.
โSummer is my cousin,โ she said, a wide smile on her lips when Mason nodded. โDoes she know?โ
โNot yet,โ Mason replied, โBut we can tell her together and Iโm sure sheโll be really happy.โ
As if her thoughts and what was happening were still sinking in, Lily suddenly threw herself back in Masonโs arms, hiding her face in the crook of his neck to muffle her cry - even so, not once did Mason let go of your hand, which was the reassurance you needed to know that things would be alright and that you two would do it together, because you were a family now. You two were everything Lily needed.
โYouโre the best Christmas present in the world, Masey,โ a slight disappointment coursed down his spine when Lily called him by his nickname, but heโd never rush her to call him โdadโ. โI-I mean, da-โ
โItโs alright, bubba,โ Mason interrupted her, softly kissing her forehead when Lily pulled back again. โYou can call me whatever makes you feel comfortable, yeah?โ
She silently nodded, smiling at him when he wiped her tears. You felt your heart skip a beat at the gesture.
โDo you want to see the drawings I did today?โ she asked, small hands reaching his. Lily smiled again when she noticed he was still holding yours.
Mason smiled back, his heart feeling lighter than it had in years. โIโd love to, sweetheart.โ
You gently squeezed his hand, letting it go before Lily led him to her drawing table, where colourful sketches of flowers, animals, and fantastical scenes covered the surface. Lily picked one of her favourites, a vibrant drawing of a butterfly garden, and handed it to him. Mason took the drawing, marvelling at the details and creativity - she really was everything youโd told him, and seeing that by himself filled him with pride. Lily was part of him, she was also his, and he could barely believe that he managed to do that when he often doubted he could do something good, something beyond special.
โThis is one of my best,โ she said proudly.
โI love the colours you used,โ he said, showing interest, which made her eyes sparkle. โYouโre the most talented artist.
Lily beamed at the praise, making you chuckle. โCan we draw together sometime, Masey? And play football too?โ
โIโd like that very much,โ Mason replied, crouching down her level again, holding her hands. โWe can do everything you want.โ
You watched your daughter narrow his eyes at him as a cheeky smile curled the sides of her lips. โCan we go get a dog now?โ
โLilian Maisie!โ you scolded her but couldnโt hold back the happiness that bubbled up inside you and ended up letting a loud laugh part your lips. The way the three of you laughed, filling the room with so much joy and peace made you feel lighter.
Mason leaned forward to gently kiss her forehead again and wrapped his arms around her small figure, lifting her in the air as she squealed between giggles. โLetโs stick to football and drawing, yeah?โ
Lily nodded in approval and kissed his cheeks. He was her daddy and he was a lot more than she ever dreamed of; the fact that he was also her best friendโs uncle, which made Summer her cousin, was something Lily still couldnโt believe - she wanted to scream, to see her bestie as soon as possible, hug her and never let her go. There was so much happiness inside her chest that it brought tears back to her eyes, and as she silently watched Mason with what felt like a permanent frown, Lily felt hot tears wet her cheeks again.
โAre you staying forever?โ she sniffed, cupping his face with her small hands again.
Mason nodded, wiping her tears with gentle kisses. โForever, bubba. Iโm never leaving you,โ he whispered against her skin, and you had to sit on her bed as you felt your legs weaken at how wholesome that moment was.
โDo you promise?โ Lily insisted.
โI promise.โ
The three of you spent the next hours drawing and chatting, with Lily sharing stories about her favourite things - she proudly told her daddy about being very good at football and was particularly happy when he told her that he was there for the ballet recital. Mason listened intently, soaking in every little detail, every laugh, and every smile. She was indeed the sweetest girl, and as he reached again for your hand - his pinky intertwined with yours - Mason felt a sense of peace and fulfilment that he had never known before.
As the evening drew to a close, and Mason had memorised pretty much every inch of his daughterโs face and how incredible she was, a knock on the door brought the three of you back to Earth. With the kindest smile on her face and pride in her eyes, your mumโs face beamed with happiness as she watched Lily glued to her father.
โHi,โ her voice was soft, and kind, and Mason felt oddly comfortable for a first meeting. โIโm so sorry to interrupt, but weโre all starting to get ready for Christmas dinner.โ
You noticed Mason was slightly confused since it was still the 24th, but you patiently explained that you always had two celebrations: one on the 24th because it was part of your mumโs culture and your dad didnโt want to change it for her, which Mason thought it was quite romantic of him; and the other on the 25th. He liked how you all seemed to be pretty close and supportive, how your mum was very discreet and talked to him like it wasnโt the first time they were seeing each other - she treated him like family, just like you told him before.
Even so, Mason stood up still holding Lily in his arms, and walked towards your mum. โHi maโam, Iโm Mason,โ he smiled politely and the way your mum sighed in delight made you want to run away and hide. โItโs lovely to meet you.โ
โHeโs my daddy, abuelita,โ Lily said proudly, making you all chuckle.
โIs he really, amor?โ your mum winked at her. โItโs wonderful to finally meet you, Mason. We settled the guest room for you.โ
โThank you for your kindness,โ your mum nodded at his words with a gentle smile on her lips and, after blowing a kiss to your daughter, left.
The hardest task was convincing Lily to let Mason go but he was so gentle and so patient that she didnโt argue when he offered her choices - he definitely understood how tantrums worked, but also understood how much she wanted to spend every second of every minute with him after years of not having him. Together, the three of you went downstairs so Mason could pick up his small luggage as you waited inside and Lily watched him through the window.
โAre you happy, baby?โ you asked, running your fingers down her hair.
Lily nodded. โSo much, mummy. This is the best Christmas ever!โ
She was naturally a happy little girl, but you couldnโt remember seeing her this happy - you also couldnโt shake the feeling that such happiness couldโve come much earlier if youโd searched for him before. The way Mason smiled at her as he made his way back to the house was the sweetest in the world, and before he could even open the door, Lily stormed out to welcome him back. You guided him to the guest room, which was between yours and Lilyโs, and Mason awkwardly kissed your cheek before you separated and it was just you and Lily again.
โWhat is it?โ you asked, watching your daughter grinning at you.
โHe kissed you, mummy!โ Lily whispered between giggles like she was sharing a silly secret. You felt your cheeks burn under her comment but didnโt reply or sheโd turn it into an endless teasing.
โLetโs focus on what youโll wear, yeah?โ
Lily nodded. โCan we match outfits, mummy?โ
โI suppose we can, peanut.โ
The way Lily was focusing a lot more on what you were wearing rather than focusing on herself wasnโt suspicious considering you knew your daughter all too well, Lily was always up to something when she hyper-focused on one thing and made that thing her little project - still, you wouldnโt ruin this for her and allowed her to do whatever she wanted, so thatโs how you two ended wearing matching white knit sweaters, black tights and tweed skirts. It was both adorable and funny, but the cherry on top was Mason wearing pretty much the same colours as you, except his sweater had some pretty details in navy blue - he seemed amused by it as there was a permanent grin on his lips as the three of you went downstairs to meet the rest of your family.
You noticed a slight change in his posture when the sound of your fatherโs voice reached you, so this time it was your turn to hold his pinky as a gesture that itโd be just fine and he had nothing to worry about. Mason seemed surprised by it but also seemed to relax, offering you a warm smile in return, a smile that made your heart beat slightly faster. Before walking into the living room, you let go of him, which got Mason more upset than he expected but he shook it off.
โThere you are!โ cheered your father, his arms wide open as he ran past you and went straight to Mason. โI was wondering when Iโd see you, lad.โ
The older manโs sympathy caught him a bit off guard in the most positive way as two main things could make him dislike Mason: getting his daughter pregnant and being a Chelsea player, but still, there he was treating him as if they were longtime buddies. You let go of the fact that your dad pretty much ignored your presence, knowing that there was a chance that he was slightly starstruck that Mason was in his living room. You grinned when Mason glanced at you - a playful smirk curling his lips - before your dad put his arm over Masonโs shoulder and guided him to his collection of overpriced whisky. They were followed by your cousinโs twins, who couldnโt believe that THE Mason Mount was there.
It was just you, your mum, and Emma now, and noticing how Lily seemed a bit upset that her father was the centre of all the attention, you decided to do a FaceTime call with Willow and Jaz. Lily was the one to tell her auntie Willow that her daddy was there with them, that he was staying forever, and that sheโd convince him to get her a dog - something you protested again, but asked yourself for how long youโd be able to avoid another addition to the family and one more responsibility on your hands. You promised Willie to keep her updated and that they could meet for a girlsโ night once you were back in London, something she was more than happy about, and promised sheโd have a very fun schedule for both of you so you could take a break from all the recent stress that surrounded you.
The next one was Jasmine, who answered faster than you expected, which made you giggle as she seemed overly excited to know everything saying Mason hadnโt told her with all the details she wanted. โWeโll have to meet when Iโm back in London so I can give you the detailed version,โ you said, watching her roll her eyes at you on the other side of the screen.
โYou two are the perfect match, no surprise you have a daughter together,โ Jaz teased, making your cheeks blush. โDid he cry?โ
โHeโd cry even if he was a robot, Jaz. It was a very touching moment,โ you admitted and she gave you a warm smile. โIโm happy with how well it went, Lily is having the time of her life although right now sheโs a bit upset by my dad monopolising him.โ
Jasmine let out a cheerful laugh. โHe was so nervous to meet your dad,โ she confessed. โIโm so happy it went well, Y/n. Itโs so important for Lily that heโs there for her.โ
You nodded, chewing your lower lip, trying your best not to cry again. โHow did your family react, though?โ
โOh well, they still canโt really believe it. I think my mum is still in shock, she keeps saying that she shouldโve known when they met, like some sort of grandmother's sixth sense,โ you felt your chest clench a bit, knowing it was you who caused this.
โItโs not her fault,โ you mumbled, watching Jaz nod. โIs she there now? Do you guys want to see Lily?โ
Jaz opened a wide and sweet smile for you and moved her phone just a bit, Debbie was sitting right next to her, with Summer on her lap. Your cheeks blushed at how emotional she seemed to be and you just wanted to hug her and apologise for all the mess you made and for taking five years of her life with Lily, but youโd do it in person.
โHi auntie Y/n,โ Summer said, waving at you.
โOh sweetie, hello. Someone here wants to see you,โ you walked towards Lily, who was sitting on the floor drawing something. Her face lit up when she saw her best friendโs face on the screen.
โSumi!โ Lily tried to take the phone from your hand but you gently pulled away, afraid sheโd let slip something that was meant to be told in person. She pouted a little but seemed to understand the message. โI have so much to tell you!โ
Amused by your daughterโs excitement, Summer giggled. โI miss you, Lili,โ the little girl said, and you noticed how their interaction made Debbie emotional.
You discreetly pointed at Debbie so your daughter would acknowledge her too but you noticed how her cheeks blushed, and she seemed relieved that Debbie took the first step and asked her if she was having fun. Lily showed the drawing she was finishing shortly before the call.
โThis is me in the middle, my mummy and my daddy. Now that I know him I can paint his hair colour,โ you melted at how she explained every detail. โThis is Mr. Peanut, the dog my daddy will give me when we can convince mummy.โ
You narrowed at her but she just giggled, followed by Mason right behind you - the way he just stood there watching Lily was the sweetest, a warm smile on his lips. โItโs your mumโ you mumbled to him, and you noticed how happy that information made him feel because his smile doubled the size. Right behind him, your dad smiled proudly at you and blew you a kiss. Lily said goodbye to her and ran straight to Mason, while you talked to Jaz for a few more minutes while he and your dad entertained the little one. Shortly after you said goodbye to her and Debbie, you heard Lily slightly upset about her interaction with the latter.
โDo you think sheโs upset I didnโt call her grandma?โ
Mason shook his head and leaned a bit to kiss the tip of her nose, making her giggle. โNever,โ he assured her. โDonโt worry about that bubba. Take your time, yeah? Thereโs no need to rush.โ
Noticing this was a father and daughter moment, your dad walked away and linked his arm to yours, guiding you to where your mum and cousin were while Mason walked with Lily in his arms to see the Christmas lights that decorated the garden, through the window. They were so comfortable with each other that it felt like this wasnโt even their first day together.
Your mum welcomed you with a glass of white wine - she seemed much calmer now even if pretty much the whole family didnโt make it due to the snowstorm.
โFamily is family, thereโs lots of them missing but what we have tonight is perfect,โ she pointed at Lily and Mason. โIโve never said this to you, but thatโs what Iโve been longing to see. My granddaughter with her father.โ
โI think heโll be a great one,โ your father added, sipping his whisky. โYou can see that heโs trying, the least we can do is to make him feel comfortable.โ
Their support, from the very beginning, was one of the things that made you stronger whenever you had to face the challenges of motherhood - your parents were never there to spoil you nor treat you like some sort of victim but rather made you see all the options you had and each of the consequences that followed according to whatever choice you decided to make.
Completely taken by your emotions, you threw yourself in your dadโs arms and your mum joined for a family hug. Being an only child had never been a problem when your parents were so present, despite such busy lives they had. They never missed the most important moments of your life and were always there whenever you needed them. Those two were your best friends.
For the rest of the evening, all of you enjoyed proper family time with games, stories shared between laughs and fantastic food cooked by your mum - she always dismissed the staff so they could spend the holidays with their families and the food was entirely her responsibility. She blushed when Mason said it was one of the best he ever had, and you knew he wasnโt just trying to find a way to her heart. He actually meant it.
โMummy,โ you felt Lily softly poke your ribs, seeming a bit shy to say what was on her mind. You offered her a kind smile in return. โDo you think thereโs still time to rewrite my letter to Santa?โ
You frowned. โWhy, baby?โ
โIโve changed my mind. I think I can wait for the ice skates, I want to ask Santa for my dad to still be here in the morning.โ
That was when your heart broke into a million pieces. โOh baby,โ you cooed, pulling a string of hair from her face, and took her in your arms, sitting on the same armchair where you first spoke to her while still pregnant. โHeโs not leavingโ.
โI just want to make sure, mummyโฆโ
โI know, weโll write if thatโs what you want,โ you quickly replied, not wanting to invalidate her feelings. โYou know when you were still in my tummy and was the size of a bean,โ she giggled. โI sat in this armchair and spoke to you for the first time. I promised Iโd try to be the best mummy to you and sometimes I wish I was better.โ
โYouโre the best mummy in the world,โ Lily said, her small hand touching your face as her thumb softly stroked your cheek. You smiled softly.
โNow, in this same armchair, I promise that heโs not leaving. Your daddy is staying forever and now you have another grandma and grandpa, you have a cousin, aunties, unclesโฆโ
โDo you think theyโll like me?โ she mumbled, hazel eyes looking at you like she could see your soul.
โTheyโll love you, peanut.โ
โIโll love them too,โ she said before a long yawn, blinking a few times as she was clearly starting to fight against her need to sleep. โBut Iโll always love you the most, mummyโฆโ Lily mumbled before her eyes finally closed and, after a long sigh, her body finally relaxed in your arms and the usual low, cute snores started.
All the love that your daughter gave you had always been something that overwhelmed you. The way her face lights up when you pick her up at school, how she always wants to show you first the new things she learns, and how sheโs always checking on you and making sure youโre happy were a few of the things that made you know for sure that if soulmates were indeed real, Lily was yours. Pride always coursed through your veins whenever she showed an act of kindness, and joy involved your entire being knowing that it had influence of how well you raised her - still, you still couldnโt shake the anguish that made your chest clench whenever you thought about how you prived her from another life the moment you decided to hide her from Mason. That was the feeling that kept you up for hours, rolling from one side to the other in bed, with the desperate need to cry always hovering over you.
After putting on your robe and grabbing the baby monitor, you guided your tired body to the kitchen and, trying not to make too much noise, prepared yourself a cup of chamomile tea hoping itโd save your life. You enjoyed the combination of silence and the sweet hot liquid relaxing your body - the house was quiet, the only sounds being the occasional creak of the floorboards and the soft hum of the refrigerator. Lost in your thoughts, you sat at the kitchen table staring at the half-empty cup, replaying the events of the past weeks over and over in your mind.
You heard soft footsteps and looked up to see Mason entering the kitchen, his face pretty much like yours: etched with worry and exhaustion. He hesitated a bit at the doorway before stepping in, your eyes meeting his.
โCanโt sleep too?โ you asked gently, watching him take a seat across from you.
Mason shook his head. โToo much on my mind.โ
You nodded, your gaze dropping to the table. Taking a deep breath, you felt your voice trembling as you spoke. โI need to say something.โ
Mason looked at you, sensing the weight of your words. โGo ahead, Y/n. Iโm listening.โ
You wrung your hands, struggling to find the right words. Looking at him again, you felt a knot forming in your throat. โI feel so guilty about keeping Lily away from you. I honestly thought I was doing the right thing at the time, but I realise it was a lot more about protecting myself rather than protecting her. Seeing you with her nowโฆ and how happy she is. I feel awful, and I know I was wrong.โ
Mason sighed deeply, his emotions a turbulent mix of anger, sadness, and understanding.โI confess that this is likeโฆ my worst nightmare. A child from a casual hookup,โ he confessed, and you felt tears burning your eyes. โAnd knowing this child exists five years later did make me angry. Iโve missed so much of her life and thereโs so many things involved.โ
Tears welled up in his eyes but you watched him wipe them away quickly. โIโm so sorry,โ you whispered.
โI canโt just insert myself in her life without thinking about every detail, itโs much deeper because I bring a lot with me to everyone thatโs part of my life,โ much to your surprise, Mason reached for your hand, and, with your heart skipping a beat, your pinkies intertwined again. โIโm angry and hurt but Iโm willing to push that away because Iโm the happiest Iโve ever been, at the same time. Lily is incredible, sheโs sweet and kind and youโve been doing a fantastic job. Sheโs more than I couldโve hoped for, so Iโll fight everyone and everything to keep her safe. To keep you safe too.โ
You didnโt wipe the tears that rolled down your cheeks. โI robbed you those first five years and I donโt think Iโll ever be able to forgive myself for that, but I hope you can, for Lilyโs sake. She deserves to have both of her parents.โ
Masonโs gaze softened as he looked at you. โI need to feel that I can trust you, forgiveness will eventually come, but itโs also not like I hate you,โ you watched how his cheeks suddenly blushed. โI think youโre amazing and I often thought about you and always hoped that I could find you someday.โ
โJust not under this circumstance, yeah?โ you added, and you two shared a laugh that pushed away whatever tension between you.
Mason nodded, letting go of your hair to stand up from his chair and sit on the one beside you. โIโll take what life is giving me. Weโll figure it out together, Y/n. For her, and us too,โ he pulled you into a comforting hug as you clung to him, your sobs quieting as you found solace in his arms.
โIโm so grateful youโre here, Mason,โ you confessed as he stroked your back soothingly.
โWeโre a family now, Y/n. Itโs going to be tough but weโll get through whatever comes our way. As long as we keep Lily safe and give her the love and support she deserves, everything will be fine.โ
You remained there in the quiet kitchen, holding onto each other, both knowing that while the road ahead would be challenging, you were committed to facing it together for the sake of your daughter. Holding hands, you walked back to the bedroom hallway in silence, and Mason softly kissed your forehead before heading back to his. You stood there for a few minutes, contemplating how his lips felt so good against your skin, before deciding youโd sleep the few hours left for sunrise with Lily. With her hair splattered over the pillow, she had a smile on her lips as she softly hummed words you couldnโt understand, which stopped when you cuddled her under the duvet and finally closed your eyes, letting sleep relax your body.
โHello?โ you breathed on the other side of the phone, trying to concentrate on the call and on Lily jumping on your bed after having a large cup of cocoa with marshmallows. โLilian Maisie, I swear to God that if you vomit on this bedโฆโ
Mason couldnโt hold back a laugh, but he also felt his chest clenching a bit with the sudden urge to be there. โHi, itโs me. Mason.โ
โMase, hi!โ he grinned at the nickname, loving how it sounded coming from you. โI tried to call you before.โ
โI know, I was with my family. I told them about Lily.โ
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