Life Is A Journey

On a journey to be less depressed AMAB nonbinary trans being kind to myself |20+|they/them/gal/pal

[pandagalisawesome]

Boi,guy,gal are all gender neutral in my books.

[renixie]

well that was a disaster

[renixie]

it would be nice to not feel like I'm constantly on the fringes of every "community" I try to be a part of. it would be nice to feel like I'm anyone's first choice. it would be nice if, just for once, I got to be the one who was desired, sought out, wanted. I truly don't know what it is. why it's like this. I just want to feel wanted.

[renixie]

the secret about your favourite mildly attractive tumblr girl is she's actually kind of a loner in real life. the dissonance between having oodles of ppl on here saying all these nice things at me and then turning around and looking at my real life where I feel kinda just ambiently unwanted most of the time is really jarring. idk. I can't really put it into words but it feels really weird.

[renixie]

feeling like I should probably just stop going to parties and clubs and whatever if it always ends in me going home early feeling like shit, which feels like giving up and killing any chance for it to get better, but like, fuck.

[renixie]

ok I've actually been thinking about this more (rambles below the cut)

I think I've been mischaracterizing this in my head as feeling unwanted when I think what it really has more to do with is dysphoria and latent weird-kid trauma. it's not that I'm unwanted, I can point to several lovely partners friends and others in my life as direct evidence against that, it's entirely down to the fact that the way my body and presentation are perceived doesn't align with the way I want to or wish I was perceived. I want to be seen as small and delicate and feminine, to be the type of girl people approach at a bar and say hi to and flirt with and whatever, but I don't really get that cuz I get typecast on account of the everything.

which isn't to say that the feeling itself is any different or less real but it's nice to be able to identify where it comes from. I think I have a tendency to deny my dysphoria and attribute its symptoms to other things as a like impostor syndrome / internalized transphobia thing maybe so it's nice to feel like I'm making progress on that ig.

I still feel like I'm on the fringes of most social groups I end up in but I think that's an entirely separate thing that only felt related in the moment due to the context of all this occurring at a play party. honestly wouldn't be surprised if that had more to do with growing up as the weird kid nobody liked with a hint of how much everyone hates autistic people especially autistic women. might even make a separate ramble about that another time.

anyway if you're still here ily, peace out and thx for following along

[sadocanine]

i need to be held and pet and i need my chores done for me and i need to be allowed not to do anything for 24 hours

[animalwoonz]

Personal space? Nope - never heard of it.

[alaimo]

Is that…… them

[goatguy7399]

YALL THERES MORE TO THE SERIES

[homucifer-ryotan]

PSA for Canadians. EDIT (September 16th): The petition is up until October 25th. You have plenty of time still to sign.

Link source

[scorpionlafemme]

[pandagalisawesome]

Stop making every hobby and thing you're good at into a job, fuck capitalism

[enki2]

[winged-void]

it's obvious to me that many of my detractors fail to properly understand how pretentious and condescending a faggot I am capable of being.

[themelancholycinephile]

[lilyblisslys]

this is how cishet dudes talk to trans women online

[adonischildsupportcase]

[gentlekalita]

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

what's shameful about bottoming?

do me a quick favor, ok? go spend 25 years being coercively raised male with every single person in your life from your parents to your teachers to your mentors to your friends to the celebrities and politicians and hucksters on the radio to the books you read and the cartoons you watch and the history you learn, everything, telling you constantly in ways big and small, explicit and implicit, that if you yes YOU or anyone who is like you wants to be receptive in sex, that that makes you a laughable pansy faggot, a joke and an acceptable target, a failure and a disappointment, an object of pity and shame. have them tell you this also about being soft, or scared, or tender, or emotional, or needy, or lonely, or small. believe it. internalize it. try your absolute hardest to live by it even though this act of living feels actually like killing something in you that is small and cannot ever be killed but can die over and over and each time it hurts. fail. really fail. break down. realize that you could never do it. realize that you never wanted to. realize that what you wanted was to be loved. realize you can still be loved. take a lover. try to let her inside you. the feeling in your stomach is your answer. any other questions?

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

the secret untold story of this post is that anon came back in my inbox after this answer, furious because how dare i "talk down to" another trans person like they didn't know everything i know

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

like why are you fucking asking me then dipshit

[moniquill]

[traycakes]

It's not just to have a "do over" that doesn't involve the original cast, it's to cut them out of the royalties. Literally the entire point is to make sure all the money made by Harry Potter goes to transphobes or people willing to work with transphobes.

If you watch it, you are supporting bigotry, hate, and oppression. That's just objective reality. All for a story that you probably have already seen in movie and book form.

[apocalypse-angel]

#the last point is especially true since the old cast receives royalties for anything with their likeness on it#meaning the original trio still gets money for every mug with their 14 year old faces on it#if they stop making those and replace them with the new cast which they will the old cast gets cut off completely#which is again exactly what rowling wants because she cannot stand those 'ungrateful brats' as she would likely put it#and as she has last say in anything that gets made in harry potter paraphernalia this might also explain the decrease in faces on products

via @discipleofkleio

I hate Rowling so much.

[dawaxenpith]

There's a tattoo artist I wanna get a tattoo from and they do this particular style/collection of tattoos and I want to maybe, I dunno use your body as reference cause you're really insanely hot. 👉👈

Not asking for free btw

That is …. One of the most flattering things a person could possibly do….. idk if you realize that……

[pandagalisawesome]

😳😅 I suppose it is.... Genuinely tho I'm not even fucking with you.... Please.... If you're down 👀👀 lemme know... I'll even show you when its done

[pussyronin-deactivated20260120]

swallowing a sword to please my ailing king and i get it down my throat and i start gagging and coughing but im blushin g and shaking alittle and i push it down further and cross my legs for reasons the court does not understand and then i pull the sword out and gasp for air and i like spit on it and my makeups all fucked up and the guards instantly riddle me with crossbow bolts

[ishowdespair-deactivated2026012]

[mandatory-ftmbreeder]

pussy from a guy who was "the weird girl" growing up

[estrodjinn21]

Dick from a girl who was "the quiet boy" growing up

[transcockiness]

dick from a guy who was the "weird girl" growing up

[devout-cleric]

pussy from a girl who was "the quiet boy" growing up

[theabigailthorn]

long ago the four nations lived in harmony