Paniniehead

i talk about anything that pops into my head if we’re being honest. so enjoy cause i love to yap about literally everything :)

[paninieheadd]

i actually feel like i’ve fell off the face of the earth, physically

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i need a cigarette bad, i got some pressure built up.

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i love my bed and i wish i could take it anywhere with me

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literally just wanna hop in my car and not stop driving

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when thinking isn’t enough so you have to start writing again. five pages. and i’m not even finished. like i am being haunted by something unattainable it feels like.

what’s worse is looking back and having favorite snippets, like i’m reading something else. like what do you mean i wrote, “now i feel worse for giving a part of myself to someone that wasn’t you.” i am actually appalled.

[vanillafawn777]

fuck crystals & manifestation i need a gun

[paninieheadd]

needed it yesterday tbh

[bookobbsesedgirly]

"What that mouth do?" Go nonverbal.

[paninieheadd]

honestly couldn’t have said it any better myself

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don’t know a polite way to tell people who ask, “why don’t you go out more?” BECAUSE I DON’T WANNA

IM BORING! please let me rot in my room in peace, like i’m sorry i’m not super interesting and go out to bars or something.

[paninieheadd]

realized i’ve been sleeping on skirts because why have i waited till now to wear them. it’s probably the best feeling i’ve had all year

[fawnangel09]

nicotine isn't working anymore i think it's time for hard drugs

[paninieheadd]

actually have never seen something more real in my life.

[paninieheadd]

there’s something about when it nears the end of the night that i have to go through internal crises like should i drop out? am i unlovable? am i really meant to be alone for the rest of my life? will i stop dreaming of outfits i’ll never have? feeling nostalgic for where i grew up but would actually rather die than have to be stuck in my hometown again. will i still feel like god hates me even though i haven’t been to a church in years because i can’t bring myself to be in one anymore? am i turning into my mother? was my mother right?

but i usually will just gaslight myself by saying i’m just a girl and that’s that.

[paninieheadd]

a week of midterms down and a break is right around the corner. so i’m pregaming a break the best way i can; which is having a high shower, lay in bed with a03, and Outkast playing.

[paninieheadd]

at looking back at my previous post i might possibly abandon the lovely cricket feet rubbing because i want to actually crunch on a camel menthol crush rn

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laying in bed with the fan on, when it’s already cold, with a pile of blankets on, and rubbing your feet together like your a cricket is what probably i look forward to the most

[paninieheadd]

i wake up in the morning, am reminded of the country i’m in everyday, and the i get sad again. (my friend just showed me kanye’s new t-shirt merch)

[paninieheadd]

listening to ethel chain’s perverts in the middle of the night, while also being high, was probably the most terrifying yet beautiful experience i’ve had. i think this is what transcending is supposed to be like