[paraplural]

hello! my name is violet and this is my (new) madd blog. I basically just make moodboards, occasionally post convos between me and my verit, and constantly talk about how gay I am 4 her 24/7. Expect it to be very autistic

My verit is really really special to me, and this is the only place where I can really write about her. check out the tag "kelly" to learn abt her!

basically, I have CPTSD, and so I'm just a bunch of trauma responses in a trenchcoat. my verit kinda represents my ideal self + the preservation of traits that I couldnt express bc I was yknow. Going through trauma. Sooo this might also serve as a kinda CPTSD recovery + MADD blog! I just wanna be strong like my wife (๑♡⌓♡๑)

thx 4 reading and I hope you have a nice day!

[jovialtorchlight-deactivated202]

[viiliart]

*draws more madohomus to run away from responsibilities*

[destroymylife]

have a nice day :)

[orpheuslament]

Cain, José Saramago (trans. Margaret Jull Costa)

[lunamonchtuna]

— Amal El-Mohtar, from This Is How You Lose the Time War (via lunamonchtuna)

[paraplural]

Coupla picrews of me and the girl <3 -Kelly

[sunsbleeding]

And in my heart you’ll stay //

[recoverr-deactivated20220605]

this might sound like a “hot take”, but you don’t have to be strong all the time. you don’t have to be strong, period. you’re human, you were born to experience life and the full spectrum of human emotion! emotions and crying and fears and flaws don’t make you “weak.” they just make you as real as can be.

[deviika]

Li Qingzhao, tr. by Jiaosheng Wang, from Complete Poems; "Tune: The Pertridge Sky,"

[paraplural]

Okay, so a lot has happened in the past month or two, which is why I haven't been very active.

Shortly after going into the inpatient program, I had to go in again. Eventually it was proposed that my med dose was too high and that's what was making me feel s/uicidal. Ever since they changed it, I haven't felt acutely suicidal to the point where I'd have to be hospitalized.

I also flew back home to stay with family for a bit after the second hospitalization. I'm on a lot of meds, and I think they've helped me out a lot so far.

I also had a really important conversation with my boyfriend regarding the nature of my verit, considering he's known her for as long as I have. I told him I feel like she's a part of me. He ended up suggesting that I try to sorta "embody" her as much as possible and... See what happens, sorta.

So I'm going to do that. Let my mind sorta slip into her role and see what ends up being posted here.

[hiyuki]

ꕥ TOUKO NANAMI & YUU KOITO ꕥ

▷ Bloom Into You Illustration Works ◦ Astrolabe

[arrymoon-deactivated20221207]

having an oc who’s decides to live in your head rent free is so frustrating because it isnt like anyone’s making content for them but you but you also want to infodump about them but youre just kinda rotating them around like a rotisserie chicken to wii music

[arrymoon-deactivated20221207]

i’ve been rotating him like a rotisserie chicken for hours

[akindplace]

Titsayy

[akindplace]

Nedra Tawwab

[weltenwellen]

Franz Kafka, Letters to Felice‎

[metamorphesque]

― Vladimir Nabokov, Letters to Véra