Hey I'm Paey!

est. 2000 | she/they | Lesbian Hick | I like a lotta things 🦇 My Art - About - Carrd - Art Credit

[paiteyy]

Love having a chihuahua, just a little cat dog rat thing that lives with me. It does nothing but love… So beautiful

[paiteyy]

The creature in question

[paiteyy]

Love having a chihuahua, just a little cat dog rat thing that lives with me. It does nothing but love… So beautiful

[hawlucha]

[paiteyy]

Was rlly sad that I was gonna miss the Trigun Maximum cafe and merch bc my Japan trip is next year, in particular the “secret” sketchbook, so I took matters into my own hands (and those of a proxy service lol)

She’s mine bby 🙏

[paiteyy]

Fine, I’ll throw this up here… Back on my Parental Roy bs with this fic that I wrote 3 years ago and revamped/edited last week bc my fmab brain worms have come home 🙏

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64238278

[kingcatnine]

[paiteyy]

Thinking of returning to my roots and editing + posting a parental Roy Dæmon au fic I wrote when I was 18........ My hyper fixations never go away, they just sleep for a while

The au has a like... 20pg long google doc with every character and their Dæmon(with personality descriptions, name reasonings, and pictures)... Man I was so fun and free back then...

[sonypraystation]

how u doing

im not thinking about it

[escuerzoresucitado]

[androdragynous]

being on tumblr for a long time but never reading homestuck like

[bombcollar]

it’s ween

[ooppo]

Idk why but as a kid I used to get hysterically upset everytime I would imagine a gif of a rotating cow because I could never stop the cow from rotating no matter how hard I tried and I would be crying and no one knew why

[ooppo]

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[chetungwan]

This is probably an unnecessary addition, but OCD is missed in cases like these because it's deeply misunderstood by most people.

It's talked about like being obsessively neat or repeating pointless tasks is the main part of it, when really those are just potential symptoms.

The main thing behind OCD is not being about to turn off a thought. There's a thing where most people can just stop thinking about something. If it's over, it's not relevant, it doesn't matter anymore, people can turn their attention away. For OCD, that mechanism can get stuck. And some thought that was supposed to just temporarily pass through your head just stays there. An image of an object rotating. An anxiety about something bad happening. A wish that you made on a dandelion. These are all things that have at some point gotten stuck in my head, sometimes for years at a time.

The compulsions, the rituals, are the person trying to address the thought so it can go away. After all, if you're worried about the door not being locked you can check the lock. But for someone with OCD, that doesn't make the stuck thought go away. So they check it again. And again. And they made a ritual, maybe if I check it exactly five times, I'll know that it's locked and I can let this worry go.

It helps a little. It feels like you're doing something. But it doesn't solve the problem. Actual therapy for OCD involves not doing the compulsion. Instead, you ignore the thought, move around it, try not to give it space in your life. Your mind won't let the thought go normally, so instead you fill yourself with other thoughts. Other parts of your life.

It's not easy at first. Your mind fights you on it. But as you get practice, it gets easier. You learn tricks around your own mind, ways to look at the thought and go, hm. I guess I'll go distract myself now. It does get better. I promise

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

The main thing behind OCD is not being about to turn off a thought.

well damn

[paiteyy]

I NEED Wolfwood in a dress, like, the classic old west school teacher getup… he’d look so beautiful 🥹

[paiteyy]

I’m sorry he’s Vashwood’s son (both in looks and personality LMAO) 

[paiteyy]

Perhaps I’m the odd one out, but my pref will forever be Mpreg Wolfwood, like I’m sorry he is a MOTHER !!!

[ettiqu-rtz]

reject booktok culture. go to the library and get a weird little novel you’ve never heard of in your life and read it all in 2 days like god intended.

[thelightwillbreakthrough]

this too tbh

[paiteyy]

Hummm Wolfwood / Tesla parallels go brrrr in my brain

Idk man Wolfwood has a lot of parallels (narratively and otherwise) with people in Vash’s past that I think are hella interesting

[paiteyy]

I should expand on this...