* & HAVE HOPE .

JAKE ENGLISH ! ( temp theme / mimikyu has too many blogs )

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Oh dear

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heartprinced:

as much as the other might like to attempt at restoring a previous status quo, it was impossible, unreachable by now as it laid so behind in the past none of them had the power or strength to reach for it and drag it back between them. heartprince was compromised, he always was ━with an affection eons different from the one perhaps harbored by the page, a lovetorn sentiment that just couldn’t match with the other’s vision no matter how much the other would obliviously try, over and over and only further causing black blood to flow and make him weep from inside out..

“ don’t… call me that. we ain’t best friends, jake. i told you a fuckton of times and today let’s make it a fuckton and one. ” for those two words would paint tears on palewhite skin and tangerines, only hurt to whatever remained within his own rotten ribs and putrid flesh, the void gurgling for roses and sacrifices, for a justice warped in meaningless, self-inflicted ultraviolence. “ i don’t want you around. i don’t want you near. i don’t want you to remind me of feelings i should be repressing because they’ve proven themselves to be nothing but a clearly unrequited hindrance ━but that equally clearly i still harbor. ”

we cannot be friends if i’m still in love with you, jake.

          the page found himself frozen for a moment, lost in the confusion of how dirk acted.   he knew things between them had always been a little less than either’s ideal, but he thought, maybe, with time, they’d repair their done damages.   with all the avoidance & the prince shooing him away, though, jake hadn’t gotten much time to express how he felt on the matters at hand.   then again, he barely knew how he felt, himself.   he was a being of thought poured poorly into impulsive decisions, not one of carefully calculating his every move & thought.   so, rather than spend ages thinking over the perfect thing to say in reply, the page simply spoke off the top of his head.

               ❝   whose to say you’re the only one with a whole mess of feelings about this ?   i’m a bit of a numskull sometimes, but i understand at least enough to know that you’re not ... alone in your emotions.   why else would i keep trying so hard to talk to you, even if you’ve done nothing but shove me away ?   it almost feels like we’ve reversed our old roles ...   ❞     even so, i’ve come to love you again.   i don’t know if i ever stopped in the first place.   i got overwhelmed, i’m sorry.   more words hung on the tip of his tongue, refusing to go any further, refusing to say what he wanted to.

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(   don’t rb !   )      hey, could i ask for people to either send me a word/phrase in asks, or replies on this, and i’ll make a headcanon based around it ?   i’m looking for something to do for a bit to increase productivity.

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heartprinced:

was that his own broken heart bleeding a little bit, a hint of rose on colorless cheeks? perhaps, perhaps.

“ you shouldn’t say such things. you should be feeling better that i’m not around. my presence is but poison to you, jake. get it, and save yourself from further rides on the rollercoaster of pain and ruin. ”

               ❝   you’re so quick to cut me down, it’s a bit impressive.   i want you around, really, i do. i prefer having you near me than knowing you’re holed up somewhere pretending the world doesn’t exist because you think you don’t deserve to be part of it, or whatever reason you’ve got.   if you’re supposed to be poison, then it’s really incredibly weak.   there’s nothing about you that makes me feel the need to keep a distance between us.   ❞     at least, not anymore.   he’d like to believe he’s grown up a bit since the entire previous trickster debacle & his avoidance of the other to start it off.   he was used to dirk enough by now to assume he could tell what the prince needed, even if it had failed once before.

               ❝   i think i’ve been doomed plenty of times with other things that i can let this one go, & not leave my best friend high & dry, hiding away.   ❞

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heartprinced:

“ unfortunately for your current chipper mood, the harsh reality wants the bad to be louder than the good. i will always remember my wrongdoings, my failures and my imperfections, and so the world does. notably, you shouldn’t even be here to begin with, again. you’re just wasting time when there’s people waiting with marigolds in the temples to adore you. ”

                 ❝   well, if it wants to be so loud, then i’ll be louder !   everyone remembers everything, dirk. the good & the bad.   i could be off getting all the lavish praise from i could ever ask for, but it’s a bit lonely without the person who made me stronger & kept me alive for so long there, too.   no amount of flowers in the world can make up for a lack of presence.   ❞ 

          he preferred roses, anyways.

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heartprinced:

“ you say that, and yet that’s only one thing gone dubiously right to ten things gone unequivocally wrong. the tier matters retroactively, because by learning its meaning you do understand why i’ve always been the living embodiment of ruination all this time. ”

               ❝   it doesn’t matter how many things go right or wrong, you’ve still done some serious good between all the bad you’re so determined to stare at !   you saved all of us before, & it was amazing !   like you were straight out of an old action movie !   you’re too harsh on yourself, for being so wonderful sometimes, even if your tier is the “ reason ” or whatever poppycock excuse you’re using.   ❞

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Could you please reblog this if it is okay to ask you straight up if you want to ship?

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✌☿ ✍☂

munday memes.

✌ : Fondest role-play memory, between muses? 

hmm .. actually, my fondest memory is from back when i was in the k.youkai no k.anata fandom ( that lasted for a whole of like three months with 4 people in it ), i had a mirai, & i met someone with an akkey who i got to explore their relationship with, & develop it a lot alongside the original. my favorite interaction though was mirai recovering from a rather serious bout of ability-use-based anemia, & akkey was taking care of her during it.

☿ : A trope you dislike? 

tbh i don’t really dislike many tropes, but i do get easily exhausted with ‘ x happens only so [angst] can happen ’, but too much angst all at once tires me out in general, honestly.

✍ : Offer 3-5 tips on how to get other role players started on interacting with your muse. 

be a blue lady. nah, but seriously, it’s all a matter of just ?? 1.) be nice to him !! he responds much better when people are nice off the bat2.) strike up a conversation based on the fact he’s constantly wearing some kind of combat-ready utility belt. just ask him about it. he’ll tell stories of grand adventure. or comment on his guns, if he has them3.) MOVIES !!! QUOTE A MOVIE OR REFERENCE ONE !!!!! he’ll pick up on it instantly ( providing he’s seen it )4.) considering he ( usually ) lives on a remote island, he’s really bad at social cues, so like … don’t go to him expecting him to pick up everything & understand it all, or keep his mouth shut when he’s supposed to. he’s kind of an unintentional jerk, but he’s trying. be patient with him, or don’t, your call. call him out on his shit, he’ll be lost for a bit.

☂ : Spread some love: mention someone you’ve met that has influenced you or your writing in a positive way, & explain how. 

the biggest shoutout always goes to my girlfriend, @blindedhope, cause she spams me memes & helps me develop my muses a ton. not to mention thanks to her i’ve better developed my writing style to mesh with other styles, after writing with her so long & watching hers change over time toosecondly would go to @checkpieced, my qpp, for helping me develop my kids!! a lot of work i’ve learned to make my kids more fleshed out has been inspired by them!! thirdly goes to @heartprinced, for yelling with me about jake & dirk all the time & making it a lot easier to get into jake’s head tbh !!

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leijonsx:

   ❝ I guess I’ll have soup then! ❞

               ❝   lucky for you then, miss, that’s all we have !   ❞

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rumor has it you have a neytiri body pillow :/

send  “ rumor has it… ”  & a rumor about jake !

               ❝   she’s not a  BODY  pillow, she’s a  THROW  pillow.   ❞   

         doesn’t mean he doesn’t sleep on it, still.

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the other one feels too old to do now, so lms for a lyric starter !

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Roleplay related mun memes!

😡 : Worse role play-related encounter and what advice you would give to others to avoid similar situations?

✌ : Fondest role-play memory, between muses?

✿ : Fondest role-play memory, between muns?

웃 : An existing character you’ve played in the past that you miss?

ツ : An OC you created that you are proud of?

유 : A role-play related instance that you regret/are ashamed/not proud of?

♂ : Do you have a role-play/writing routine? If so, what is it?

♀ : A trope you catch yourself falling back too often?

☿ : A trope you dislike?

✍ : Offer 3-5 tips on how to get other role players started on interacting with your muse.

✉ : On average, how long does it take you to write a reply that you’re pleased with?

❅ : Advice to non-role play blogs that want to get started?

✔ : What drew you to the character you currently play? What types of characters are you generally drawn to?

☯ : Greatest challenge to writing your character?

✘ : Any head canons you’d like to imply on you character but know they wouldn’t fit?

✯ : A head canon someone else has inspired you to adopt?

➳ : Do you prefer writing on your own, on tumblr/a forum, or on an IM platform? Why?

▲ : What sort of information do you like to see on someone’s role play page that helps you determine whether or not you would want to write with them?

▼ : Are there popular head canons for your character that you disagree with? Why?

♫ : Are there parts of your own personality that you reflect onto your character? How do they work?

❤ : What are some role-plays that you have done/are doing that you particularly enjoy and wish to share with your followers?

✈ : What do you think is your reputation in your role-play community?

⌘ : Where do you get some of your inspirations for plots/head canons? Offer an example, if possible.

ღ : What sorts of plots/characters/scenes do you have the most difficulty writing, and why?

☂ : Spread some love: mention someone you’ve met that has influenced you or your writing in a positive way, and explain how.

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MEET THE MUSE ( repost, don’t reblog )

► Name ➔ Jake english ► Are you single ➔ Yes ( mutliship hi hello ) ► Are you happy ➔  I suppose? ► Are you angry? ➔ Not really ► Are your parents still married ➔ Uhhh.. no?

NINE FACTS

► Birth Place ➔ Hellmurder island! ► Hair Color ➔ Dark brown ► Eye Color ➔ Green! ► Birthday ➔ December 1st ► Mood ➔ Curious ► Gender ➔ Male ► Summer or winter ➔ Summer ► Morning or afternoon ➔ Morning!

EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

► Are you in love ➔ I’d rather not try to answer this ► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ No ► Who ended your last relationship ➔ The other party ► Have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔ I believe i have... ► Are you afraid of commitments ➔ A bit? ► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ No ► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ Apparently a whole group of them ► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ Not that i know of?

SIX CHOICES

► Love or lust ➔ Love ► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ Hot tea ► Cats or Dogs ➔ Dogs! But i like cats too ► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔  Few best friends ► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ It depends on with who i guess? ► Day or night ➔ Day

FOUR HAVE YOU EVERS

► Been caught sneaking out ➔ Only by a stray monster or sort of friendly robot ► Fallen down/up the stairs ➔  Dear god no ► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ No? ► Wanted to disappear ➔ Once or twice

FIVE PREFERENCES

► Smile or eyes ➔ Smile ► Fat or skinny ➔ I dont mind either  ► Shorter or Taller ➔ Shorter ► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ Both? ► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ I dont think i really want either but relationship seems better

FAMILY

► Do you and your family get along  ➔ Well jade and i get along well so yes! ► Would you say you have a “messed up life” ➔ I would think so ► Have you ever ran away from home ➔ No there wasnt anywhere to go anyways ► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔  Does that happen?

FRIENDS

► Do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔ NO! ► Do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ Yes ► Who is your best friend ➔  Im not sure actually. Usually id say dirk ► Who knows everything about you ➔ I think roxy knows most but thats only in one circumstance and she doesnt know everything

Tagged by: @heartprinced​

Tagging: anyone wearing blue or black !

[thedoublepp]

Punch Drunk featuring Boxer Jake and the Goth Boy

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“I always think of you before I fall asleep. The words you said, the way you looked. The things we laughed about, the silent moments we shared. And when I dream, I’ll dream of you. Because it’s about you, it’s always about you.”

— Unknown (via wordsnquotes)

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                                  I’m not brave, & I dont think I love adventure either.

          You  know  how  you  think  you  know  these   things   about  yourself  ?    Like  all  these   personal  attributes   about  you  as  if  they’re   written  down   somewhere  like  a  sort  of   mini  biography   so  they  have  to  be  true .    So  you  just   believe   them   &    hope    that  the  believing  is  what   makes   them  true .    But  then  you  spend   so  much   time  believing  those  things   &   taking  their  truth  for  granted  that  you  somehow  forget  to   MAKE   them  true  with  your  words   &   deeds .   /    ac .

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OVERWATCH VERSE INFO DUMP .

role : defense / offense base : n / a , he travels too often affiliation : n / a weapon set : twin pistols, short snares, & a dummy to toss out in protection. 

born in a remote location, an island somewhere. has no idea of his exact birthplace. along the timeline, would be in the golden age. his parents were murdered shortly after his birth in a misunderstanding caused by conflict his grandmother began due to her trigger-happy nature. his parents’ death leaving her to pick him up and flee to somewhere more populated, somewhere they could blend in better. with her, he was told stories of the heroes that saved the land around them, and he grew up with great admiration towards overwatch and its members, even after it had disbanded. he was never very verbally social, instead bonding with people through action. when he did talk, he spoke for hours on end about speculations made about all those heroes, where they were now, how many people they still must be out saving, how much he wished he could have met them before everything went wrong. he doesn’t even really think badly of the members suspected of terrible things, and views each member as a hero. his opinions are sort of black and white, saying everyone’s good to a fault, even if they might not exactly be that great. 

his grandmother taught him that he needed to defend himself should anything go wrong, teaching him all sorts of hunting traps and tricks. it was always just like she was teaching him to hunt animals, not like he’d ever be using his skills for something that would actually hurt someone. it was all based off a “ just in case ” scenario she had concocted in her head. if anything, she was paranoid, and jake couldn’t find it in him to tell her no, to disappoint her.

she taught him to use a certain snare in a last-minute defense method, tossing it down and using his foot to quickly stake it into the ground before tossing the cord towards anything he was aiming for, temporarily limiting its movement and trapping it. it became his main helper while hunting with her, alongside a double set of pistols, both with optional scopes that would click to the tops of them. she also taught him to keep small self-inflating rubber balloon-like dummies with him, in case he ever needed a quick escape from something. 

sometime after the crisis began anew, his grandmother got caught up in something again, and ended up getting taken out in the process. jake spent a long time mourning, unsure of what to do with himself next. of course, one can only mourn in place for so long, so he gathered as many materials as he could manage at once, and set out for a life-long adventure, travelling as much of the world as he could, trying to help out where he could, trying to avoid going out with anything but a bang. 

now, he simply travels, hunting down rumors of overwatch’s rebirth, hoping to eventually run into the people he’d admired so much. he has a tendency to try and find their old bases, even if he really, really shouldn’t be looking for them.