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if youre ever feeling bad just look at pictures of albatross chicks bc theyre adorable but also fucking hilarious like the parents look like they go to pta meetings in full makeup carrying gucci handbags and the babies look like funky little muppets and i love them

urbanism

dont speak to me or my versace dress or my son ever again

In times like this, I am trying to do less. It’s usually hard for me to do more, and I’m okay with that. But in times like this, it’s harder to do less.

goals for 2019

• travel to another country, with or without frens

• do 2 bulk n cut phases

• get to 1 RM close to 3 plates on Squat, 3 plates on DL, and 2 plates on BP with good form

• work on at least one personal project

• get a new jawb not in the DoD field

• get a tattoo

• be less shy, meet kool beans

• describe and write down my thoughts and emotions more often

• clean my room

• build walls around certain emotions, i.e. clinging on to things I know are gone

i always thought hooking up would be something... gratifying or fun or something. Well. Ya boi made it. I’m now more emotionally distressed than I have been in a while.

because my life must be somewhere to be found...

how many people do you genuinely know? not like, what’s your sign, what do you like to eat, what are you up to, but what makes you... you? it upsets me that I can only say that I have only truly known one person. I have passed probably over a quarter or a third of my life, and I am constantly feeling a state of passionate burning, underwhelming fulfillment, a state of desire for the serene. what tears at your heart, what do you dream about, what is your embodiment of freedom? tender thoughts and memories we shove to the back of our head, i guess are sometimes better off left unsaid.

why do i dream of sleeping

already back to feeling like my head is going to explode

shroomies

last Saturday taught me the meaning of social interaction. i think hell is still on earth, but it’s definitely manageable with friends.

woaw

pain, scathing pain

patron-saint-of-the-denial

glitterghosts

Moonlight (2016, dir. Barry Jenkins)

pacostacosareok

great movie

so tired of the past. so tired of the past. afraid of the past. am i validating my thoughts by thinking the past will come back? do i allow my significant worries to become self-fulfilling prophecies?