If I Die Young

Recording the ramblings of a life that would be less than fufilled if cut short.

[paradoxiica]

One day, in a distant universe, far, far away, @markiplier is gonna acknowledge I exist.

I’ll be able to tell him that he’s an absolute doll, thank him for saving my life, and of course, finally be able to buy a shirt that says SENPAI NOTICED ME

but, you know, priorities. 

[paradoxiica]

Hello, upper body tics, it’s been a while.

[paradoxiica]

Me trying to get a friend into @markiplier : “Yeah, he’s a ball of sunshine and is probably the sweetest person you’ll ever watch in your entire life and he’s just a gift...no...no, don’t go on his tumblr, don’t, just D O N O T

[connyhascontrol]

same

[animate-mush]

@queenshulamit

[iwilltrytobereasonable]

@icryyoumercy

[sadbaffoon]

the finest.

[paradoxiica]

@markiplier are you being cranky because of cheese physics?

[holobat-deactivated20251015]

The Ghost of Christmas Sass

[paradoxiica]

@markiplier

if you find a tiny, angry teenager at your house when you get home from vacation, you have noone to blame but yourself

[kiimon]

Me over the past few months, selfie confidence through the rooooooof~

[konekotakuchan]

The colors are so fucking beautiful

[musinvenusian]

I’m digging the blonde and the pink <3

[rm-renfield]

the old scooby doo movies centered around scooby and shaggy are so weird because instead of portraying all the monsters as humans in masks like the basis of the rest of the series, they were always encountering real monsters??

i mean no wonder scooby and shaggy are always so scared when they see people in masks.  they know there are real monsters.  one time dracula tried to turn shaggy into a werewolf.  they taught at a school for monster girls.  like??  nobody knows the terrors they have seen 

[roguesquirrel]

its kind of weird to consider that the second scooby and shaggy are removed from the gang their lives become deeply surreal. shaggy meets women named things like googie and has to teach math to little monsters like seriously what the fuck is his life

[observanthero]

[noorannmatties]

Noorann Matties

Mental Illness is isolating in and of itself, but i’ve always felt further detached and embarrassingly “other” in the sense that I seem to experience my illness in far messier, more inconvenient ways than others I know struggling with similar diagnosis. Struggling with mental illness can make you feel disconnected from the general public in the sense that they don’t know what it is to face a large portion of your daily life, but it’s infinitely more disheartening to feel that you can’t relate to other people who are supposed to understand your struggle. My experience is exhausting and inconvenient, it is not a woman wrapped in a sweater staring out her window with a mug of tea in an anti-depressant commercial. My experience is sloppy and cumbersome, it seems too ugly to share with the world and too divergent from the experience of those close to me to share with my friends, so I keep it to myself. It occurs to me that perhaps the reasons I have kept the full extent of my illness so far away from the public eye is the reason I have no representations of illness to relate to, perhaps this is precisely how others around me feel about their struggle. It’s taken me most of adult life to realize that this struggle is not something that I asked for and not something to be ashamed of in the way that I have been. These self-portraits are an attempt to frankly and unashamedly represent the positions that my mental illness puts me in on a daily basis, easy to look at and otherwise.

[digenovanicolo]

Just a reminder

Bi girls aren’t secretly straight

Bi guys aren’t secretly gay

Pansexuals aren’t attracted to everyone

Nor are they attracted to pans

Bi and pans don’t all want a threesome

Bi and pans are not more likely to cheat

Asexuality is not celibacy

Nor are asexuals plants

Aromantics don’t need to be fixed

The ‘a’ in LGBTQA stands for asexual not ally

Demisexuals and polysexuals exist

[empresspinto]

hey guys, hope your skin is clear and you get a text from someone you like real soon.

also that your lunch tastes good, you find twenty dollars on the ground, and that thing coming up that you were dreading turns out not so bad

[loren-vance]

Passing this good karma

[pocketsofroses]

I reblogged this 3 days ago and my skin got clear and I got a message from a guy who refers to me as queen yesterday. Good karma vibes all around.

[hauntcars-deactivated20150411]

  “If you weren’t here from the beginning then you’re a fake fan”. That’s just like saying my sister isn’t a part of my family because I escaped the vagina first. 

[mattysnbhd]

Bless

[m0nk3y-bl0g]

escaped

[paradoxiica]

So I’ve had a bit of a shit week.

Mostly consisting of knowing my dad’s sick and watching him destroy himself with alcohol and trying to carry him to his bedroom every night.

So I’m here, falling to pieces, and I ended up in the Markiplier tag.

What a beautiful, amazing group of people, all united because of an equally amazing man.

Stay gorgeous, everybody, and remember, you’re not alone. 

[paradoxiica]

Dear anxiety:

No, right now is not a good time.

Fuck it. I’ll go bury myself in Markiplier videos because that’s the only place I can feel safe. 23 years old and reduced to tears over nothing and finding solace in a youtube celebrity. Yep. That’ll get me far.